the march hols are finally here!

but then again, besides not having lessons,
i really cant think can think of any other difference it has with sch days.

for one, i still hav to wake up early everyday.
yeah. EVERDAY.
for Raffles Community Leaders Fourm and Guitar Practices.

like MayFong said: Holiday = HORRI-day.
haha.

speaking of Mayfong,
she's in the same Special Interest Group as me for RCLF!
mayfang, cheryl, geneve & me are in Education Opportunities. (:
Speaking of which, think RCLF is quite cool lah.
it looked a bit boring initially,
especially for those who dont like forums and seminars,
[ there are ppl like there there, who jus went for CV sake. DUH. ]
but for a ISAC kid like me it's gd exposure.
it boardens your perspective jus listening to the both local/foreign delegates (:
looking forward to mon & tue!

but at least i got sun free lah.
going to SMU open house & watching Huang Cheng with 6A peeps. (:

ohh really wanted to catch movies like L! and maybe Step Up2,
but got no time / timetable clashes >.<
anyone wanna watch with me?

ARRGH. senior high life is so stressful lah.
i cant imagine what would hav happened if i had gone to other JCs.
could it have been better or worse?
DHS is a sheltered place.
we're comfortable at where we are cos the sch is very protective.
but tt same plus point cos also be a minus point in a way tt we're sort of enclosed in a cave,
cordoned off from the rest of the world.
do we lose our competiveness?
maybe yes, tt's why i'm desperatly trying to catch up with the rest of the world outside class time.
cos, at the end of the day, the workforce isnt limited to the small confined circle of DHS.

so i was thinking, why didnt i chose to transfer?
i would hav to deal with peer pressure & feel demoralised.
but at the same time i could hav been given more opportunities,
widen horizons, made more friends, stretched intellectural ability, perhaps even motivated to study.
but then again, 2 years is definitely not enough for me to adapt and settle down for A levels.
besides, life could hav been more hectic & competive.
and i admit i was also lazy to fill in the application. also lazy to change out of the environment i'm alr very familar with.

well, every path has it's pro and cons.
and since i've made a decision, i shall stick to it.
haha esp since i love DHS & 5C12 & Guitar & Guides too much to move anyway. (:

ohh then there'll be a problem of holding on to friends.
if you transfer sch often maybe u'll face this problem of distancing urself from the ones tt u know.
but in DHS we know each other from like,
since Sec 1, and totally know each other inside out.
so it lessens the problem of drifting apart, in my opinion.
some may say tt going into new places you start afresh and widens ur social circle.
tt is true of cos.
but i also believe tt we shld hold on to our close friends,
even when we make new ones.

although some ppl jus say senior high is jus a continuation of the junior high,
but i think generally most ppl are adopting changes,
maybe gradually, but significantly.
like me for one, is usally a reserved person [haha yeah cos i'm an introvert]
but is slowly learning to speak up,
as i've learnt tt if not i'll hav to jus hold my peace.
and also i know i cant do public speaking,
so i'm trying my best to improve too.
not only for the sake of PW but as personal development too.

i believe in holistic education.
we shld always strive for a balanced education instead of one tt jus trains you up for examinations.
although i agree that havin a good qualification is impt,
but what is the most useful is what can be appliable in the workforce,
and that is EQ, smth which you cant be taught,
but has to go thru self-discovery thru experiences.
i've discovered tt while those with the qualifications are given a headstart,
they might not neccessarily come up as the champions of life.
perhaps it's the way i view success?
you might be holding a high ranking position but tt solely doesnt mean tt you succeed in life.
success to me is happiness.
not only your own but also of family & frineds around you.
i totally dont agree with backstabbing those close to you in order to climb up the corperate ladder.
at the end of the day your selfish actions will leave you with no one to share your happiness with.
so what's the point?

and i totally hate CV-builders. those selfish pigs! #%!%#*#^@#

tt's why i'm striving to boarden my experiences whenever possible,
but at the same time,
by taking part in a lot of things deprive me of the time to study & rest,
and results in me getting stressed easily.
so i've decided to stop getting myself involved in so many commitments,
and learn to commit to my current ones.
[ it took me very long to ponder and having to make the decision to give up WAFF & NDP EXCO ] - haha it's the 'Thinker' side of me working.
it's totally irresponsible to sign up for everything and ending up having to drop out midway.


yupyup so senior high has really been quite fruitful so far, with lots of First-s:
[ expect tt i dont study enough >.< ]

• Chingay! - my 1st dance performance
• Semakau - my 1st nature walk/guiding
• Class CIP - my 1st time heading a proj
• Health Week - my 1st time making announcement (although it's kindof a flop)

yupyup so as u can see i tried to walk out of my comfort zone to take on new challenges despite still staying on in the same environment.

but then, the problem of time management arises
let's hope i'll be able to overcome it
[ something i've been trying to since Pri 5 but in vain >.< ]
anyway, i've decided to chiong all the fun stuff in J1
and jus drop everything and become a full-time mugger in J2.

but i think i'll need great determination to achieve tt too. GRRRRR.