sometimes i just hate myself.
WAAAHHHH
i realised my mistake :(
i shld have studied from math test.
%$@!%^&&^%$$%i totally blanked out at sigma,
though ppl said it was easy.
needless to say,
it's cos i didnt read thru sigma, at all.
BRRR.
okok i shld wake up from my LONG day-dream.
minutes are flying by and soon i'll find myself left with days to the Common Test.
i really shld buck up.
SIMIN:
stop assuming tt everything will turn out fine,
cos this is only true in fairytales.
in reality, they only do for ppl who work hard,
and tt's not you, and you know it.
i know you think urself as a very blessed girl,
with nothing major coming your way right up till now.
however, dont get urself blinded by ur self-indulged complaceny,
it's time your realise life isn't a bed of roses,
and things are jus going to get tougher.
...
you know, i always hav this thinking that everything bad is jus a nightmare,
and i'm jus going to wake up one day and everything will be fine.
however, i suppose it's time for me to get tt idea out of my head as life's jus going to head towards the negative direction,
i suppose i cant get myself out of this if i dont work hard.
but i dont wish for a lot,
jus a simple happy and healthy life and i'll be contented.
not too much to ask for right?
nevertheless, since tt's what i want,
i shall work hard towards it (:
u know i always set targets but when the time comes always cant seem to force my self to work on it.
dont know why but i simply lack the determination.
i always tend to do the things tt i like, and leave the more difficult (mostly dreaded) pieces of work to the last,
then always assuming things will solve themselves when the time comes.
but i'll regret later when i have to chiong and hand up a sloppy piece of work.
and i hate myself for it. GRRR. >.<
JIAYOU SIMIN! YOU CAN DO IT!
you survived today after all. i'm use you can do it again.
when the going get's tough, only the tough gets going (:p.s. no more boycotting of math test. u're jus going to regret it later.