#1. recognition lag.

then you have no self-control!

that really woke me up.

#2. decision lag.

i plan, too much.

and too long.

no matter how much you know, it all boils down to nothing if you don’t demonstrate it during the time limit.

how true.

it’s really time i break out of my self-consoling trance,

stop giving myself the never-ending “2nd chances”

Note #1.

#3. implementation lag.

even after i recognised, and decided,

it still takes me way too long to have it implemented,

if it ever gets implemented at all.

ARRGH! ><

…

the muggers @ SMU really made me 醒悟。

while the people @ Give.sg really showed me that

life has so much more to offer than just this,

and there’s so much that i want to do.

why am i getting myself defeated in just the first of the many challenges?

ok.

i’ve recognised, and decided.

time doesn’t wait for slackers.

it’s really time to get that inertia out of the way,

and get the implementation done.

i’m really putting my mind into it.

i’ll MAKE SURE it gets done.

I need to make sure i really did put in my bestest best effort,

and will so not have regrets of any sort.

“OMG i so regret this, cause i know i can do better”

even if the results is not that of the best,

at least i can still be answerable to myself, sleep soundly,

and be contented with knowing that “yup i know this is as far as it goes as i’ve put in my best effort.”

to me, the knowledge that “yes i’ve put in my best effort”,

matters more than the results itself.

but the problem is, at current stage, i don’t even think i’m deserve anything more than my current results,

and i know i only have myself to blame.

in the remaining weeks i’m going to make sure this doesn’t repeat itself.

i need a miracle – not of results but of effort,

and i’m not going to sit around to wait for it,

but rather, MAKE IT HAPPEN.

now deep into the marathon,

no matter how tired, or feel-like-giving-up i am,

there’s no way i’m going to let my guard down now.

it really time to break out of that jog and propel forward with every cell in the body!

yup that’s right, that means no more excuses, or “2nd chances”

simply because:

reality check: THERE’S NO MORE 2ND TRY!

no more time for explorations in LaLa-land.

so, take out that good sportsmanship, and fighting sprit by making sure every ounce of energy is put in.

and most importantly,

Don’t ever give up.

---Miss K

the finishing line is within sight.