7:22 PM
Saturday, November 29, 2008
ARRGHH! i hate myself.
omg.
people are angry with me.
and it's my fault. >.<
but i didnt mean it!
i was only trying to protect myself,
but i totally overlooked the fact that i'm doing that at the expense of others. >.<
i jus didnt realise that i'm like pushing the burden to others,
while trying to avoid trouble for myself.
ARRGHHH i didnt mean it lah!
i'm so sorry!
please forgive me!
i shall learn to find the balance between being selfless and every-man-for-himself.
oh and i found out that different ppl will have different will have different impressions of someone,
simply because one behaves differently in front of different ppl.
and i dont mean in the hyporcritical way,
but rather because people tend to feel more comfortable when with certain groups of ppl.
i think some ppl find me very serious,
esp when i dont talk when they are talking a lot.
but that's just cause i'm not that familar with you guys yet,
and likely dont have anything to say and that's why i keep quiet.
i just dont find it necessary to keep talking all the time lor.
eh but it's good to have someone talking most of the time,
if not it'll just be awkward silence which can be rather >.<
so if's i'm like alone with someone,
then i'll try to find common topics to talk about bah,
and will appreciate if the other person does the same too (:
but dont be pressurised to think of something to say bah.
sometimes a comfortable sclience is ok too (:
while some ppl found out that i can be rather childish.
eh but that's only in front of some ppl lor!
haha but i admit i can be rather childish lah.
but that's only cos i dont hide anything in front of u guys lor! ((:
i am an authentic person so i wont try to hide what i feel.
i cant help being abit attitude sometimes.
it's only a slight diff between having a attitude (with negative connotations)
and character (positive connotation).
so, be rest assued that when i'm pissed with you,
i'll make sure u know it (:
and i do believe in the power of praising oneself and others.
we dont need to be stingy with praises right? (:
oh but do remind me if i get too carried away!
^_______________^
8:00 AM
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
a better tomorrow (:
today is such a happy day! ((:
haha seriously much better than yesterday,
prog were going on smoothly, participants more responsive etc.
so glad that things are turning out well ((:
the best thing about today was during lunch!
where this super cute boy came over to help me with the cordial drinks.
i was having trouble with refilling the container with the Sasi concentrate + pouring concentrate into individual cups,
cos everyone was fighting for a drink and i only had a pair of hands.
then Fredrick, aka Mr Helpful,
came over and volunteered to help me with the refill!
[haha he's really super cute lah! he reminds me of XiaoYuan but cuter. haha (: ]
he offered to bring me to this faraway watercooler cos the watercooler at the canteen wasn't cold enough or smth.
then while we were making our way back right,
he even offered to help me carry the container water!
i was like, "it's ok, there'll be plenty of time for you to show ur gentlemanly skills"
then he was like, "no, i just like to help" and his smile was so sincere lah!
then i was so impressed!!
and he offered to help me mix the Sasi into the best proportion (yup! sweegeok + the rest praised it)
even though he havent even eaten his lunch when i alr eaten mine leh!
and he also helped with the PA system + the sch's computer log in system, etc..
he's jus super nice and always the one taking initiative *beams*
haha,
i'm jus so SUPER impressed with Mr Helpful!
^_______________^
okk speaking of pictures,
i brought my camera and took lots of pictures!
shall find time to post some up here later ((:
which some of it will go into illustrating how propaganda-ish NanHua is.
and speaking of NanHua kids,
most of them a quite racist >.<
not sure if it's the environment they are brought up in?
there's this clan of girls who are like, anti-guys.
and this cute little girl who looks super innocent,
but is actually SUPER VIOLENT!
totally 人不可貌相 man.
and there's this pair of jokers from a GEPer class.
they are like, very lively and everything lah,
but really VERY NOISY to the extent of them mostly 自high-ing by themselves lah.
u know what they did with the bag of twisties?
one of them throw the bits of twisties on the floor,
while the other picks them up and eats it.
super >.<>
and the kids from the madrasas are cute too!
and Safaras finds me familar?
haha they are jus super cute lah.
^______________________^
6:46 AM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
what a day.
today was not a bad day.
considering that i can still function reasonably well despite the fact that i slept at 3am.
but seriously i have to admit i'm old.
it really takes up a lot of energy running after and entertaining P5 kids lah.
esp when they seem to have everlasting energy to run about.
random fact: NanHua Pri is super nice + super propaganda-ish.
let me take some picture edvience b4 telling u all why!
after we cleared up everything, we realised there were like,
one whole box of food left.
we seriously thought of each bringing 4 packets home lah!
[there were 7 of us so u can imagine how much food there was]
but luckily, we managed to find a group of construction workers sitting outside the pavement,
and we tried to give it to them.
at first they thought we were selling the food, so they refused.
then after they realised that we were giving it away for free,
they readily accepted the food and kept thanking us!
and we kept thanking them cos they helped us clear the food!
win-win situation ((:
OHHH but sleeping at 3am is still bad for health.
it seriously endangers you life lah,
or rather, mine.
for those who know me might know that i'm super bad at crossing roads.
then at the end of the day when we were going home,
i was super tired and almost run into this fast-turning bus lah!
OMG right??
it's SUPERY SCARY i tell u.
i cant imagine what will happen if we werent careful >.<
rant:
ARRGHH
cannot stand it when they dont LISTEN.
i mean, i cant say more out of respect for them,
i mean, we're only trying to make things going more smoothly and efficiently.
sigh. nvm.
do it u're way then.
since u're having the say anyway.
7:16 AM
Sunday, November 23, 2008
busy busy week.
guitar intensive training ended with a game of cball,
in which the seniors played against the juniors and won.
which sort of reminded us of last year.
maybe it'll be like a guitar tradition? haha. (:
no doubt there was a lot of food (thanks to kevin),
and we all ended up memorising the 2 new songs and having hardened fingers.
GIT sure was mentally and physically draining,
but well at least we achieved what we wanted (:
i'll be looking forward to guitar bbq on fri ((:
oh well,
next is another busy week ahead.
embRACE will be having a carnival @ Nan Hua Pri (Clementi)
on 29 Nov so please do come and support if you have the time ok?
on a random note,
the channel 8 45th anniversary show kind of reminded me of how i used to just sit in front of the TV and watch it all day long.
i could vaugely remember the shows i watched when i was like jus 2 years old!
and i could sing the theme song for drama serials at that time when it was screening lor.
i was such a TV-addict (;
how i missed those days..
6:15 AM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
another funny day (:
OMG XY & JH ARE SUPER FUNNY!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i really laughed like mad again today lor (:
funny incident #1 - JH's cow joke.
kevin was saying 对牛弹琴 - 你数牛的阿?
she was like - 有牛的meh?
then we were all like, 0.o
then we started laughing like mad!
haha! u must be there at tt time to hear it in the oringal typical JH verision to really get the joke!
JH never fails to make me laugh ((:
oh but she can be quite mean sometimes lor!
like how she said i was CMI playing LaPa ><
tt time time i was like !*%&%@!!$^@!
but now i realise she only said that because she needed someone to accompany her in this terrible playing cos she really couldnt make it very much.
yup i understand cos her part is really quite hard!
so i dont blame her.
JIAYOU JH! ((:
funny incident #2 - DJ's mossy-green bubble tea
they bought weird flavours of bubble tea on the way home.
but DJ's was the weirdest!
for one, it's green.
and it's not the normal kind of green-tea-green,
but really, MOSSY-green,
which not only looked bad, but also tasted bad.
worse, it made his teeth green!
and that's not the end of it.
SIMIN (: XY & JH ARE SUPER FUNNY! ((: said:
haha nvm de BUBBLE TEA will make u get 100 for grading tmr! ((:
SIMIN (: XY & JH ARE SUPER FUNNY! ((: said:
although it made ur teeth green,
SIMIN (: XY & JH ARE SUPER FUNNY! ((: said:
but it's worth it (:
[ DJ ] Stupid bubbletea. said:
lol it made me have diarrhoea
xiao you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger says:
hahaha i heard about ur diarrhoea
xiao you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger says:
did it make u slimmer?
[ DJ ] Stupid bubbletea. says:
lol better not
[ DJ ] Stupid bubbletea. says:
how come every1 noe so fast lol
xiao you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger says:
we will help to advertise for sweettalk
xiao you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger says:
new slimming method!
[ DJ ] Stupid bubbletea. says:
=.= lol
funny incident #3 - revenge of the BEARS!
they were talking abt concert stuff so XY + Suat + i were discussing joce's present
{yeah we still owe her >< }
when XY's bear kept interupting our convo by talking in this deep deep voice
and spinning around the guitar 100 times -.-
then while we were going home,
HS kept bullying the bear by making it wear 'pants'
which was actually the pringles bottle which is awfully dirty and made XY super pissed.
then she turn ard and the pringles bottle hit her ><
then HS made her bear fly to its death somehow.
poor bear. bullied by the evil HS.
and it was a double tragedy.
my star suddenly decided to become a shooting star too. :(
funny incident #4 - XY the silverfish!
the fouth, and final (haha PW) funny incident,
is also the funniest of all!
XY suddenly had this craving for donuts so i went with her to city hall to hav J.CO!
[my fav donut place (: ]
aft tt we went looking ard for joce's present
we then went into this nice shop called "Prints"
which sells the nice nice notebooks and we saw super a lot of BEARS!
we kept getting reminded of funny incident #3 and were convinced that the bears were out to seek revenge!
then we saw this nice place where we got to test out all the nice nice markers.
XY drew a lot of bears!
[i think XY should spamm HS with bears (: ]
she then somehow got hold of this silver marker.
then the funniest thing of the day happened..
maybe it was smth she said,
or maybe it was jus the look on her face.
haha it was jus ultra funny lah!
more funny than JH can!
but in public must control a bit.
it i was in school i'll be like rolling with laughter lah!
OMG i think guitar ppl are SUPER FUNNY!
i really cannot stop laughing sometimes lor (:
i think we influence each other lah.
or maybe funniness is contagious and we all just caught it from JH.
either way,
i'm sure there will be more laughter coming our way ((:
5:13 AM
Monday, November 17, 2008
stunt-badminton! ((:
HAHA!
the guitar ppl played badminton today!
though the racket sort of makes ur hand blue/black & the shuttlecocks were yellow,
(erm mine was anway)
we still had a lot of fun!
cant believe we could actually improvise badminton to make it more fun!
maybe it was the sport,
or maybe it was the people.
but either way,
watching stunt-badminton was ultra fun! ((:
we shld do that again sometime!
like friday!
or when it's not so slippery! - JX was sliding around when she was playing.
but dont make JH & I play!
i hope SamC & DJ get to win at least a match!
and i hope the rest can come up with some new stunts! esp SamC + HongSheng!
HAHA!
i really got very high expectations for friday!
*welfare i/c take note! (:
oh i forgot to mention,
i enjoyed watching JH play today!
haha she was super animated lor!
and was exhilarated to win her 1st ever badminton match!
although it was more of HongSheng VS the other team. haha (:
but still, JH wins the most supportive cheerleader award!
JH IS SO CUTE LAH ^_____________^
even oxy thinks so!
[ haha she's so cute to the extend tt i'm dedicating one whole para for her! *beams* ]
and so XY, JH, JX, Grace, HS, SamC, DJ, Suat, Kimba & me had a super fun time playing/watching badminton today & laughing till our stomach hurt (:
and special thanks to HS for the dvd (:
1:32 AM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
this saturday (:
starting on a random note,
i came to realise the effectiveness of blogs as a mode of communication.
but oh well,
i'll have to say that some stuff on this blog is really meant for myself to read and understand,
while others are more mant for others to read and hopefully get the message.
but i'm sorry it sounds too harsh though.
what i can say is those were what i truely felt at the point of time when i typed it.
most of whatever has already subslided by the time you read it i think.
when ever i say smth,
i'll really mean it.
so when i say i'm not angry at you, means i'm really not.
and when i say i rest my case,
that's it, CASE CLOSED.
anyway,
went to miss seow's wedding yesterday with the 4e peeps!
erm the place is kind of ulu so we walked a long way there ><
well it was a nice and cosy church.
it was a good experience!
and miss seow placed us first in her list of students to take photos!
and she said she liked our present a lot cos it was what she wanted to get but her husband said it was too expensive.
haha yup it was really quite ex,
but since she like it i think it's worth it!
here's congrates to miss seow (or rather, mrs kong) for finding her Prince Charming and living Happily Ever After! ((:
“May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.”
grace says:
can write in christmas cards and send
grace says:
it's like balanced
grace says:
i always feel 'stay happy' isn't very realistic
that's true i guess.
i always thought Lyon's brand of happiness was abit fairy-tale like and a bit unattainable.
but oh well, it's cause it's unattainable that we would keep working towards it right?
[ sounds familar? towards a brighter tomorrow without AIDS! ((: ]
another random comment.
being a resonably resourceful and streetsmart person,
i realised i totally cannot stand those who are totally stuck in their old world and completely obilvious to prices (in this case, meaning that they really signal the highest price they are willing to pay without bothering to check for alternatives)
and i cant stand those who are overly idealistic and opitmistic over even the most impossible things, to the extent that they really ignore all the advice that i gave.
i really think they need to GROW UP,
(which is weird cos they are alr older than me, but apparently not more resourceful)
and sort of realise that things dont aways go according to how you want them to and we should aways think of a Plan B when that happens.
apart from giving them each a tight shake,
i dont know anything else can wake them from their wonderful dream.
i jus cant bear to do it.
though i seriously should.
ARRRGH.
1:49 AM
Friday, November 14, 2008
HUMPH.
i have a feeling things are starting to change.
suddenly it's not only us anymore.
and now there's lots more to worry about cos there's more stuff at stake.
it's like, no longer wad we are used to.
or rather, we cannot be like we we used to do.
seniority comes with responsibility.
that's only common sense right.
it's only right that to set an example for the rest to follow.
yeah i know we live in a democratic society and everything,
but there shld always be a line drawn and certain matters shld be jus kept to the ears of certain ppl.
not like we are talking abt some sensitive issue or anything,
but it's like,
do we really have to settle this thing so openly?
even like, even open conflict in front of juniors?
cant you jus keep this within our circle?!?!?!?!
like, at the very least, safe us some face in front of the juniors.
dont you think that some things are better not known to the juniors?
i'm not trying to disagree with you,
but come to think of it,
this issue is mostly our problem.
it's mainly under our adminstration,
we involve you is cos we respect you.
but why should you interfer with our decision?
i mean, rules are supposed to be set by only a small group of ppl.
the rest just need to follow them.
that's the logic. GET IT?
and YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE THE BAD GUY.
so why push the responsibility to me while you polish your golden halo?
ARRGHH i'm so pissed.
so now i'm the bad guy.
YOU HAPPY??
you cant take a happy-go-lucky stance forever if you want progress.
sometimes you jus hav to be FRIM.
i mean. not that i completely disagree with your viewpoint.
but the scenarios you gave where mainly isolated cases.
dont tell me you have to take ur dog to the vet every now and then?
then u dog must seriously need to stay in ICU.
ultimately the system is aimed at solving the problem right,
so i have no issue if wad we are trying now can acheive that aim.
since everyone is like, whatever,
so be it.
if that's what you want, and is the general consenus,
[and it's wad you want to show to the juniors]
then why shld i bother?
ARRGHH
sometimes i really wonder why i bother so much when the rest jus dont care.
i really dont understand why the top adminstration can be so slack,
when i'm the one tt's doing all the worrying.
WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO??
i'm doing it not because i like being the bad guy,
but rather, i do it because I CARE.
although i know you're doing this because you care about us, i reall do,
but whatever you do,
please keep in mind that this is not what we want the juniors to think about us.
so in other words,
KEEP ISSUES TO YOURSELF AND TRY NOT TO DEGRADE US IN FRONT OF JUNIORS.
and i'll appreciate that very much.
sorry if i sound rude,
but that's cause i thought it's better to be more frank upfront.
i know both u & i ultimately just want to solve the problem,
it's just that we dont argee with the approach.
but i understand where you are coming from.
however i think in order for progress we need CHANGE.
and since our intentions are all for the betterment of everyone,
so no hard feelings right? (:
7:53 AM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
backpack travel anyone? (:
something random from grace tt put a smile on my face (:
http://www.27bslash6.com/overdue.html
today was the 1st offical Guitar Pract with the Year 4s!
erm it was kind of weird to have juniors around lah,
since guitar have always been a tightly knited bunuch of crazy year 5s. haha.
guess it's not so easy to get used to having juniors yet bah (:
and it's worse when they play better than you do! >.<
nvm there's still the
Guitar Welfare BBQ to look forward to! ((:
it's going to be our biggest one yet cos we're inviting the seniors and juniors!
we jus found the perfect person to be our welfare i/c - SUAT!
haha jus tt she'll force us to play cball at every opportunity i bet ((:
oh and there's this Xmas gift Xchange idea of hers.
YAY guitar this hols is going to be FUN despite the tough training..
oh and the Guides ppl broke camp today.
i jus got reminded of how we used to go to Camp Chirstine for ATC as campers..
and how we put so much effort into organising ATC for our juniors..
i wonder if they get the same feeling i did when i was a camper?
i really wonder if they take ATC as seriously as we did.
i wonder, and sure hope so.
Oh and this sat is Miss Seow's wedding!
it's nice to get the bunch of 4e ppl gathered together again (:
haha and i really think that 4e ppl are WEIRD!
like how we discussed buying air fragrance thingys tt cost $100+
and figures tt cos $200+
and ended up buying digital photo frames tt cost $199.
oh and i was thinking of going backpack travelling next hols!
like after As and everything we save $ and go budget travel ard the world!
anyone insterested to come along jus tell me k?
the more the merrier! ((:
5:05 AM
Monday, November 10, 2008
random events (:
i received a random call from a dear friend on Sunday evening,
asking me to watch a tkd demostration which she didnt want to watch alone.
and i agreed mostly cos our other dear friend is performing.
well, i am so glad that i went!
cos it totally changed my perception of tkd.
first i didnt know there would be so many ppl there.
cause like, it's not a very widely publicised event or anything.
but i was surprised the whole sports hall was FULL!
at the start there was this pro kid who shouted commands.
he's like 5 years old, and so cute lah! ((:
next was this other 5 year old!
he came out with this older group which jus made him look cuter!
and he didnt managed to break the board at the first 2 tries but the crowd cheered for him and he mangaged on his 3rd try! SO SUPER CUTE!
and this this 5 year old girl bashing up the bad guy!
she jump on him lor!
SO CUTE! ^_______________^
and there were some special performance with dance steps and skipping ropes too!
oh and there were the koreans,
cos they were the national team who performed at the omylpics and paralympics mah,
so they were real good.
they can kick really HIGH!
then like, jump and step on some other ppl to kick higher!
and they kick apples!
jus very cool lah.
no wonder so many ppl + VIP turned up..
THANKS FOR THAT RANDOM CALL TO INVITE ME THERE! ((:
despite the rain,
i went to sch today for publications meeting!
and i stayed back to study!
cos it was super warm at home so i decided to study in sch.
who knows it'll rain so heavily HUMPH.
i was quite proud of myself for mangaging to do some work!
but i think i can be more productive bah.
nvm going back sch to study again!
this time with like, lots of ppl.
i hope i can be MORE PRODUCTIVE! ((:
OHH the last random thing,
while i was studying in sch,
Xin Zhi suddenly came over and said,
"WISH ME LUCK"
i was a bit stunned, but quickly shook his hand and said "GOOD LUCK & JIAYOU!"
so here's my sincere well-wishes to all my dearest seniors
ALL THE BEST FOR THEIR A LEVELS!
u guys are really the best seniors and i will miss you guys lots!
^_____________________^
8:02 AM
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
1st of my holidays (:
wheeeee~!
holidays (sort of) offically started!
haha ok lah there wasnt much of a holiday to speak of,
and i sort of slacked a bit today,
but at least i attempted to make full use of my holidays right from the beginning!
[ i didnt procrastinate as much as i used to lor, that's already an improvement (: ]
quite proud of myself for doing so many things today.
but tomorrow shall be BETTER!
i shall move on to greater achievements.
JIAYOU SIMIN! ((:
haha dunno why but OP really seems abit distant from me now,
but anyway, here's wishing all GOOD LUCK FOR HCL O LVL & OP TMR! ((:
6:27 AM
Monday, November 03, 2008
post-PW thoughts (:
WOOHOO!
[ apart from the filing of GPF, which isn't that much of a big issue ]
the handling up of our I&R sort of marked the end of PW!
haha was @ Firefly, St James Power Station.
and the day consisted of waiting, target of random photo-taking, cool lightings, pledging for organ donations and mostly GOOD FOOD! :P
caught up with the SV ppl,
whose never ending energy (and liking for High School Musical) sort of reminded me of how old i am.
but still, they are a fun bunch of ppl i've to admit (:
think there might be another SV gathering? haha.
with PW coming to an end,
it's only now that i feel the peace of not having to hand up overdued homework,
which finally gives me a chance to catch my breath.
but mind you,
it's only catching my breath.
the moment of peace was immediately broken when my mum called for me to clear my room.
and that was the moment that reality sank in.
stop dreaming man,
there's like a lot more work to be done.
a sneak peek at my to-do list reviews the laundary list of errands to run and the never-ending tasks that i promised to do but not yet done.
oh well,
there's senior high life for me.
i shld have gotten used to it by now.
time to stop procrastinating
[ as recommended by Lyon's book "Why Procrastinate?" ]
and start getting rid of the stuff that was ought to be completed long ago.
and yup that includes revising all the topics that i ought to have studied for promos but failed to do so.
and yup xiaoyou that includes maths!
anytime u free call me k? then we go study tgt!
THANKS ((:
7:42 AM
Saturday, November 01, 2008
choices.
this post shall be about choices.
as for which choices in particular,
it's about those choices which i made and regreted.
but now,
after thinking back, i realised that i dont regret making that decision after all!
haha i dont know lah,
but at a certain point i was seriously regretting certain decisions i've made.
like i was totally blaming myself for not being able to embrace changes to my life which i think would have been good for me.
but i learnt to live with it, and forgot abt it after a while,
but now it suddenly jus all comes back and i'm really proud of myself for making that choice!
i realise i'm really quite comfortable with life now.
as in, it may not be the BEST way to live lah.
but at least i'm ok with life now,
cos no doubt it's very stressful and everything,
but i think i can deal with it cos there's like ppl around me to motivate me and give encouragment when i need it!
on a related note,
i seriously think senior high life as compared to junior high,
despite the hectic schedule and everything,
is more fulfilling as i feel a greater sense of achievement.
that is largely cos of my group of my friends i think!
i totally can feel the bond in friendship in times of need,
and tt feeling is definitely more than in my junior high years.
thanks for being ever-supportive, lending a listening ear and offering help when i need it!
i think you guys are the people who really made the difference.
and confirmed my decision was a right one (:
also, maybe it's cos i have more control my acdemic life now?
but then again,
it boils down to making the right choices.
and i'm faced with another dilemma now.
whether to drop econs or math to h1.
and i've decided to give myself this hol to give both subj a chance and see how i'll fare.
so i made up my mind to study this hols le.
and i hope i have the determination live up to that promise.
yupp i'll be going over to esther's house quite often this hols!
and there's the math study session with mx & hs. (:
i cant believe i need to start doing this so fast after OP,
but oh well i think it's a good decision.
it'll help me make a better choice next year bah.
and yesh i'm going to be super hardworking this hols!
you'll see (: