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all the same, read on to see how simin peeps at the world through her unique kaleidoscope. (:
♥ simin
the one and only me.
Ho Si Min.
18.
dunman SENIOR high '09.
a pessimistic optimist, simin expects the best but will be prepared for the worst.
mildly eccentric, simin takes the path of the less-travelled.
happy-go-lucky, simin turns life's lemons into lemonade.
a realistic idealist, simin peeps at the world through her unique kaleidoscope.
in addition, she believes that positive affirmation can go a long way. (:
my friends would probably know the rest.
as for foes - i probably shouldn't tell you. :D
5:27 AM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
guitar day ((:
haha today is another guitar day. went to sch early to prac for performance. hongsheng & nic & jovi ran past. but i caught up with them aft i took the shortcut by the carpark (:
erm abt the performance. aubrey was not bad, at least of the 1st part lah. el bimbo was a bit messy. i think doraemon was good. katchuysa was >.< we jus went faster & faster. dunno why also. haiz. think we need more prac bah.
aft deciding to go dohby ghaurt eat, the bunch of guitar ppl went to take 111. met eddy, who complained we were noisy. i think so too. the ppl on the bus must hav hated us. but the convo was ultra funny can!
went to KFC, under the insistence of jinghuan. had a hard time finding seats for 9 ppl. but in the end we found a space in the corner with 3 tables. we somehow managed to alter the seating and squeezed in a table in between them so that everyone can seat tgt! the ppl at KFC must have hated us also.
i love the dhs guitar ensemble, even though the rest of the world most likely wont like us much. haha (:
11:34 PM
Friday, July 25, 2008
MAYDAY HAS DONE IT AGAIN!!!
Qu: 一只鲸鱼要怎么放进冰箱? Ans: 打开门然后用力关冰箱!
haha feeling super good now after hearing MAYDAY'S NEW SONG! u all shld all go listen to mayday songs! and read the lyrics! most of them are motivational! (shown implictly in the lyrics) and that's why i like them so much! cos they are super motivating and i can identify with most of the songs ((:
MAYDAY ROCKS LAH! ((:
8:00 AM
eventful day (:
woah i really shld be sleeping now, slept at 2+am yesterday cos our whole grp was chionging econs proj lucky we mangaed to finish it! though there were some errors but i'm proud to say tt our 2am work has received some praises! GOOD JOB EVERYONE! though we had quite a tough time, but wat's impt is we managed to finish it! going out to nicole, hongyi & jason - GET A WELL-DESERVED SLEEP! ((:
haha okok back to talking about random stuff. had a fun time in PC today! yup PC lesson was funn! thanks to our 3 very entertaining student teachers esp + responsive students! i really laughed out really loud and it helped to relief some of the homework stress so THANKS GUYS!
and miss leong! she insisted on cutting our ice-cream cake in class though we wanted to cut it in the canteen to show-off to the other classes lah. i'll never forget how we all tried to poke at the super-frozen cake and all broke our forks! HAHA! guess this is the good side of having a whole bunch of Es in 5C12! ((:
oh and guitar. well, fridays were scarce of ppl as usual. there were like, 4 of us? so we prac in the small guitar room admist all tt renovation noise from the 1L classroom. amazing hearing ability, isnt it?
oh then in come esther. which was the highlight of the day in a way. ERM. in a not so positive way too.
had a LOOONG talk with the guitar peeps on the way home. guess the guitar ensemble though small, has our fair share of problems too. realised that the ensemble is like a miniature of Singapore, not really democratice nor is it theoractic. it's more like - socially democratic, if u get wad i mean. [ haha trying to practice my GP here (: ]
lucky we are such a united bunch that the problem isnt big. it seems like jus a problem of miscommunication or rather, a lack of communication. well, they've sent me out as a middle man to try to resolve the problems, [cos one was too soft and the other too gao3 xiao4 ] and i sure hope it'll work out (:
kim seems to be more 0xy-like today! haha keep up the good work for the sake of dhsguitar! i think the 'stick' method will work! ^___^
practice was ok i suppose. jus that we definitely need more practices before our performance tmr.
which reminds me. i need to get to sch early for guitar prac early tmr! gtg le! BYEEEEEEEEEEEE~
7:27 AM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
today!
ran 3.4km today! think it felt better to run at the park connector than the sch track (: felt quite accomplished after tt, haha. special thanks to my pe partner Lyon! for running tgt with me every pe lesson ((:
went home with Lyon, Dora, and Jocelyn today! realised tt we are all quite involved in CIP stuff! haha it's really good to see tt so many ppl still cared, despite our busy schedule.
and Joce & Dora interested to join my volunteering group! YUPP i agree with Dora tt it's good to join external stuff so that we dont limit ourselves to the DHS social circle. i've always felt tt dhs life is too sheltered, to the extend that we dont really know what's happending outside our world. therefore i feel that it's important to HAVE A LIFE outside school! expose urself to more stuff is part of the growing up process. and what's more you can do smth meaningful along the way! all the better! ((:
oh and Dora comment tt i changed a lot. true bah i suppose. since she was in the same class with me in sec1&2, so qualified to comment (:
i think so also lah! become more Extrovertic i suppose. mostly becos of guides i think! i still think guides shaped me a lot. i wont be who i am today without guides! ^___________________^
but sometimes change doesnt neccessily mean for the better. as in like, this has nothing to do with guides lah. it's jus me lor. sometimes i lose some of my positive character traits along the process. values like humble, and being thoughtful to the feelings of others while being too candid.
so here's my apology if i hurt u or make u angry at times. i'm still trying to change for the better so correct me if i say/do smth wrong k? i welcome frank opinions! (:
oh but i wanna emphasise i'm still an Introvert at heart. and i think tt there's always a time for extrovertism and introvertism. tt's why i cant stand it when our class gets super noisy during lessons. cos 5C12's full of Es. tt means tt we're a very enthu bunch of ppl! and tt's why i like our class! but sometimes being overly loud can really irriate me. esp during GP/Math lessons. >.<
i found out from the INFJ analysis tt INFJs learn best in lecture style. [thanks xiaoyou!] and i agree, but think the ENFJ part of me will need productive tutorials. keyword: productive. u could hardly call lessons productive when half the time some ppl are not even trying to listening. tt slows down the class's progress, and, in case you havent notice, is the main reason why our class has to stay back for sub classes and is almost rock bottom for most of the subjects.
not forgetting, part of the reason is us not handing up work on time. and i admit to be guilty of that too. i shld jus stop blaming others and take a look at myself lah. SIGHZ.
oh and tt day Marion was commenting that i take everything halfway then drop. there's like no continuity in my life like dat. which i agree lah. previous triple science student now arts student. previous BSP student now not taking anything related to chinese. previous take Geog now realised Hist so much more fun. previous best AEP student now take computing and is like one of the WORST.
ARRRGH. i'm like doubting my choices lah. why did i choose to give up Art? then take up new subjects like Econs and Computing which i score HORRIBLY in? yes i like to take on new challenges but A level is not joke right? is it still possible for me to reconsider? 0.o
haha randomness again. i shld learn how to organise my thoughts when writing. essential GP skill. (:
5:20 AM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
BACK FROM COMPUTING CHALET + NIGHT FEST + TRAVELLING TOGETHER!
haha if it really was a computing chalet then good. rather, it was this codeXtremeApps coding competition that Mr Gi forced us to sign up for though were were clueless about Adobe Flex. and to make it worse, it's 24 hours non-stop competition time 0.o
i was so high went i first reach lah! firstly cos the competition is SMU! ((: secondly ching, grace, agnes & i were happy to find out that all the DHS ppl are in the same room! it was almost like a chalet lah! - COMPUTING CHALET! cool right? they got give us event tee too! it'll be our computing shirt. COOL HOR? the computing family felt at home immediately (:
but then when the competition started, it wasnt as good as we hoped lah. firstly, we got on bad terms with the 3 guys sitting on our left cos they tried to hide our laptops ^$##!*^#%##! then brainstorming for the theme "Extreme Sports Entertainment" met with some problem. then we were really stuck at the Flex. >.<>.< size="4">travelling together!
was quite late cos of XtremeApps, so they were already at AMK foodfare when we reach there le.
nevertheless, i was quite happy to see that the elderly are enjoying themselves! as they are all wheelchair bounded, it's very hard for them to come out to take public transport and go to shopping centres like AMK Hub. so it has been a 1st time in many years for most of them. i could really see the smile on their faces when they were happily eating their food and have so many ppl to take-care of them. i went over for a small chat and saw this super cute auntie! she was very animated in her actions and i could feel that she's genuninely enjoying all our attention! and Cara was jus telling me how this uncle was exclaiming his joy over being able to be around so many people at the same time, how he enjoys being part of a crowd, and how full he is by showing us his tummy and unbuttonable pants! HAHA so cute right?
refering to Lyon's post, i totally agree with her that it's really difficult to get ppl to come out on a weekend to do CIP. esp when they are not obliged to. OK, but even when they HAVE TO, for example, class cip, i'm like having to BEG for them to sign up. is that supposed to be the case? why is it called a CLASS CIP? shldn't the class take the initiative too?
okok, i shldnt be quick to dismiss the fact that many of my classmates, have went for sessions and put in effort, esp LiBing - whom the children @ Lengkok Bahru misses (: but i could jus ignore the fact that many of the ppl are simply not participating.
haiz. so it's back to the concept of volunteerism again. i took up this path because i have the passion to serve the community, and i know the journey is not going to be easy as it's going to take up a lot of my time for studies - in which i'm facing dire concequences for. >.< size="4">如果我不入地域 ,谁入地狱?
haha but still, thankfully, there are a handful who share the same passionate thoughts as me. like Lyon! (: - so sorry i always cant make it to her events though. they jus HAVE TO fall on the same dates as mine! oh well, there's always the next time right? you'll come to my event while i'll go for yours. the volunteerists should support each other right? since it's all for the good of the community! ((:
and the Travelling Together Committee! i think we're cooL! a bunch of ladies working tgt towards a safe field trip for the elderlY! after today's successful event, all the late meetings we had at Toa Payoh every Tues evening were worth it. and it's thru tt i knew u guys better too!
ohh and Cara the small bad wolf & Marion the humpty dumpty! haha i found they were lame as they found out i was! haha i'm only lame when i'm High! according to Geraldine & Gary, my engergy level fluctuates so i can be really Low too. yup. i think DHS ppl are generally lame! and after interacting with these 2 AJ ppl, i can make the general assumption that AJ ppl are lame too! ((: haha they are NICE PPL! hope to keep in touch with them!
esp if Marion can stop niaoing Cara me & WenJia! and though the shirt looks big on me, I'M NOT SMALL OK, IT'S THE SHIRT BIG! haha ((:
this week end was FUNN! except tt i didnt do any homework/math test/econ proj/EoM 0.o
6:34 AM
Friday, July 18, 2008
my goal list!
was overwhelmed but lots of stuff this week.
decided to do smth to solve my time managment crisis
>.<
SIMIN'S ULITMATE
TIME-CONTROL +
SELF-DISCIPLINE LIST
firstly, i need to STOP PROCRASTINATING. i've always liked to stone/daydream. and time always flies by everytime i do it. ARRGGHH. no wonder i cant study by myself at home. i'll tend to lose focus. esp when doing math. cos i dont know how to do, so i think. then i'll start to stone. >.< thus my second thing on the list is ASK PPL TO STUDY WITH ME AND TEACH ME! next time want study tgt call me along k? i cant study at home cos my bed + computer too tempting le (:
i also need to SLEEP EARLY for those whom i'm close to, will know that i have this tearing condition. where my eye can jus suddenly start tearing non-stop due to overdriness. reason? i sleep too late every night. it's super pain can. jus imagine ur body squeezing ur eyeball jus to get tears out to moisturise ur eyes. >.< i shld cut down on my external committments. yup, that means CIP and for those who know it, high five youthvolunteering grp. esp after travelling together ends this sunday. and tt means i would not be able to take up other CIPs :( [ sorry if i'm unable to help! esp to Lyon ] but there's sitll my class CIP, which i getting REALLY DIFFICULT cos 5C12 is not really cooperative. [ so long liao class tee still havent decided lah! ]
i've decided tt i shld also cut down on my committments @ sch i jus found out that amazingly i have 4 CCAs: guitar, ISAC, publications, infocomm club and tt's not cool. cos i dont have enough time for my homework, let alone all of them. i dunno why i signed up for everything in the first place leh. perhaps i'm jus being overly ambitious? nevertheless they have became part of my committments and i shld try to handle them! (: at least for this year. cos think next year will need to focus on studies & guitar concert/SYF. yup.
i need to do my work on time! and do enough preparation so that i can stay on track! i'm totally behind for math lah! >.< >i need to follow what i've planned RELIGIOUSLY! all my previous time-management list failed miserably lah. let's jus hope hist wont repeat itself! i jus hope i have enough self-discipline! but i've always been one who will be on the look-out for new things to try out, to keep myself busy, but always forgeting that i have other commitments on hand. let's jus say i dunno how to prioritize lah. and lack self-decipline :(
but i'm proud of myself being able to hand up econs article and GP compre on-time! ((:
oh but i still have econs proj and math test next wk.
SIAO LAH. and we are going to SMU for 24 hour computing competition on Sat & Sun. all night no sleep still need to rush to Travelling Together CIP right aft tt. and i still need to do study math + econs proj and go school on mon. GG.
9:09 AM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
uber pro guitar playing!
koped this from hongsheng's new blog. (:
8:02 AM
guides campfire ((:
after attending the campfire and listening to all the talks by the old guiders + scouters + the old guides, i got reminded of how guides used to be. esp when it was late at night, when only our jie was left. it felt like the guides i remembered. where we stayed in sch till super late to finish everything up.
the only difference was, this time we were not alone. it helped to know that there were guiders there with us, i really appreciate their efforts. THANK YOU SO MUCH! (:
i realised how much i missed guides. how much i missed listening to all the inspiring speechs. how much i missed my seniors - though i still dont really dare to talk to them. how much i misssed my jie. how much i missed everything.
i really admire their dedication towards guides lor. esp the 24th batch of guides. they can like still keep in contact for so super long. and can remain so devoted to guides, even bringing their kids to our campfire and everything.
haha i can imagine 10 or 20 years down the road, then we all come back for guides campfire again. no doubt we'll all be like a whole lot of aunties, but i'll still smile at all the familar faces.
to all guides, no matter young or old: keep the guiding light burning stronger than ever. - till we meet again ((:
8:45 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008
i'm a girl guide, true and true. (:
yup. this is going to be yet another one of my 'how time flies' proclaimation.
went to look at the dhscoy blog and saw the passing down for the sec 4s this year. kind of got reminded of our own passing down a year ago. i was jus thinking back on my 4 years in guides, full of ups and down of cos, but i was glad that wadever turmoil we went through, it was as a 届 and i super love 德明第三十八届女童军, thanks for being there and making the past 4 years a memorable one. OJs, ATCs, PLTC, everything. what's important is not only stuff that we've gone through, but the fact that we've been through it TOGETHER.
a photo taken at our passing down ceremony, where we handed our beloved guides over to the current 中四s. and now they're going to hand it over to yet another batch of guides. i jus hope they'll bring it to greater heights.
the reson i didnt sign on as a YUL is because i have too many commitments. thus i'm not sure if i can contribute as much to guides like i used to. also i'm sure that guides would continue to function well with all the rest of my jie going back to help out (: and the other reason is, well, guides changed. it just didnt feel the same anymore. nevertheless, i still love guides. (: i think guides changd me a lot, and i've learnt lots from it, more than what i would have learnt anywhere else. no better where i'll be in the future, guides will forever hav a special place in my heart (:
will be going for the guides campfire later, celebrating the 40th anniversary of the Dunman High Guides Coy. 40 years is long. i wonder wad the big big seniors will think when they come back for campfire later in the evening.
once a guide, always a guide right, even if i didnt sign on as a YUL, deep in my heart, i'll still be 德明第三十八届女童军.
8:52 AM
Monday, July 07, 2008
sv outing (:
haha finally met up with the SV peeps. so sorry i couldnt turn up for the previous outing.
thanks to the organizers of today's outing, i really had funn! haha. but i thought u guys will go skating lor! who knows half the ppl went to bowl instead.
but ice-skating is FUNN! haha even though i fell, (only once leh! good enough compared to rollar blading lor!) and it was kind of expensive [i'm broke now] i still thought it was worth it!
i not only learnt my lesson, quite painfully >.< but most importantly, learnt how to skate!
next time we go skate again k?
and there was NICE CAKE! go where buy one ar, taste nice leh! but can tell them put less cream next time. :P
HAHA! i'm HAPPYYYY!! ((:
to everyone else: next time want to skate/blade, CALL MEEEEE!!!! ((:
8:35 AM
ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i cant believe myself.
when have i become used to being so complacent, so full of myself, so i-definitely-cannot-be-wrong - even to the extend of pushing the blame to others?
all along i'm been accusing ppl of being too quick to judge, stereotyping others based solely on first impressions. not giving ppl a chance to prove themselves wrong, always assuming that i-am-always-more-right-than-you, the worst of all, you-are-always-the-one-in-the-wrong-not-me.
and now i'm guilty of it.
i so totally cannot believe this mann.
what sort of person am i turning into???
I'M SORRY. REALLY VERY SORRY.
i shldn't have put the blame on you when it's my fault. i didnt mean to make you feel guilty.
yes i'm degrading myself, but this is the least i could do.
i admit i'm too cowardly to acknowledge my mistake. and i hate myself for that.
once again, sorry.
8:12 AM
Friday, July 04, 2008
DHS senior high sports carnival @ sentosa
cant exactly say it was a blast, but i still do appreciate the efforts put in to bring us out for a day at Sentosa. so thanks to everyone who made this possible! (: [and to the pon-ners, too bad you missed out the morning fun!]
pleasant surprise in the morning: met chingsiang on bus 80, though i didnt really notice he was there till i woke up and he said hi. haha.
erm, i did enjoy my morning, playing with sand and cheering my heart out for the BENNU team ((: cant really say so for the aftnoon though. but i found out that i really jus enjoy sitting around on the sand with the waves brushing against my feet. it was certainly a break from all that screaming and adrenaline rush. simple pleasures in life is enough to make me smile (:
aft the carnival i had dinner with the 4e peeps. spent most of the time talking abt the ppl we knew. any other one of those simple life pleasures - jus random chatting (:
talked so much about other people, was jus wondering if there are ppl who will talk abt us too? haha.
jus a gentle reminder to whom it may concern: HAVE INTEGRITY. i know u guys want to win, but do spare a thought for others who are jus trying to play fair and square.
it's not worth winning at the expense of ur reputation, you know.
nevertheless, GOOD JOB BENNU! we'll show them what we've got, and win HONORABLY next time ((: