hope i can finish my post b4 last few minutes to midnight.

17.
big girl now, lots to worry about.

wishes:
to lead a happy & healthy life! - my most ultimate wish.
to improve on time management and STOP PROCRASTINATING.
but my most immediate wish, is to get sufficient sleep.

today at sch was, well, normal,
with me chiong AQ aft sch with libing accompanying me! THANKS!
oh and erm, the unpleasant:
the librarian scolded me today.
though i admit it's my fault lah,
but how dare he scold the bday girl.
he not scared kena cursed meh. @#$^^%$#&*!! haha.

but the well-wishes really brightened my day.
thanks to all who wished me!
u guys know who u are and i just want you guys to know that i really appreciate those well-wishes and THANK YOU VERY MUCH! (:

haha but there's one particluar wish tt's worth mentioning:
it's really cool to see one whole row of "HAPPY BIRTHDAY HO SI MIN :D" on the MSN,
so yeah, thanks! (:




erm, and thanks for the comments given for the super emo post.
esp the one where dispite the ambiguity u still can guess what i was trying to say?
cos most of the ppl reading this wont know what i'm talking about de. (or so i think anyway)
thanks for being understanding, it seriously made me feel better.
not becos it solved the problem but more of making me aware that someone out there understands and still cared enough.

but the post earlier isn't jus abt one incident so dont misunderstand k?
i tend to try to bottle everything up until a point where i cant stand it i'll outburst.
so it's not really bccos of one thing tt i got so mad..
i'm not a emo kid ok.




17 is a big gap from 16 i realised.
i've become much more reflective and as a result much more aware of myself.
which is a good thing i hope.

it's being 17 tt lots of things began to pour in.
politics - even in a friendly environment (or so i think it is).
Heartlanders VS Elites?
good thing tt it's mostly friendly rivalry i see.
i can imagine it to be much worse if this happens in someplace else...


Famous quote from Mr Gi:
Life is hard, why not make it harder?
but being the easily contented person i am,
what suits me more would be:
Life is hard, why make it harder?

dhsGUITAR concert was a HUGE success!
WHEEEEEEEE~!
*so happy*
(:

good job to all dhsGUITARISTS!
haha of cos it's not only our sole effort,
but those of kevin, denjz, Miss Ho & Mr Soh, the emcees, jinghui & his team, all the audiences, and everyone who helped in one way or another!
here's a big THANK YOU for making our debut concert so super successful!

hmm..
come to think of it there's actually lots of room for improvements lah,
but given it's our 1st concert, it's not bad alr!
of cos the musical part of it can be brushed up so much further,
but we must seriously congratulate ourselves for all the hardwork put in!
i'm seriously heartened to see that ppl enjoyed our concert lah,
i was so super scared it'll be a flop at first.
but now it's proven tt we've done a good job! YAY! (:

think our seniors put in a lot of effort for the concert,
and it's mainly cos of their dedication that our concert was a success.
us Year 5s really have a lot to learn from them, in terms of skills and other wise.

time really flies lor, concert so fast over alr.
and aft the BBQ yesterday the seniors would be leaving us soon! :(
oh no. can we cope on our own? we abit CMI leh, cos most of us from UG de, no SYF experience.
i think of SYF super >.< liao.

haha but it was nevertheless a fun (and tough) journey to the concert,
and i'm glad we not only made it,
but did a great job out of it!
[except tt the slideshow i did of the childhood photos didn't get played finish :( ]

haha good job everyone!
let's continue to work hard to bring dhsGUITAR ensemble to greater heights!

and i mean it.

it really seems like i'm putting to much emphasis on stuff tt are not impt.
as in, i value all the stuff that seem worthless to other ppl.
in the end all the things i put lots of effort into doing,
(including scarificing my maths test)
are seen as totally worthless trash in the eyes of other people!

no one seems to appreciate what i hav done
and i mean TOTALLY.
it makes me feel that everything thing i've been working on is meaningless
and now i feel totally stupid to have done it.

all the criticisms.
i mean, not tt i think my work is prefect,
but is it tt bad tt all i receive is criticisms?
do u guys know tt i spend all my time doing it when i can be sleeping soundly in my bed?
and my school work has been piling becos of it?
even if you know it, DO YOU CARE?

i dont understand why in the world did i volunteer myself do so all the sai-gang while the rest can continue with the impt stuff,
and all i get is negative comments.
why did i spend so much of my time on things tt others deem as sai-gang,
i do them a favour by finishing it,
then finish le still must be bombarded by negative comments and now it's making me cry cos it shows tt i've totally wasted my time?



why am i so

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AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

it's not the first time this has happened,
it goes to show that it doesnt pay to hold on to this native thinking of mine,
and it's really time tt i learn my lesson,
to stop being so ever-selfless when my own sch work is not even done.
i shall stopping trying to be the superman to save everyone's day when i know i cant cant even save myself in the first place.
not tt the rest would care. they only live for themselves anyway.

everyone is busy, WHO ISN'T?
in fact i may be even busier than you!
but if no one does the sai-gang, do you expect the sai-gang to do by themselves?!
no one ever notices this sai-gang warrior clearing everything when they are busy with their hectic schedules.
they dont care. why should i?

sometimes i really wonder why i borther myself with these things when i hav so much other stuff to do.
oh well, from now on, i shall wash my hands on off the DIRT of the earth.

i give up.

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WAAAHHHH


i realised my mistake :(
i shld have studied from math test.
%$@!%^&&^%$$%

i totally blanked out at sigma,
though ppl said it was easy.
needless to say,
it's cos i didnt read thru sigma, at all.



BRRR.
okok i shld wake up from my LONG day-dream.
minutes are flying by and soon i'll find myself left with days to the Common Test.
i really shld buck up.



SIMIN:
stop assuming tt everything will turn out fine,
cos this is only true in fairytales.
in reality, they only do for ppl who work hard,
and tt's not you, and you know it.



i know you think urself as a very blessed girl,
with nothing major coming your way right up till now.
however, dont get urself blinded by ur self-indulged complaceny,
it's time your realise life isn't a bed of roses,
and things are jus going to get tougher.



...



you know, i always hav this thinking that everything bad is jus a nightmare,
and i'm jus going to wake up one day and everything will be fine.
however, i suppose it's time for me to get tt idea out of my head as life's jus going to head towards the negative direction,
i suppose i cant get myself out of this if i dont work hard.


but i dont wish for a lot,
jus a simple happy and healthy life and i'll be contented.
not too much to ask for right?

nevertheless, since tt's what i want,
i shall work hard towards it (:



u know i always set targets but when the time comes always cant seem to force my self to work on it.
dont know why but i simply lack the determination.
i always tend to do the things tt i like, and leave the more difficult (mostly dreaded) pieces of work to the last,
then always assuming things will solve themselves when the time comes.
but i'll regret later when i have to chiong and hand up a sloppy piece of work.
and i hate myself for it. GRRR. >.<




JIAYOU SIMIN! YOU CAN DO IT!
you survived today after all. i'm use you can do it again.
when the going get's tough, only the tough gets going (:

p.s. no more boycotting of math test. u're jus going to regret it later.

wah today is one LOOONNNNGGG day.
except tt we got a shock when we were asked to ran 2.4 today instead of thus,
and tt i kept sneezing thru out math & hist lesson tt i used lots of toilet paper!
lucky mingquan lend me tissue..
i thought i'll super sick then cant come sch the next day or smth,
but the prob is cos my immune system very strong,
turned out i got well by PW,
which might as well, since it meant i ran my 2.4 with my class.
yup, and everything else is, well, expected.

found out tt it's sort of an irony to have more friends,
yet feel lonelier in seniorhigh.
i learnt tt i dont always hav to be with ppl,
cos it's usually the case where i'm physically with them,
but not psycologically.. hmm..
but it's ok, as an introvert, i found tt doign work by myself is ok too,
perhaps i may be even more productive (:

these lonely times make me look forward to not so lonely ones.
like being in good company (:
maybe its gd to have the contrast,
make me treasure these times more,
and hav some time to think by myself.

guitar was until late as usual,
but it's worth it cos we improved!
jinghuan & i for caihong yesterday, and guitar 3 for doraemon today!
*beams* ^_^

WHEEE~!
I'm currently indulging in this MBTI craze!

but i do tt becos i think it's quite accurate!
not say TOTALLY lah, but mostly lah.

like me, though the test deemed tt i'm an ENFJ,
but i think i'm more like an INFJ.
however, i think (I+E)NEJ will make it very accurate. (:

according to the lady who is a very entertaining speaker.
so much so tt we actually look forward to PC sessions for the 1st time!

INFJs are The Protectors.
We hold very strong principles and stick to it - it's the 倔强ness tt makes it me i guess.
And we're carefree ppl who don't like being constrained - tt's why i've been associating myself as a butterfly free to fly anywhere i want (:

and maybe that's the reason i keep a distances from ENTJs.
i mean really. not purposely but i found out tt those ppl i usually keep a dist from,
turn out to be mostly ENTJs.
ENTJs are the Dictators
no offence to anyone in particular, but they tend to force their way thru most situations.
something which I'm not very comfortable with.
I'm mostly ok with anything, as long as it doesnt contradict my guiding principles
but sometimes when the situation gets overbearing then the rebellion side of me will show.
and tt's when i turn aggressive - maybe deemed by others as fierce?

i will definitely speak up abt something i'm very passionate abt.
maybe tt's why The Protectors are also The Revolutionists?
the eg. person is Martin Luther King! (:

and it's to a certain extent true tt i tend to look at the bigger picture,
whereby i'll look at those important/big scaled issues rather than the minute details.

but the part abt the Revolutionist being over concerned with big-scaled issues when u try to talk to them about your personal issues is a bit exagerrated lah.
even if then, i have my other side to back me up!

ENFJs are The Guide - haha not only the Girl Guide but also the inspirational guide.
we'll lend a good listening ear to your problems and offer constructive advice so feel free to come to me if u encounter any problems!
[ if The Mother ppl are not free then The Guide is also a good option (: ]

aother point i find true is the part abt The Guide being very good group facilitators.
i mean, nt only in camps, but in normal life situations.
i'm aware tt i'm quite effective in small grps,
but in a big group i'm quite helpless - should be the Introvertism kicking in i think.
and i'm a very reflective person! haha i think you kind of guessed tt juding from the length of blog posts i write - most personal reflection somemore.

think the MBTI was a really good way for us to understand more about ourselves and others,
and it was really funn too!
cos it was fairly accurate and all, with a latge majority of the people i asked.
and it gave me good career options! - for INFJs: Business (HR, management consultant) (:
so i really thank the sch for arranging such a enriching session for us!
and the lady for being super entertaining and analyatical in her explanations. (:

...

OH.
and going home with guitar ppl was ERM,
a continuation of going home with the 5C12 ppl - or to a certain extend, WORSE.
becos of a certain 'party goer'.
i seriously think the cleaner will hav a shock when he sees water bottles left behind by the roadside suspiciously..

today's a BAD DAY.
got so many things clash tgt. HUMPH.
i was having a headache so i didnt take NAPFA today :(
and i flopped econs. again.
sighz.
shall chiong PI editting.

was feeling "mean".
haha. not really lah,
but Lyon, Dora & i became partners in crime. (:
poor mr ang though. haha.

decided to get myself a nice bagpack.
treat it as a bday gift to myself (:
when i hav the time to shop for it tt is.

these few weeks is HECTIC.
9 more days to guitar concert. ARRGGH.

today's GP lessons was REALLY FUNNY!
i mean it, as in, TOTALLY.
full of korean stars & reptiles! haha.
we laughed for 10mins - non stop!
even Mr Tan laughed!! (:

see, cos ppl were telling Mr Tan tt he looks like Lee Jun-ki
then he was saying tt he thinks Lee Jun-ki looks more like keith!
and agnes!
then he was saying on 2nd thoughts he thought Lee Jun-ki looks more like a reptile,
so wad does it imply?

HAHA.
TOTALLY HILARIOUS!
laughed until our stomach ached.

anyway, besides tt GP lesson tt day was quite a fruitful one
as i thought the issues we went thru were more relevant and more indepth - as compared to usual anyway,
so good job Mr Tan!

haha ZhiYing shld be proud of her CuiCui ((:

today's another long day at sch,
naturally lots of things happened,
or rather, i have lots to comment on the stuff tt happened, as usual.

the more major thing would be for PW.
erm, it's actually quite unexpected tt the Year 6s to get this result.
i mean, they are a batch of very dedicated students,
always up to task, in fact, more capable than we are (or so i see it)

in fact the release of their results have been a shock to the school,
and a shock to us Year 5s too, i must say.
with the main reason being:
the Year 6s have as then pioneer batch of the DHP prog,
have always served a good role model and the ppl we Year 5s look up to.
they are like, better than us in every way, cos they are the batch specially selected for the DHP prog whereas we are on a opt-out scheme.

as we rank ourselves lower than them,
their results seemed a little unsatisfactory.
does tt mean that the scores we'll achieve would be much worse?
i shutter to think of that thought.

as our PW grpings recently got release,
some kiasu grps from other classes have alr started working on it.
(yeah i saw them discussing the other day. totally shocked me.)
well, to me, it's not about the head start, but the continual commitment.
and i resolve to take the Year 6s results as a spur to motivate myself, as well as my grp, to do a good job!

okok another random thing. (it's somehow related to the MBTI actually)
i received comments tt i'm fierce :(

as an ENFJ, i shld be open to receiving criticism and readily accept comments..
yeah. i agree tt it's true sometimes lah,
thus i shall try to reflect abt my actions:

i do agree tt i'm fierce SOMETIMES bah.
at moments when i'm not feeling too good.
i tend to express my temper in a more aggressive way.

but usually i get angry becos of a lot of things accumulating tgt.
like at times when stuff pile up and totally stress me up.
one events happens aft another leading to a built up of a high stress level and tensions,
jus like how a volcano, experiences the magma built up,
then comes a point where i could hold it no longer,
and tt's when the even the slightest thing pisses me off.
i tend to release all my angry at once, like how a volcano erupts.

yeah. so i appear to be angry at the most minimal thing.
but actually i'm usually stressed up by the previous tensions and jus happen to release all the built-up anger on the poor person or particular incident.
[ i must admit tt's kind of bad too.
poor chinghsien. she must hav gotten the worse out of my eruptions during the thinkquest period]

but trust me, i'm trying to make my eruptions less frequent now.
afterall, i'm a introvert expressing the characteristic of an extrovert right?
it's only natural to covert all my internal emo-ness into an fierce outward expression.

come to think about it,
pure introverts are kind of scary cos they bottle their feelings up all the time.
u'll never know what's on their minds.
and extreme extroverts make me feel intimidated in their presence - shows tt i'm an introvert at heart aft all.

okok back to the fierce issue.
it's ok to be fierce at times i think,
at points where you have to get your point across and no one's listening.
not to show ppl who's boss, but to make sure u do not allow others to climb over your head or take adv of you by being an overly nice person.
esp for a short and childish-looking (comment by someone else..) person like me,
it's impt to show some power to avoid being bullied i believe.

but it's bad if i appear too fierce though.
it'll create tt distance that'll prevent ppl from getting close or even try to communicate.
what if in the end no one want dares to talk to me?
[ like how i found out why there wasnt anything much for me to do for thinkquest.. ]
and even ppl i'm close to are keeping their distance - graceL?
i can feel it. :(

i mean, hey ppl, dont do tt!
i'm actually a nice and amiable person at heart.
it's jus tt i get angry when i'm stressed up.
i'll try to ensure tt it wont happen often.
and i jus want you guys to know tt even when tt happens,
it's the thing/situation i'm angry at, never the person.
furthermore, i'm more often angry with myself more than anything else,
so it's definitely not your fault and should stay away from me permanently.

another problem is tt i tend to vent my anger on ppl i'm closer to.
cos i kindof know that they wont hate me to the core jus becos i screamed at them?
perhaps, but i'm trying to change tt too.
so, sorry ppl! i love you guys and i hope you know it.

oh erm. and when u sort of see tt i'm emo-ing,
[ yeah when i emo it's pretty obvious if you're observant enought ]
jus leave me alone and give me time to myself alright?
sometimes i jus need time and space to sort out my own thinking
and i'll be alright aft tt.


and yeah i'm someone who takes comments seriously.
so please dont crack some stupid joke abt me and expect me to laugh. (ok lah, except the part abt being short cos i admit it)
otherwise, i'll remb u for sure i can bet.
haha. jkjk. i welcome positive criticisms!

and as a reflective person and an ENFJ,
i'm open to comments you're welcomed to jus tell me anything!
THANKS LOTS to those who did (:

- addition: someone commented tt maybe it's becos of guides then i kindof got conditioned to it le. possible. although some other guides are MUCH fiercer. HAHA. thanks for ur comment! (:

wow. i realised tt i've been blogging almost everyday.
i think the main reason must be due to me suffering under too much stress,
i used to bottle up all my sufferings,
but then i realised it's super unhealthy and will only make myself worse!
think tt time jiayun & sweekgeok were super shocked to see me so stressed.
they must think tt i'm sum emo-kid.
- haha maybe i am lah. though i may appear to be an extrovert someimes when i'm high, but trust me, i'm an introvert at heart (:

yupyup, so here's a warning: there'll be lots more ranting and venting of anger on this blog from this point onwards. haha.


okok guitar.
my G2000 shirt is a bit big.
but the smaller sized one is abit small, so haiz, forget it.
and the court shoes super painful!
shld have brought slippers to change.
i got blisters on my leg now. >.<

erm overall the thing wasnt too good lah,
we kind of overan a bit. and we forgot to bring the slideshow! ><
but it wasn't a complete flop either,
ok, maybe for caihong it is.
jinghuan & i were like so super stressed tt we couldn't even play 10 bars properly. >.<
we sound ok when we go back to sch to prac though.

we were all super hungry when we reach sch,
[ sorry guys the food i brought wasnt' of much help :P ]
and my guitar shirt stinks like it does after PE,
so jenny kindly lend me her shirt! thanks (:

oh and i found out tt jenny likes donuts from J.Co too! YUM!
we shld go eat tgt some other time (:


ohh remb the long post i typed about deciding to go for the Russia trip?
it got changed into a Gemany & Eastern Europe trip instead.
and there can only be 2 person going instead of the orginal 3. :(
and i felt bad tt huiwen couldnt' go..
the prob is i a bit feel like going mongolia,
cos i know like, almost every single person going?!
and the itnerary seemed funn~
tt's why i was thinking, if i had went, then huiwen dont need to back out now.
ARRGGH.
such a complicated issue.

shall not think about it now.
i need to FOCUS: on both my guitar playing & completion of homwork..

we finally took the MBTI! ^_^

well, my resluts were abit different from wad i expected.
i turned out to be an ENTJ - Extrovert, iNtuitive , Feeling, Judging,
this isn't wad i got the other time (INTJ/INFJ - refer to previous post)

so i suppose it's either i changed a lot over the past few weeks,
or that mood affects the way you answer a question.
i was quite high yesterday, tt's wad made me turn to an extrovert?
but i'm actually quite an introvert at heart.
i'm 60& intorvert & 40% extrovert actually,
it highly depends on who i'm with. haha (:

ENFJ - Warm, empathetic, responsive, and responsible. Highly attuned to the emotions, needs, and motivations of others. Find potential in everyone, want to help others fulfill their potential. May act as catalysts for individual and group growth. Loyal, responsive to praise and criticism. Sociable, facilitate others in a group, and provide inspiring leadership.

the the journey towards A level is seriously a rough ride,
despite us having the thru-train ticket and all.
the road has been bumpy since the beginning,
and just when i thought we've finally came to a slight stop at traffic light,
we've bearly rested for moments b4 we had to gear our engines up again for yet another harsh part of the journey.

yeah. the senior high journey is not for the faint-hearted.
as we brace oursefves to enter yet another part of the race - PW,
the usual workload takes hold of us all and pull some unfortunate ones (like me) down into deepest pool of quicksand there is - the more we struggle, the deeper we sank..

then again, when the journey gets tough, only the tough gets going
lucky i hav my guitar strapped onto my back
and my bunch of comrades to accompany me on the backpack journey!
though i'm one who likes to keep some time to myself ,
having a bunch of people going thru the process with me will make it less of a drudgery (:

it didnt feel good to be rejected.
even though i was trying to make it sound like everything was fine,
but it definitly wasn't.



sighz. those who know me well enough would know tt i'm one who dont like to hide my feelings,
once i'm not feeling good, i dont usually pertend to be alright,
cos tt's like deceiving yourself, something i would never do.



but still, for the sake being able to 下台 gracefully,
i had to fake it.
so yupp, trying to be honest be with myself now,
in this special space for me to vent all my frustrations on.





today's episode really left we wondering
.why i did i ever spend so much time and effort on something that i expected would turned out negative,
perhaps even more negative than i told it would.



okok. i knew it could turn out good/bad, 50/50.
but being me, i sort of banged on thinking tt it would turn out good.
so there i was, spending hours of my sleeping time working on it,
nativly hoping that it would turn out just the way i wanted it to.





the whole incident shldn't be looked at only from the negative perspective.
on the other hand, the rejection sort of jort me back to my senses,
it made me take a step back to look at the choices i've made,
and only then i realise how much time it has costed me.



perhaps it's time i grew up.
burst the bubble of my own wistful thinking
and learn to face the cruel reality & end this fantasy of mine.

nothing's perfect in this world an opinions differ,
why do i have to make myself so miserable jus becos of a difference in opinions?

jus becos they belong to the majority doesnt meant that they are right.
nothing is purely right or wrong,
it only depends on ur own subjective view.

it's not my masterpiece that it's not good but only that they do not know how to appreciate it.
what's beautify in one's eye may not be the same in another.

these are jus some of the harsh facts of life i've to encounter on my long journey,
and i'm very sure there would be many more to come.

no use making myself so depressed jus becos of a small setback - as their probably dozens others coming along the way.

i'll jus hav to learn to accept it,
and deal with it.
it takes a great deal of courage to reflect & learn from one's mistakes,
and make use you don't make them again.

what don't kill me will only make me stronger.
learning to pick myself up from setbacks is the key to success.


determination to go against the flow is courage to be admired.
this is something i've began to experience more and more ever since the start of senior high life.
i dont know if it's healthy,
but the way i view it,
even though the road ahead might be bumpy and certainly lonely,
it's may not be tt bad aft all.

sometimes, one could achieve more and outdo your current standard only by breaking away form the norm/what you usually do.
break free if you must - from all the factors tt prevent you from unleashing your fullest potential.
you dont always have to wait, if what it does is only slow down your progress.
only the brave would dare to break from his/her usual crowd and venture into the world of the unknown all by his/herself.
but only by doing so, tt one could achieve more.


this emo reflection totally reminded me of my favourite song - 倔强
which served as a great encouragement and an apt way of expressing what i felt.
Mayday always writes the 贴切 songs (:


No No.
i was determined not to let this small episode spoil my mood for the day.
i'm still very proud of my masterpiece even though not a lot of ppl appreciate it.
art itself is a highly subject matter, i would say.
and i dont blame them cos it's only fair for them to voice out wad they felt about it.
putting myself in their shoes, i might have done the same too.

i'm not going to let myself be disheartened over such a petty matter,
instead, i'll take it in my stride and constantly remind myself of the mistake it made.
it'll make more aware of myself as well as my behavior too.




i'm so super glad tt i didnt end my day in such a depressing mode.
there was extra guitar prac aft sch!
we went thru the techrun.
although it wasn't going very smoothly cos of our disogranisation,
we still had lots of laughs and it really cheered me up.
so THANKS LOTS! and JIAYOU for the concert! PPL WE CAN DO IT DE!


at least guitar doesnt make me feel tt i've wasted precious time. humph.

aft half a month's absence from my blog,
i hav the sudden urge to blog as much as possible this wkend!
but it's going to be rather crap though, so skip it if you find it too boring. (:

TGIF!
haha aft a week long of chionging computing and a last-minute attempt to cram Econs into my head, (which i failed miserably)
i finally got the chance to put studies behind me as i plunge into a whole wk end of intensive guitar practices!

yupyup full dress rehersal is next sat!
so aft guitar today, chengyi, bed, jinghuan, suat, & me went in search for our guitar pants.
we had this really hilarious journey to Far East,
with all of Bed's random questions, Jinghuan's 'why are we traveling in Jurong East direction?', and poor ChengYi's going out at the wrong stop due to a sabo from Suat..
serious funny!
we were like a bunch of idiots lah. haha.

we won the vote to eat first, (3 V 2, hehe)
and were lucky to get a seat in KFC.
but then we had no luck in finding what we want aft a LONG look ard @ Far East Plaza.

so we decided to hit the malls instead,
jus tt we realised we were only few ppl walking in tt direction as everyone else was getting ready to go home!
aft a series of disappointments at Forever 21, Cotton On, etc,
we finally found G2000 - where our black guitar blouse came from.

bed didnt want to go in cos as our model,
she was wearing the G2000 blouse, with the tag still on.
but we were the last customers in lah,
they closed the gate as we went in,
so we had to drag her in too.

at first we were abit scared off by the prize,
it's like WAY above our budget.
but then we saw the light when we say tt there were some on discount!
it's like 2 for the price of one lah! so worth it.
so we decided to all get it - since it's within our budget, a trusted brand, and matching with our blouse (:

then we realised we had to get one more cos there were 5 of us.
we recalled tt jocelyn wanted to get too,
so we called her, and she agreed!
we then launched into a heated debate over wad size to get for jocelyn.
haha.

wheee~ i'm happy we finally got the pants aft shoppnig ard for so long!
i finally understand the joy of shopping liao. ((:
and as we were walking to the 14 bus-stop,
we heard this familar tune.
jinghuan was like asking: is it CaiHong?
then i stoned, cos i dont think it is.
then aft tt all of us including Suat brust out: THE WAY WE WERE!

turned out tt girl playing TWWW on pi pa lah!
so qiang! we were so amazed tt we walked past our bus-stop without crossing the road,
thus missing 2 bus 14s,
then realising tt we hav walked from orchard mrt to somerset. -.-

haha it was sure a really good way for me to distress aft a LONG week at sch.
how i'll have to concenrate on guitar as well as the PILE of homework tt i owe,
including:
PI for PW
Econs Article
4 Math assignment (yeah FOUR!)
Hist outline
Class CIP matters'
embRACE meetings
on top of guitar practices (full day tmr) & the guitar video.

OH NO. that tt reminded me on how busy i am.
looks like i wont be able to catch up on my sleep again.
GRRRR.

phew. here's finally a chance for me to catch a breather.

i really felt as if someone is strangling me tight and squeezing all the oxygen out of me.
this whole week of HECTIC schedule is really having me on the verge of a breakdown.
it has been really crazy sleeping for like 3 hours every night,
rushing my way throuigh a thousand and one things tt needs to be done.

you cant imagine leading the life where the moment you sat down there's alr like a whole long list of things waiting for you to solve,
and you have to keep an eye on the other tasks next in queue even when you're in the midst of figuring out this one.

yeah. tt's senior high life.


dont tell me it's not tt bad,
becos IT IS. at least for me, that is.

yeah i agree it might be tt i'm having problems with time management i'd hav to admit.
procrastination is a bad habit of mine - which i intend to kick soon, loke who a smoker kicks his addiction. (yup it's tt bad)

i dont know why i have this natural tendancy to keep myself occupied with lots of things.
that's in addition to my time management skills i suppose.
these 2 coupled together is enough to take all the life out of me.
but i enjoy doing it, perhaps even more than my studies. OPPZ. haha.



let's talk about what has been keeping me so busy.
the main bulk of it: COMPUTING
let me put it this way: it's definitely not for the faint-hearted.
tt's unless you're some kind of superhuman like Mr Gi is,
can function with one whole month of sleepless nights and still go to sch the next morning.
but then again,
he doesnt have school work to keep up with. GRRR.

okok, we did this prestigious thinkquest international web design competition entry that was suppose to make up the lion's share of our computing CA.
we chionged through sleeplesss nights and even a overnight camp at Mr Gi's house,
(yesh, we are tt heiong!)
but eventually the website was still not up to expectations,
due mostly to our last-minute-ness (the competition started in Aug 07 but we only started in March 08 -.-)
and inexperience - we were the pioneer batch of computing students tt learnt only the basics in a short span of mere 3 months but yet this mammoth was thrusted upon us!
it's a miracle we managed to pull it through alr,
so:


haha i know we're abit disappointed,
esp Grace, Agnes & Ching who stayed so late to finish up,
but our dream to San Fransisco is still alive in us right?
so we shld jus learn from the experience and give ourselves a pat on the back!

and here's a big THANKS to all those who have helped/gave encouragements in one way or another!
Esp Mr Gi, & Lyon! (:

trust us, we'll definitly do a better job the next time round!
May the FORCE be with us!~

i was so caught up with all the deadlines i hav to meet tt i sort of didnt realise we're alr in the month of April.

but then again,
this year's 1st April @ dunman high was too hard to ignore.
it was totally so much more fun than all the previous years..
though this is kindof contradictary to wad i said in the last post,
but this comes from the bottom of my heart:
SENIOR HIGH ROCKS! (apart from the workload of cos)

for one, april's fool was a BLAST!
5C12 started the day by tricking miss leong,
as we exchanged places with 5C42, who were on the other extreme of the field,
to stand for flag rasing!
think miss leong had a hard time finding out where we were. HAHA.

GP lesson was not bad too.
we planned to practice for later (haha) by tricking Mr Tan.
when we say 'gd morning', we decided to suddenly stop mid-sentence and all freeze.
it worked pretty well leh! we all stoned for abt a minute or so.
Mr Tan was totally 0.o

but then again,
he sort of played a trick on us by coming half an hour late for lesson.
humph.
oh then Mr Tan intiatied this trick on Agnes, who fell asleep in class!
Mr Tan gave cues for us to all get out of the classroom sliently and let agnes sleep there alone!
haha tt was quite an unexpected move from Mr Tan,
but it was a pity agnes woke up when we were moving halfway,
and gave us this blur look. HAHA.

now for the highlight,
the senior high committee ogrgainsed this FREEZE @ DHS canteen,
where the whole senior high cohort will be frozen for 3 whole mintues right after the 2.15pm bell.
the objective was give junior high an april fool trick,
which i must say, we succeed in doing.
cos even though i missed it, (yeah, was chionging computing)
they said the senior high ppl were like surrounding sec 1s and making all kinds of funny actions while they were eating lah!
so it's one whole grp of senior high students surrounding this poor sec 1 kid eating,
while the rest did funnier actions. HAHA.

wah i'm so looking forward to more funn senior high events!
senior high rock!

we OWN the world, the rest are just RENTing ((: