awaitingmiraclez.

I feel so FAT! ><

2010-06-24T08:22:00.001-07:00

HELP!

i’m very sure i’m going to put on weight!

but i don’t regret going to Esther’s house yesterday – baking pizzas and eating them is real fun! :D

especially since they tasted so good!

looking at these photos is enough to make one drool…

[haha this time is all about the pizzas, i’ll talk about the people in another post!]]

i’m so looking forward to the next baking session! :D

( meanwhile, i SO need to exercise!!! >< )

i don’t want to be that frog.

2010-06-23T21:04:00.001-07:00

The Parable of the Boiled Frog

Take a pot of boiling water and drop a frog into it. The frog instinctively kicks its legs so hard on touching the boiling water that it jumps out of the pot and hops away from certain death. Then take another pot, this time full of cool water, put the frog into it and then gently turn the stove on under the pot. As the water gradually warms up the frog is lulled into inaction and finally dies from overheating. It never noticed the gradual deadly change in its environment.

I’m sure we’re all familiar with this parable.

but I’m wondering if I’m actually guilty of gradually-boiling-myself in my daily life.

like the frog that’s frog slowly heating up, I’m perpetually stuck in my comfort zone.

procrastinating from one task to the next,

i’ve not made much progress in learning java/Cantonese/driving to my dispair T.T

in DHS I’ve been protected against the harsh winds,

but 世界那么大, that doesn’t mean that i can be complacent and neglect the harshness of reality.

it’s going to be very different at SMU,

i know it but i’m yet to prepare myself for it.

it’s a big world out there,

and i got to learn how to take care of myself.

i got to be prepared to meet aggressive people, have my own viewpoint and assert my stance, stand firm against opposing views, and most importantly, stay focused and work hard to get to where i want to be.

i know it’s not easy, but i’m very clear this is what i want and this is what i need to do to achieve it.

[friends, do help me out if you see me tempted to take part in a lot of activities. please remind me to stay focus! >< ]

it’s going to be very hard to make myself into someone that i previously wasn’t,

but i know i got to do it, and as long as i think more question more speak more, i can do it.

xiaoyou told me about her brother’s friend:

he went into SMU and didn’t like it there because it was so different from his personality. he even failed his 1st semester.

he could have just quit, and gone to another school. it was difficult but he stayed on, adapting himself to the environment despite it being very tiring to do so.

the transformation reaped results - he did so well that he made it to the dean’s list.

what doesn’t kill you will make you stronger.

that’s exactly what i want out of my SMU education.

i found it really important to have something really different from DHS, so that i could go through the arduous transformation,

and hopefully emerge as a better and more balanced person than i am now.

i don’t have to be on the dean list.

i just need to achieve my personal goals of learning the way to study smart, gaining exposure and getting rid of my 惰性!

i’m ready to put in all the effort to step out of my comfort zone.

SMU, here I come! :D

Mayday-ing! :D

2010-06-22T19:49:00.000-07:00

“如果你要一朵花，我就给你一朵天边无尽的烟花。”

---五月天阿信

♥ Mayday.

Toy Story 3!

2010-06-22T07:35:00.001-07:00

i read this on facebook! i thought it’s really worth sharing :D

誰來教我們說再見？ Toy Story3 - 觀後感

我真的要給Toy Story3，一千兩百萬個推推推！這個劇本，好得不得了！

在我們的教育中，很少有人告訴我們，如何說再見？
我們又要如何面對一段關係的淡去？讓雙方都能留有美麗的回憶，沒有委屈，沒有遺憾地迎向往後的歲月？

有一群玩具，曾經陪你度過美好的歲月，而今你長大了，這是莫可奈何的，你們相聚的階段過去了，你不會在十七歲的時候玩七歲的玩具，沒有誰對誰錯，只是時候到了。
時候到了，真的要分離了。
玩具早就已經隱隱感受到，主人安迪長大了，他們內心有準備，只是不知道會被遺棄，還是被束之高閣。
分離這件事情，最好雙方都有同樣的心理準備，否則，忽然被告知的一方，只有措手不及，以及受傷的感覺。影片中被遺棄的玩具，內心充滿怨恨，就變成托兒所裡面的大魔頭：粉紅色的抱熊。他不再相信愛，不再相信擁抱，不再認為一個玩具需要有主人。他甚至摧毀所有玩具對主人的情感，因為他無法再愛。

最後一場戲，我真的哭到不行。（可以媲美天外奇蹟片頭的十五分鐘，卡爾和艾莉的一生那樣感動我）主人安迪捧著所有的玩具到鄰居邦妮的家，因為邦妮是最會陪玩具玩的小孩，安迪知道，雖然他不再需要這些玩具，但是他為玩具找了下一個好主人，讓玩具找到新的生命。
那是最後一次午後快樂的遊玩，最後一次相伴，陽光下，安弟好似回到童年，他和邦妮玩著巴斯光年、胡迪警長，他們打仗，他們飛翔，他們不亦樂呼，而這一場遊戲之後，從此安弟與玩具將踏上各自不同的道路。

組成我們人生的相聚，不過是一段又一段美好的陪伴。
所有關係都有起點，有些關係會有終點。
可能生病了，意外了，可能你們不適合，可能當時你太草率，而她太倔強。

對於曾經陪伴過你的，你能不能心存感激？畢竟，他曾經用美好的青春陪伴過你、愛護過你。
而所謂的愛啊！會因時因地不斷的轉換相處的模式，有時候近一點，有時候遠一點。可是愛還是存在的。

就像安弟對邦妮說，他很喜歡警長胡迪，胡迪聰明機智，幽默善良，不過，之所以讓胡迪這麼意義獨特的原因是：你知道，胡迪永遠支持你。
就算不在你身邊。就算不再天天陪你玩。就算沒有陪你上大學。但你知道，他的支持是永遠的。
不要輕易說再見。

如果有一天，你真的要向一個人告別，不要那麼決裂，也不要那麼絕對，更不要那麼冷漠。
也可能有一天，你發現你其實不想要告別，你只是需要一點空間，或著你只需要關係的轉換，有時近，有時遠。
無論如何，說再見總是傷感的。

不過，也幸好是『再見』，表示總會有再見的一天。
一天、一月、一年……總會再見。
我想，玩具總動員四（如果還有第四集的話），搞不好就在寫，安弟上大學後，放假回家，又重新去找胡迪、巴斯光年們玩的故事哩！

我愛Toy Story3 ，還沒進戲院的，快去吧！

●Toy Story3 編劇為第79屆奧斯卡最佳原創劇本獎得主（《小太陽的願望》）Michael Arndt。

It all depends on perspective.

2010-06-20T09:20:00.001-07:00

saw this on a friend’s PM.

The difference between a stumbling block and a stepping stone is how you use them.

Food for Thought

2010-06-18T04:53:00.001-07:00

read this on my friend’s blog.

really think it’s worth a thought, esp for people in my position, those standing at the cross-road of life.

Source: http://johnydnguyen.com/oh-my-alice-where-do-you-want-to-go/

Oh my Alice, where do you want to go?

These days, I was struck by the fact that many of my friends didn’t know what they really wanted in their own lives. They came to me and other people asking for which would be the best for their future. I got stunned a bit. Those frozen times recalled me of the conversations between Alice and the Cat and the Caterpillar in ‘Alice in Wonderland’.

Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?
The Cat: That depends a good deal on where you want to get to
Alice: I don’t much care where.
The Cat: Then it doesn’t much matter which way you go.

The Caterpillar: What size do you want to be?
Alice: Oh, I’m not particular as to size, only one doesn’t like changing so often, you know.

I admit it’s hard to find our true dream and commit to it; however, I can be sure that the one, who doesn’t have his own target, will never achieve happiness and meaning of life.
We have been conditioned to perceive lots of things the same, but our dreams should be different.

i’m a workaholic.

2010-04-29T10:03:00.001-07:00

yes i admit that.

there goes my allocated time for slacking.

oh well.

那该多好

2010-04-28T09:20:00.001-07:00

really love the 天真无瑕ness of the kindergarten kids @ PCF Hougang (:

how i wish we could all live in their fairy-tale land,

or that there is hope the world can be a place free of racial + gender prejudice…

YUP you’re right, awaitingmiraclez is BACK!

look out for a super long post to mark the offical comeback!

STAY TUNED! :D

HURRAY! :D :D :D

2009-12-04T09:05:00.001-08:00

As are FINALLY over!

HURRAYYYYYYY!!! :D :D :D

~~erm, not exactly true that i did well though ><~~

~~but well, at least it’s over.~~

~~i’ll try to worry only when results come back next March.~~

~~key word is TRY.~~

straight after computing paper in the morning,

rushed to meet with the 6A gang,

MIS-ied,

got caught in the rain,

but it was still a super fun day!

POST-As CELEBRATIONS

there were 2 mini marathons:

sang k with 6A peeps: 1pm-6.30pm

theatresports with 6C12: 7.30pm-11pm

YUP the theatresports performance was THAT long.

11pm!

to think i thought it’ll end by 9.30pm and i could join the 6A for supper or smth after that.

nonetheless, it was REAL FUN!

was really enjoying myself with the 6C12 gang :D

due to some kind of coincidence,

we had to sit right in the front row.

but it turned out to be a great thing that we did! :D

1st we managed to spot a lot of cute people (THEY WERE SUPER CUTE CAN! and VERY DRAMATIC!)

and 2nd cos we were making a lot of noise. [oppz]

but for those who don’t know,

in Theatresports the audience are encouraged to participate in the performance

and that’s exactly what we did!

we were REALLY ENTHU audiences ok?

haha :D

oh and for those who haven’t caught a Theatresports performance,

GO SEE IT!

pls do catch the one next year,

it’s going to be a lot more worth it than a movie or a musical concert,

[that is if you enjoy the kind of 感染力超强 de performance like i do (that’s why i like MAYDAY! :D)]

trust me (:

oh well.

2009-11-12T09:05:00.001-08:00

第15届新加坡金曲奖大赢家：

五月天得5奖 Mayday's a Hit with 5 awards!

and i’m happy for them! :D :D :D

nonetheless, i dont think i can similarly get 5As for A levels bah. :(

oh well, i guess i dont absolutely need 5As.

and by that i mean that i wont die without them,

not that i wont strive hard to get them.

so, after the terrible episode of 'trying-to-finish-history-essays-while-concentrating-on-not-puking’,

i need to work real hard for econs & computering le.

it’s thru this episode that made me realise how much my teachers care.

i really don’t wish to disappoint them ><

I WILL WORK HARDER.

GOGO SIMIN!

the most successfully class outing EVER!

2009-10-18T10:45:00.001-07:00

the last day of school was a blast!

(or should i say, a BOOMZ ??)

really appreciated the effort our teachers put in for us,

as evident in that simple yet heart-warming performance which left tears on my eyes, touched by their genuine care for us.

the faith they have in us, is much more than the faith i have in myself,

which makes me work even harder, for their sake more than my own.

Mr Sng is graduating at the end of the year with us,

and i must say my fortune to have such an inspiring principal like Mr Sng for a large part of my school life (:

we went back to class after the celebration,

and was pleasantly surprised by Yujia and her really sweet gifts to everyone in class!

and there was Lyon’s motivational video (below),

and the “key to success” and “golden bag of As” by the juniors + well-wishes by the seniors!

and Mr Tan surprised us with his many cute poses! HAHA!

and Chee Guan demonstrated his ‘famous’ Body Slam – much to the horror of Mr Tan.

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then there was pizza,

and chocolate cake from Miss Leong, which we each made wishes with lighted candles.

we played our animal-concentration game + lots of other games to clear the food,

i was super full by the time we ended ><

then we rushed home for a change of clothes before meeting at Manhattan Fish Market where we ate more food!

then it was Carrefour and mass camwhoring in front of Plaza Sing!

we then proceeded to Istana Park.

i think we really broke the tranquillity, oppz.

played "I have never", "I have" and "I have- 劲爆! 版"

which was really fun,

i never knew everyone had such interesting encounters! (:

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i <3 6C12!

cant wait for 6C12 Taiwan Trip ((:

一生德明人，一世德明情

2009-10-18T09:55:00.001-07:00

An apt description by 安老师 to sum up my time in DHS (:

一转眼, it has been 6 years!

It sounds incredible, doesn’t it.

To think i could still remember people saying at Sec 2: “can you imagine SIX years in DHS?!?!”

(and those were the people who subsequently transferred to supposingly more ‘branded’ schools)

well, i did it.

i mean WE, the 2nd Dunman Senior High cohort, did it, and have no regrets – it has probably been the best years of my life. (:

the simple, but heart-warming farewell ceremony put up by the teachers on Friday really reinforced this belief.

though their singing wasn’t perfect,

i was touched by the pure sincerity of the teachers, and also our beloved principal Mr Sng(:, who genuinely cared for us,

(teachers even came back from the MOE HQ to pay us a visit!)

the juniors and seniors who sent their well-wishes,

and friends who are ever so encouraging,

every single familiar face i see throughout my years in DHS,

the whole feeling of a DUNMANIAN FAMILY – where no one gets left behind.

all that would be different if it wasn’t Dunman High.

which school charts your growth and progress throughout 6 years, and grounds your moral values with 诚信勇忠 like DHS does?

in fact, i didn’t even get that feeling when i was in Sec 1 and 2.

perhaps it really does take 6 years to inculcate the distinct Dunmanian identity,

which i daresay is obvious to anyone that steps into the school, or gets to interact with a group of Dunmanians.

No doubt there had been instances when i felt that DHS had been so overwhelmingly protective.

In a sense DHS is just like a greenhouse,

and us Dunmanians are 温室的小花, sheltered from the turbulent storms.

in a way, this is bad, as homogeneity narrows the mind, and causes us to gradually lose touch with the cruel reality that exist outside our nice-nice Dunmanian world.

(yup i really do think that the % of nice Dunmanians are higher than the % of nice people in the rest of the world!)

and it’ll be a bit of a culture shock when we leave DHS after 6 years and realise that the world isn’t as nice or as small as we used to think it was ><

Nonetheless, life in DHS has truly shaped to me into what i am today.

it grounded my values system, showed me the warmth, and taught me to reciprocate.

this experience is similar to what i’ve felt in Guides, just to a greater extent, and is not something that i can describe in a few words.

I don’t know about others,

but i believe that’s what education is about.

not just the academics, but also the character building, which i believe DHS has done a great job.

i really feel that the school has successfully inculcated in us the values of 诚信勇忠, which would serve as our moral compass as we proceed on with our future endeavours.

i’m sure Dunmanians will go a long way in the future,

if we stay guided by our moral compass of 诚信勇忠，i believe we will never go astray (:

I am proud to be a Dunmanian, and forever will be. (:

my Dunmanian memories!

GUIDES!

4E’07!

dhsGUITAR!

6C12!

FRIENDS!

TEACHERS!

SENIORS!

MR SNG!

presented in no particular order (:

JIAYOU SONG BY CUTEST LYON (:

2009-10-18T04:00:00.001-07:00

LYON:
a video for Alevels(= treat it as motivation or entertainment :D

1st song:

Put the best smile you can up on your face
Get ready, take the lead from me,
Lets all go(:
Even if the strong wind blows against you
Prove you can try, don't give up hope!
You should head for the big blue sea and then,
the wind will whisper in your ears, you'll see
you have the power to conquer your fears!
Now, do the best thing you know,
and tell your heart no need to cry
And you will see the light in the stars ,shining bright!
And you can get happiness
she'll let you to top the world
the Faith you have is the courage to live out your dreams(:

2nd song:

Believe in yourself,
Don't ever give up,
thats how you succeed!
take a large deep breath
prepare on a smile
you can make things right again
Give it all you can
straight right from the heart and
very soon you'll know,
that as long as you try
everything is gonna all be fine(:

when everything is going downhill for you
go and take a walk outside
and look up to the sky
you'll see a pretty rainbow smiling at you
her smile is a gift from her to you

There'll always be people there for you
Dont ever doubt it coz its true
and whenever you're feeling low and sorrowful
encouragements, care and concern
will be just beside you(:

Believe in yourself,
Don't ever give up,
thats how you succeed!
take a large deep breath
prepare on a smile
you can make things right again
Give it all you can
straight right from the heart and
very soon you'll know,
that as long as you try
everything is gonna all be fine(:

simin兵法#101

2009-10-01T09:02:00.001-07:00

divide and CONQUER！

really need to shake off that inertia.

i MUST do it, RELIGIOUSLY.

it’s going to be my everyday ritual.

time to get some self-discipline.

只许成功不许失败。

mr nice guy! <3

2009-09-28T01:48:00.001-07:00

glad to have found this link to an old movie i liked!

非典人生 - 浩然&文慧

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/2fPnzf3ZQUg/

great love doesn’t have to be dramatic.

neither does romance need to be publicly displayed through a 100 carat diamond ring or whatever else.

[ i always felt that other than bragging rights, there’s no real value for the 9999 red roses that your boyfriend delivers to your office ]

any action, even if it’s simple or even routine, that is 发自于内心 will be heartfelt,

as it is the sincerity and genuine concern for the person you love that matters, rather than the action in itself.

and that’s what is truly GREAT & ROMANTIC (:

my new interest

2009-09-25T09:59:00.001-07:00

CARDIO EXECRISE!

i need to work harder though.

i cant believe i’m falling behind! 0.o!

haha (:

but most importantly it’s to have fun in the process! (:

了解自己才不会迷失自己

2009-09-21T19:31:00.001-07:00

SiMin’s philosophy to life:

无须以他人的标准来否定自己

evaluation.

2009-09-20T09:30:00.001-07:00

#1. recognition lag.

then you have no self-control!

that really woke me up.

#2. decision lag.

i plan, too much.

and too long.

no matter how much you know, it all boils down to nothing if you don’t demonstrate it during the time limit.

how true.

it’s really time i break out of my self-consoling trance,

stop giving myself the never-ending “2nd chances”

Note #1.

#3. implementation lag.

even after i recognised, and decided,

it still takes me way too long to have it implemented,

if it ever gets implemented at all.

ARRGH! ><

…

the muggers @ SMU really made me 醒悟。

while the people @ Give.sg really showed me that

life has so much more to offer than just this,

and there’s so much that i want to do.

why am i getting myself defeated in just the first of the many challenges?

ok.

i’ve recognised, and decided.

time doesn’t wait for slackers.

it’s really time to get that inertia out of the way,

and get the implementation done.

i’m really putting my mind into it.

i’ll MAKE SURE it gets done.

I need to make sure i really did put in my bestest best effort,

and will so not have regrets of any sort.

~~“OMG i so regret this, cause i know i can do better”~~

even if the results is not that of the best,

at least i can still be answerable to myself, sleep soundly,

and be contented with knowing that “yup i know this is as far as it goes as i’ve put in my best effort.”

to me, the knowledge that “yes i’ve put in my best effort”,

matters more than the results itself.

but the problem is, at current stage, i don’t even think i’m deserve anything more than my current results,

and i know i only have myself to blame.

in the remaining weeks i’m going to make sure this doesn’t repeat itself.

i need a miracle – not of results but of effort,

and i’m not going to sit around to wait for it,

but rather, MAKE IT HAPPEN.

now deep into the marathon,

no matter how tired, or feel-like-giving-up i am,

there’s no way i’m going to let my guard down now.

it really time to break out of that jog and propel forward with every cell in the body!

yup that’s right, that means no more excuses, or “2nd chances”

simply because:

reality check: THERE’S NO MORE 2ND TRY!

no more time for explorations in LaLa-land.

so, take out that good sportsmanship, and fighting sprit by making sure every ounce of energy is put in.

and most importantly,

Don’t ever give up.

---Miss K

the finishing line is within sight.

勇

2009-09-15T08:39:00.001-07:00

mine’s definitely there but it somehow gets stuck.

i hate it when it does.

ARRGH.

…

From Mr Tan’s email:

Topical knowledge and life skills aside, I hope the distinctive take away you have from attending my GP lessons is being able to appreciate the vicissitudes of professional and personal life, and could navigate the course of life with

- Cautiousness (it is a beautiful, wonderful world out there, to a certain extent),

- Care (for yourself and significant others i.e. sensitive to the comfort and dangers around) and

- MORAL Courage (we need many of you to tell us that the Emperor is naked)

i love green tea, TOO MUCH.

2009-09-14T01:43:00.001-07:00

really must remind myself to avoid over consumption,

esp on certain not-so-suitable days.

another wasted day.

OUCH.

伟大ness.

2009-09-11T09:15:00.001-07:00

人因梦想而伟大。
---Anonymous

a quote that i like very much. (:

but there should be a distinction between dreams and unrealistic goals,

白日梦s are simply not equitable to 梦想s.

some may say that it’s a thin line that separates the two,

but i beg to differ.

梦想 are your dreams and aspirations, goals that you work towards,

unlike 白日梦s where you expect them to fall from the sky?

well, i suppose most people, including myself, might be guilty of confusing the two,

but we must agree that, at the end of the day, there should be a clear distinction.

am i right to say that we don’t want to devalue the meaning of 梦想, by using it to refer to meaningless 白日梦s?

yes i agree i’m an idealist,

but that certainly doesn’t equate to being unrealistic.

i’m a realistic idealist.

oxymoron? – maybe.

but then again, i’m sure the two are not mutually exclusive.

…

i see the need to resurface this issue from my earlier post because i found out that some people really have this misconceived notion about 伟大ness due predominantly to their narrow definition of success – which i never said was wrong, but just it’s just narrow, something that i cannot stand.

why must one limit oneself to what the rest of society perceive?

have you asked yourself if that is what you truly wanted?

will you be truly happy?

here’s a nice way to put it:

Don’t set your goals according to what others perceive as “successful”.

Ultimately, only you know what is best for you.

---Anonymous

in any case i believe that most people will have the same shared goals:

material well-being, spritual well-being, work-life-balance, friends, family, …

however you phrase it,

i think it all boils down to the big underlying word:

HAPPINESS

and i believe there is more than one way to achieve it,

depending on what is your priority.

if you think that at this moment,

a cup of coffee will make you the happiness man in the world,

so be it, go get yourself one (:

but if you’re concerned that in the long run your health will suffer from the repercussions of drinking that one single cup of coffee,

ok, don’t drink it.

sacrifice your craving a longer-term benefit.

but this is just talking about a single cup of coffee,

to me, i think that’s paranoia? – it’s just one cup of coffee, quite harmless right? (assuming you haven’t already been drinking 1000 cups prior to that)

but i understand that to some others it might mean more than just that – maybe it’s not the coffee that actually matters but it’s the issue about giving in to temptations being a violation of your life-long principles?

ok maybe my coffee example isn’t all that good to illustrate my point,

but what i want to say is,

just because this person has this grand “梦寐以求”goal of doing this certain thing,

it doesnt mean that you must be so astounded/jealous/envious that you have to start making it your life-long ambition too,

(and then feel all 自卑 and dejected when you can’t achieve it)

while it may be good for one person,

it may not be the best for you.

why must you let this thing be a gauge of your self-worth?

have you stopped to ask yourself if that is what you truly wanted, and stop just blindly following the crowd?

why care so much about what the others think?

You live YOUR life for YOURSELF.

at the end of the day,

you are only answerable to YOURSELF, not them.

only you know want you truly want,

and you have only one chance to live it.

i’m sure you dont wish to be lying on your deathbed one day,

lamenting on all your regrets of how you spent your whole lifetime living up to the aspirations of someone else, and doing what others deem as successful,

instead of living YOUR own life.

by that time, 看着指尖(生命)已经如烟…

yeah.

although i’m not sure if i put it across clearly,

but what i’m trying to say is

everyone has different priorities,

regardless whether it’s the conventional or eccentric,

according to the Sinatra Doctrine: “Do it your Way”

regardless of what the others think,

“only you know what is best for you” (:

and this is my way :

SiMin’s philosophy to life:

这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢 (:

---五月天

while you may think nothing of my 2-cents worth,

to me, it’s priceless.

all the best to attaining your 真正的快乐 (:

*Note: i wrote this more for my own reading/ranting pleasure without thinking of anything/anyone in mind so please ignore this if you simply think it’s all rubbish (:

化悲愤为力量!

2009-09-04T06:56:00.001-07:00

GP was a traumatic experience,

to the extent that i’ve decided to use the rest of today and tomorrow to reflect on my wrong-doings and making sure that this doesn’t happen for the rest of my prelims.

sometimes i really hate myself.

i didnt really know what processed me,

but i never did learn from my CT experience and ended up committing the same grave mistake.

and then i realised this is what i’ve been doing all along for my 2 senior high years.

that’s just how bad it is.

ARRGH.

ENOUGH ABOUT THAT

time is ticking,

no use morning over things that already past.

the more urgent need is to get myself back on form!

time to 化悲愤为力量!

JIAYOU SIMIN!

FOCUS!

stop giving yourself anymore chances or excuses and don’t let self-deflating thoughts stray you away!

Words of Wisdom

2009-08-31T10:07:00.000-07:00

SiMin’s philosophy to life:

这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢 (:

---五月天

Mayday DNA Concert 2009!

2009-08-30T08:47:00.001-07:00

WOOHOO!

haha that’s probably the best word to sum up the exuberant atmosphere at the 29/8 Mayday Concert yesterday

i seriously didnt know why they installed chairs when everyone was standing throughout :D

lucky the place was dark - i bet everyone looked super unglam bouncing up and down & screaming their hearts out!

i wish i had bought lightsticks & whistle though!

and i really 佩服 Mayday standing throughout all their concerts!

it must be super super tiring to do that for consecutive days!

ohh as for the controversy,

Mayday didnt let the hardcore fans leave the stadium disappointed!

they gladly sang until 12.15am! :D

i discovered each time i heard their song, i get a different sense of inspiration.

that’s what i like about mayday & their songs.

it’s their motivating sprit and aspiring voice that i hear and feel inspired by.

i wanted to buy the cute bearbear t-shirt!

but it was out of stock real fast :(

and i missed the last bus 16,

all the taxis were on call.

at 1am, the poor me have to walk all the way out to the main road by myself :(

haha ok other than that i really enjoyed myself standing and screaming and singing-along

i cant wait for next year’s concert! XD

simin’s post-it inspiration

2009-08-29T10:06:00.000-07:00

http://thingsweforget.blogspot.com/

this is seriously cool.

though i’ve been a big fan of post-it notes,

i didnt know it could be employed as a weapon for “social revolution” as such.

this is such an inspiration!

i’m so going to do something similar when i embark on “simin’s journey to make the world a more positive place” !

i just need an idea that could “change the world (subtly)” to hit me.

wish me luck (:

simin’s idealistic view of the world (:

2009-08-28T09:33:00.000-07:00

(click picture to read)

haha personality tests are interesting,

i saw this on MyPaper the other day and so i went to clip this off their e-version (:

let’s see, i was originally deciding between A & D

but after reading thru the explanations,

i think they apply to me in this order:

i really think all 3 of them applies to my idea of love and romance,

so maybe one could say that i’m a moderate idealist? haha (:

well, here’s an idealist’s take on the world:

there’s nothing wrong with being idealistic as long as one dont lose track of the realities (:

everyone needs some faith to get on with the harsh realities of life!

last ensemble piece :(

2009-07-11T20:47:00.001-07:00

we played for the last time at the Esplanade for the SYF Instrumental Presentation on 9 July.

it was right after the CTs so we only had 2 days of intensive practice.

no doubt everyone was a bit rusty.

so the performance wasn’t really that great as it should have been.

but nevertheless we had lots of fun!

firstly, this is my first (& maybe only) time performing at the Esplanade.

i thought the dressing room was kind of cool!

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we spent hours in it, waiting for our turn.

meanwhile we took photos! and sang songs! and mugged. haha.

then we got bored, so after dinner we went to take photos around Esplanade (:

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molly’s so cute! (:

then finally it was our turn to perform.

the Recital Studio was real small.

and like 940 said, we were stuck at the Esplanade for 10 hours jus for 10 min of performance.

不愧是：台上十分钟，台下十个小时功！

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yup so that was our last ensemble piece.

then it was back to school.

we presented the notebooks with our notes to Miss Ho and Miss Lam.

oh and Miss Ho said that

we were invited to perform at the AYG opening ceremony!

a pity we were having CTs and couldn’t go :(

[but VJ choir had their CTs postponed so that they could go leh. diff sch diff treatment.]

anyway, there was this really funny incident of JH in shorts + court shoes! HAHA!

after that we went for supper at Macs.

where we talked about our SYF Day again!

and that reminds me,

i havent posted about our SYF Day!

shall do that now (:

SYF DAY! + Celebrations (:

2009-07-11T20:13:00.001-07:00

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haha here are the few photos we took on the SYF day!

but dont have me :(

WHY DIDNT WE TAKE MORE PHOTOS?!

- was it because we were too hungry? :P

haha actually i think it was more of no mood bah.

we were so sure we’re going to get silver lor.

haha ok let me slowly recount what actually happened on that day itself.

it was quite an eventful day – at least for me it was (:

we reached school @ 6am.

the moment i reached i heard this loud voice coming from outside the audi that had to come from either yiwei or 940 or somebody.

we practiced a bit, then there was these ppl from the SC student welfare ppl who came and gave us some sweets in individual packets.

i can only say it’s the thought that counts.

then we carried our weapons up the bus and began our long bus ride to Republic Poly.

even if we were anxious, our anxiety was probably shown through our excitement bah.

we were jus being usual noisy selves on the bus, but it was a tad too noisy for Oxy who was there to accompany us.

so we sort of got a “warning” speech from her – she told us to concentrate on thinking about our song…

it was rather exasperating for her (she said so on her blog), but i guess it was our way to de-stress bah.

oppz. that wasn’t exactly a good start.

we were the 1st school that was supposed to play for the morning

[YAH! SUPER STRESSFUL RIGHT]

but we we reached TJ was alr there! – theirs was 3rd slot.

we sort of walked past them and we could feel the rivalry aura there. quite scary. *shiver*

we tried to tune our guitars and practice a bit, but unfortunately we got scolded by the ppl there.

we were quite pissed off, cos TJ has been practicing there for a super long time yet they scold us who only jus started?!

that was not the worse.

we were waiting to go into the tuning room – that’s 10min before the actual.

when Hwa Chong (finally) came to line up behind us. – they were 2nd slot.

what could be worse is that they were wearing the exact same colours as ours! - 撞colours: maroon + black.

just that theirs were black blazers + maroon gowns, compared to our shirt & pants. >.<

worse still, their conductor came to shake hands with Kevin.

after the formalities, she ask: “So what songs are your school playing?”

Kevin replied “Mountains In Autumn and La Partida”

then she was like, “Mountains In Autumn?” *Snigger* then turned and walked off!

WHAT IN THE WORLD.

we felt super insulted! but we’re not going to let that affect our performance.

yah so that wasn’t such a good omen either.

the impt 10mins in the tuning room went super fast!

and most of us thought we sounded good in the tuning room.

we then proceeded to wait behind the stage, and was joined by Hwa Chong shortly after.

we had to wait to start.

those were the longest minutes ever.

then it was our turn!

we were the 1st ones up, so there wasn’t many ppl in the audience.

except for the judges: Kelly Tang (the band set piece composer) & the chairman of the European Guitar Teachers' Association among them.

MIA sounded real soft. – maybe it was due to the RP Cultural Centre?

La Pa was, ok i guess.

but i knew i didn’t play my best. :(

and the songs sort of sounded bad from the prime area.

and it was all over before we knew it.

immediately after we got of the stage,

we, or at least i, could feel doom slowly descending on us.

it couldn’t help but think that all our efforts sort of went down the drain and all our intensive practices were for nothing if we were to get a silver.

it was this doomsday mood that engulfed us, and prevented us from having a good phototaking session.

my friends from the other ensembles came to look for me, there was YinHong & Eunice

but was feeling so dejected that even when they came over to say hi i was in no real mood to reciprocate >.<

and i saw the RJ ppl, who hadn’t went on stage, but i was in no real mood to even go look for Ma :(

we went to eat @ the RP canteen,

but we were in no real mood to eat also :(

esp YaChi, she really looked super emo putting her head on the table :((

then Dejian was saying dont talk abt it leh, cos we’re only making it worse.

so we took a few photos, and wanted to go take more at the nice RP pond, when it started raining.

we were late for the intermission, so had to wait to get in.

we caught quite a few schools, before and after the intermission.

and that scared the world out of us.

they all had like, big exaggerated movements, loud percussions (some a bit too loud), even really long solos! (some a bit too long)

but still, they had a lot of elements that we lacked.

and they were much louder! – they have like 50 members when we have like, 27.

we barely filled up the 2nd row can. T.T

and i remb saying to yiwei & kim “oh no looks like we are one of the worst ensembles.”

then Kim was like, “No, we are THE worst!”

then yiwei & i were like >.<

the rest had the same sentiments.

we were talking on the bus: molly was like, Bronze lah! or COP!

the teachers & Oxy were trying to comfort us by saying that from the audience’s view, we sounded good - Oxy was saying, at least Gold Standard.

but still, we were not convinced.

the skies were grey, reflective of our mood.

we reached sch.

we treated ourselves to Choco Waffle!

when ppl asked how was it, we just answered, “like dat lor, it wasn’t our best nor our worst”

and i decided to not go for math.

we went back to the room to wait for results.

meanwhile some of us tried reading notes, while the rest tried to play old concert songs + sing random songs.

very quickly it was 3.15!

there was a call from the people who went to hear the results.

we anxiously waited, all of us crowding around Suat’s phone.

then we heard it:

“DAY 6, AM SESSION. CENTRAL JUDGING OF GUITAR ENSEMBLE, JUNIOR COLLEGE SECTION.”

“DUNMAN HIGH SCHOOL.”

“GOLD…”

then we all screamed.

no amount of words could describe it.

if i were to use one word to describe, it’ll be “AHHHHHHHH!!!!~” – cos it was the only word that was audible, if you even consider it a word at all.

then we heard it:

“… WITH HONOURS.”

WE WENT MAD.

if you could just imagine the previous scene, now just imagine it 3 times louder in volume + tears + hugs.

everyone was just running about screaming, crying or hugging someone else.

basically it was just madness.

people started bashing through the guitars that were lying on the floor.

we opened the door and screamed in Genevieve & YuRu’s ears – i believed they got quite a shock.

then everyone basically just ran out towards the canteen, screaming on the way.

[ yes even Grace who sprained her leg! i heard she ran the fastest somemore! HAHA (: ]

i believe the whole senior high block heard us.

jenny + dejian could hear us from the 4th floor!

and the teachers came out of the staff room to find out what happened.

and yujia said my whole math class heard us.

oppz.

we called them to confirm that we didnt hear wrongly on the phone.

alicia + 940 + jx + kevin + oxy + miss ho confirmed our GwH!

and they brought additional news: HW got bronze.. VJ silver.. and we were

the ONLY JC WITH GWH!

omg that let off another stream of screams.

we went “parading” in the canteen – except Esther, JingHuan & YaChi. they were probably the only ones who didnt lose their senses.

we met the earlier bunch of ppl and told them the good news!

then jenny met us. she was crying!

then we went back to the guitar room to continue our *闪亮亮* effect (:

we were imagining how Dejian would have this urge to jump up halfway during his CSC lesson! HAHA.

before long the ppl who went to listen to the results came back,

and that let of another stream of screams.

they were telling us how they were also quite unable to register the news of us getting GWH too!

esp Kevin’s stunned reaction – HAHA.

and they had to confirm with the other audience that they didnt hear wrongly also. haha (:

it was sad that there was only 5 of them there lor,

their screams couldnt be compared to ours: in the music block, senior high block, and the canteen! (:

Oxy messaged all the Year 7s alumni – they are all in the army except Oxy & Valerie (:

and Oxy called Valerie and we said our thanks.

and HongSheng read out TienLeng’s msg.

and then Esther & I had to go for hist rev class.

and that was a BEAU-tiful ending to our SYF journey despite the few hiccups in the morning.

and like Kim said,

THE LEGACY HAS BEGAN! ((:

i think i can never forget this day in my life, ever.

i really think we rock.

i <33 guitar peeps!

((:

生命。如烟。

2009-06-27T10:59:00.001-07:00

如烟 - 五月天

我坐在床前
望着窗外回忆满天
生命是华丽错觉
时间是贼偷走一切

七岁的那一年
抓住那只蝉
以为能抓住夏天

十七岁的那年
吻过他的脸
就以为和他能永远

有没有那麽一种永远
永远不改变
拥抱过的美丽
都再也不破碎
让险峻岁月不能
在脸上撒野
让生离和死别都遥远
有谁能听见

我坐在床前
转过头看谁在沉睡
那一张苍老的脸
好像是我紧闭双眼

曾经是爱我的
和我深爱的
都围绕在我身边

带不走的那些
遗憾和眷恋
就化成最后一滴眼泪

有没有那麽一滴眼泪
能洗掉后悔
化成大雨降落在
回不去的街
再给我一次机会
将故事改写
还欠了他一生的
一句抱歉

有没有那麽一个世界
永远不天黑
星星太阳万物都
听我的指挥
月亮不忙着圆缺
春天不走远
树梢紧紧拥抱着树叶
有谁能听见

耳际眼前此生重演
是我来自漆黑
而又回归漆黑
人间瞬间天地之间
下次我又是谁

有没有那麽一朵玫瑰
永远不凋谢
永远骄傲和完美
永远不妥协
为何人生最后会像
一张纸屑
还不如一片花瓣
曾经鲜艳

有没有那麽一张书签
停止那一天
最单纯的笑脸和
最美那一年
书包里面装满了
蛋糕和汽水
双眼只有无猜和无邪
让我们无法无天

有没有那麽一首诗篇
找不到句点
青春永远定居在
我们的岁月
男孩和女孩都有
吉他和舞鞋
笑忘人间的苦痛
只有甜美

有没有那麽一个明天
重头活一遍
让我再次感受
曾挥霍的昨天
无论生存或生活
我都不浪费
不让故事这麽的后悔

有谁能听见
我不要告别
我坐在床前
看着指尖已经如烟

五月天凭这首《如烟》入围第20届台湾金曲奖2009最佳作词人奖；

但对我来说这首歌的意义不仅在此。

它更深一层的意义在于它能巧妙地在一首歌词中，

把人的一生细腻地描绘出来，感动听者，引起共鸣。

这，才是真正的好歌词。

It was only until recently when i discovered that 《如烟》 was nominated for 最佳作词人奖 that i went to listen to it carefully one more time. And it was then i realised that it was truly the most 具有代表性song in the whole album. It really talks about how someone looks back on his life, then realise that his whole life was really nothing but smoke – that he didnt really know what he has been up to for the whole of his life. While this may sound really sad and pathetic when you first thought of it, it really made me reflect on my life - how i spent my past 18 years, the many regrets i have made, the many things i have learnt, and the many people and experiences (whether happy or not-so-happy) that i’ve learnt to cherish.

It made me think of what i really wanted in life, and reminded me how much much i would have hated to see my 生命如烟 when it’s all too late for regrets. It really made me reflect, and decide for myself that i need to know what i really want to achieve in life, and that i must work towards it to see it happen. Not that i necessarily must attain great wealth or achieve great success, but I want to be able to at least 对得起自己. Each of us only has one chance in life, and I want to be able to one day look back on mine, and be proud of myself for whatever i did.

So, starting from now, i’m going to put in extra effort in consciously reminding myself to work towards that goal.

Not that i’m been slacking these few months either. Though i havent really been updating for awhile, it wasn’t because Year 6 was uneventful. In fact, it has been quite the opposite. For one, i celebrated my best birthday yet, with all the *闪亮亮* effect from Guitar SYF GWH (YAY I LOVE THE GUITAR PEEPS! WE ROCK :D) [more about this next time, cause i’m going to need super long just to talk about it and once i start i cant stop] and then there was ASEANPLUS and then was hardcore mugging sessions.

i tried to work hard this june, you’ll find me mugging in the school library almost everyday, if not meeting with HWS peeps – they are a real good bunch of ppl to study with! :D but i have a feeling that this CTs is going to be a wasted opportunity for me to practice my examinations skills yet again. [when will i ever learn? SIGH.] but i can feel myself improving! i just hope i improve by a sufficient amount by Prelims though. i was just reminded that it’ll jus be in 9 weeks! ARRGH!

yup simin’s going to be a smart mugger.

she really means it this time.

生命 will not be 如烟.

[sorry if this post sounds rather in coherent and everything – you cant expect a lot from a 2am piece of work >.< ]

不甘心。

2009-04-09T23:04:00.001-07:00

i just seriously dont understand why is this happening.

we put in so much effort, and this is all we get?

to think we were the most hardworking grp in class – our efforts are surely not comparable to some who barely managed to scrape their way through.

we slogged so hard for NOTHING?!

What is the world coming to?

where’s all the Affirmation we deserve?

in our Bravest hearts i believe

Cockroaches especially dont deserve what they received.

what a crap system.

dearest XterminAIDers,

i have lots to say, but i dont really know how to start.

“We were all deserving people, in my opinion, worthy of the Affirmation.”

– SieuPing

my sentiments exactly.

she said it so well that i cried after reading it.

in fact, we shouldnt even bother about it at all.

it is such a lousy indication of the hardwork we’ve illustrated through the whole process of PW.

trust me, we know better.

through the arduous journey of PW,

regardless whether it’s the many drafts of GPP, WR & many practices of OP,

i’m glad to have you guys there with me.

though we started out as random people being forced to work together,

i’m really grateful to have discovered such good groupmates were so very able to put aside our differences and work tgt as a team.

we’ve since assimilated into the best work team,

and through the many long hours developed our masterplan or what we fondly know as XterminAIDS.

all these had not come easy,

and though the journey of XterminAIDS has seemingly came to an end,

it’s influence never will.

Just like Pedro Zamora, the sprit of XterminAIDS will remain forever in our hearts,

as we continue to hope against hope that we can bring OLE alive!

Infected or Affected?

Xterminate AIDS! :D

quote of the day.

2009-03-30T04:22:00.001-07:00

simin agrees with the following:

“You are the average of the five people you spend the most time with, including yourself."

- Jim Rohn & Celestine Chua

music therapy (:

2009-03-25T05:32:00.001-07:00

arrghh.

we've barely made it through the 1st week of Term 2

but yet i already feel the stretch - just like what the teachers promised.

and assuming they made an accurate forecast,

it's all going to be downhill from this point onwards,

at break-neck speed.

judging by this rate,

i'm going to get myself stressed out real soon.

so i'm going to need to stock up,

and start building my resilient fortress to survive the long-&-harsh mugging/hibernation period up ahead.

besides chicken essence & lots of sleep,

another indispensible factor would be music!

not just any music but music with therapeutic fucntions!

haha and by that i do not just mean Mayday songs - although they are a must-have ((:

it's not easy to find therapeutic songs given my slightly-eccentric taste in music,

but i'm building up my stockpile!

here's a part my songlist.

i didnt include any Mayday songs this time,

but these taiwan indie bands/singers have nice songs too,

though it's hard to find ppl that really appreciates them.

haha ok end of my music remedy session.

time to go back to attacking schoolwork!

Dream your dream.

2009-03-11T08:31:00.001-07:00

there's this code at the end which i really like:

" Dream your dream. Follow your heart.
Imagine. Listen to the wind.
Drink sunsets. Be free.
Let the wonder never cease. Believe.
Wish on EVERY star. Create adventure. Be Kind. "
-Debbie Coulter

i have a new religion

2009-03-06T07:56:00.000-08:00

one of the functions of religion is that it provides comfort.

i have a new religion.

drawing inspiration from the experiences of our seniors at the 2008 A levels,

i've developed a new school of thought similar to how Confucius conceptualised his.

i vow to mug religiously and practice it is a faith.

i promise.

friends please do me a favour,

help me stick to that promise.

your help will be greatly appreciated.

a tribute to our dearest Year 7s

2009-03-06T05:19:00.000-08:00

THE day of A level results.

the Year 7s were the talk of the whole week as all eyes were fixed on their performance.

they werent only taking the exam for themselves,

but on their backs were also the burden of being the pioneer batch of DHP students!

it doesnt only concern only them but the WHOLE SCHOOL!

i can imagine, it couldnt have been a more traumatising experience.

the speculations came from not only the principal & teachers,

but also us juniors too!

especially because we would soon be following their path and that their performace would directy foreshadow ours ><

their results could well be a indictor for not only for our results,

but may be be used as a benchmark to access effectiveness of the DHP in comparision to other programs, and to a certain extent, even the whole idea of the integrated program.

see the underlying issue embroiled behind this table of statistics?

the issue: whether and to what extent has the DHP prepared the students well for the GCE A levels examination?

i'm going to be truthful as i say this,

despite all their good testimonals,

they didnt really live up to their expecatations.

or rather, my expectations of them.

perhaps it's just the fact that they are hand picked,

juniors like me expect a lot out of them?

being the guinea pigs to try the system,

they are to be required to do what other students in other JCs wouldn't need to be bothered with:

being role models of the generations of dunmanians who are going to follow their footsteps and at the same time maintaining high academic status for the reputation of dunman high comparable to the top JCs.

it was tough on them, but inevitable that they had to be subjected to high level of pressure to fulfill this double role,

but i must say they did a great job.

to me they were great seniors,

much better seniors than we ever would be.

i believed that their work ethics and graceiousness really impressed both teachers and juniors alike, and are great inspirations for me to aspire towards!

i do have a lot of respect for them, not to mention high expectations.

but i can understand that mainly it's cause we're expecting too much out of them.

BaoJia is god, but we cant expect all of them to be gods like her.

so prehaps what we were expecting was too much to ask for.

but all the same, here's a tribute to dearest Year 7s,

you guys have worked hard and have done dunman high proud.

just like what mr sng said,
we are proud of you not because of you produce good results,
but because you have displayed the courage and determination we want to see throughout the process of the journey.

and that's what makes a dunmanain different from the people from the other JCs.

i'm proud of our 德明宝贝s ((:

方炯鑌(阿鑌) 壞人MV

2009-03-01T08:22:00.001-08:00

it's much harder to be the bad guy sometimes.
especially when you have good intentions.
for that, i admire that guy's courage.

Green is the New Pink!

2009-02-28T07:22:00.000-08:00

there was once a legend,
that on the far-eastern side of the small urbanised kingdom of Singapura,
was a region secluded, and unexplored.
the forest of lush, beautiful greenery; was breath-taking but remained unknown to few.

a team of knights in shiny armour, riding their advanced vehicles,
stumbled upon the path and were so amazed with it,
that they later took on the challenge to emark on a journey to unreveal its hidden treasures and made it known to the world!

haha yup kudos to the organisers of Make Green the New Pink,

i've gotten my first brush the well-reknowned East Coast Park Connector (ECPN) !

nope we weren't trying to paint the lush greenery at ECP with coats of nippon pink paint or anything like that,

[though i would rather much like to see that happening! (: ]

but the Make Green the New Pink movement was nonetheless as revolutionary!

on the morning after Friday the 13th,

[yes it was THE morning of 14th Feb]

smelling all the lovey-dovey spirit in the air,

i was part of this bunch of crazy revolutionists that gathered at the Tampines Sun Plaza Park for the greatest revolution in Singapore history in an attempt to "Make Green the new Pink"!

armed with placards saying "Green is the new Pink!" and riding their portable transportation.

the avid cyclists clad in pale blue, were not a single bit different from their precedents in shiny silver armour!

TAKING THE ECPN BY STORM!

that was exactly what we did.

we went on the arduous journey of 28km fuelled only by pure leg power,

peddling to our hearts content (:

we started from tampines - pairs ris - loyang - changi - straight to ECP.

it felt great to be able to cycle with a group of seemingly strangers but yet are united with the same love for the two-wheeled transport!

however things weren't as good as i wanted them to be.

did i mention that i havent been cycling for a long long LONG time?

well, the truth is, i haven't any "cycling-on-the-road-&-steep-slopes" experience.

in fact i'm the sort who cant really control an over-sized bike >.<

so in actual fact i was screaming my lungs out whenever we reach steep slopes,

to the extent that to avoid being a danger to myself and others,

i decided that to stop being a road harzard and just push my bike down the multiple steep slopes.

hence, for most of the time,

i was struggling to push my oversized bike down those killer slopes. >.<

luckliy for me,

a white van came to the rescue!

haha yup it was the organisers who very nicely offered to pick me up and whisk me off to changi where there'll be flatter ground where i could cycle without causing harm to others!

and there was this Mr Photographer who offered to cycle with me all the way to the ending!

really glad they tried so hard to make sure i didnt injure myself.

i really appreciate the patience and concern,

THANKS LOTS!((:

Grace was waiting patiently for me at the ending point,

and when i finally made it i was greeted by smiling faces at the reception counter and a nicely packed lunch + goodie bag!

while enjoying the performances i was actually thinking:

" *phew* i'm so lucky to survive this without a scratch! "

i've always wanted to undertake a journey on bike around Singapore,

and i'm so glad Grace asked me to join her in this movement to Make Green the new Pink!

despite not being to complete all of the 28km,

i'm glad of this new experience as i've certainly learnt lots in this journey!

and i will definitely challenge myself by taking my biking skills onto greater heights by guardually training and conquering the whole of Singapore soon!

CLCYLIST SINGAPORE, HERE I COME!

let me show you my GREEN LEG POWER!

be prepared for the NEW PINK MOVEMENT! ((:

if suddenly your streets turned pink without a reason,

you'll know who's the author of the masterpiece

*wink*

GREEN IS THE NEW PINK!

i've joined the revolution,

have you?

梁靜茹 - 情歌MV

2009-02-25T06:57:00.001-08:00

淚水真的很難不滑下來

i'm a blessed individual (:

2009-02-25T04:42:00.000-08:00

today is just of the days where i feel super inspired to blog.

maybe it has something to with the heavens giving a sign!

despite weird weather these 2 days,

which i highly suspect has something to do with global warming,

we were just blessed with the opportunity to see the spectacular view of, not one, but TWO ultra big rainbows!

[ignoring the possibility that this super cool phenomenon might be a result of the all-too-familar changing weather patterns]

call it superstition, but i do believe double rainbows signifies double good fortune! ((:

i'm so glad we got to see this on our way home for guitar SYF sound test lor.

maybe it's a blessing from the heavens that we're really going to find gold, and maybe honours, at the end of the rainbows! ((:

turning lemons into lemonade is my forte.

and so is finding joy in the little things in life!

and this happens to be jus one of them.

i'm so sorry i cant really post nice photos of them up here cos i dont think photos can ever do the breath-taking scene any justice (:

another pleasant surprise would be 梁静茹's 情歌 MV

i actually cried while watching that.

no wonder they call her 情歌天后.

i love the lyrics of 別再為他流淚

shall remind myself to listen to her songs if i ever fall out of love.

they are really good remedies.

trust me.

i'm a good love consultant.

speaking of that.

i really think i learn a lot just by being a good listener.

talk about learning from other's experience,

i realised i have a lot to learn from the people around me.

and i have quite a lot to learn from my own too.

beling reflective doesnt work if you dont learn from your past mistakes.

i discovered that i keep making a blunder out of myself sometimes,

totally infuriating & irriating.

ARRGH.

i shall make sure this doesnt hapeen again.

NEVER EVER.

today was a stressful but productive day.

2009-02-06T04:19:00.000-08:00

haha the above statement is generally true for everything that happened today except computing and guitar.

let me explain this in detail:

my day started with a terrifying adventure.

going to school these days is really similar to going on a hiking trip in the think forest of the Amazon.

you carry your backpack, and get ready for war.

except that this time, instead of looking out for tigers & lions & other wild besats, we are supposed to keep an eye on the road for buses 158 & 12.

and instead of running away from them, we are supposed to chase after them with the speed like you would when running for dear life.

similar to the tigers & lions, they always come at a time when you least expect them, often catching you by surprise.

only this time, it felt more like a rude shock because right immediately after you realise that 158 is not going to stop at your bus stop, there comes a string of !@#$%^&*&^%$#@!! from the rest of the people waiting at the bus stop.

ARRGHH!

i hate this.

12 made me fly to school + step over wet soil yet again. (making it even more like a hiking expedition)

but on a brighter note, i wasn't late for school.

phew. i guess i really need to count my lucky stars.

but weighing the odds, how many times can i escape the crutches of the tiger?

i seriously wonder.

right after that was history.

SIGH.

history is the most stressful subject as of now. >.<

i seriously felt very useless and very stressed every lesson.

ARRGHH!

things cant go on like this anymore!

i need to acheive enlightenment soon!

computing after that was quite ><

we were supposed to complete the practical but we couldnt even get the IDE & JDK working ><

that explains why computing is stressful but totally NOT productive.

but i really hope that things are going to improve real soon!

we're going to attend extra lessons with mr gi and that'll save our completely CMI java programming!

YAY 我们有希望了！

after that was econs test.

ai yah that one dont need elaboration one lah.

after econs was GP timed assignment.

ARRGHH i cant write within time limit again!

but i think i sort of did a better planning than what i used to do.

in other words i was productive!

so that's already considered mark improvement for me le!

maybe some of the success can be attributed to Dora's Broader Perspectives. THANKS! (:

and wih that, came the end to my stressful part of the day.

after lunch with Suat,

was guitar all the way.

today's sectionals was quite productive i would say.

and the mini combined session too!

GOOD JOB EVERYONE!

SYF GWH, HERE WE COME!!!!

^_____________^

>.<

2009-02-03T06:56:00.000-08:00

ARRGH!

i feel really stressed out despite staying on top of my work.

it's the 1st time in senior high that i'm handing everything on time!

but i'm still feeling more stressed than ever.

sometimes things jus make me feel really useless.

ARRGH. cant stand myself.

seniorhigh 09

2009-01-19T06:04:00.000-08:00

in the midst of studying hard for my SAT - more like last minute chionging, but you get the picture.

and yup that explains why i havent been blogging as often as i would like to.

so this shall be an abridged version how what i feel about senior high so far.

orientation was interesting (:

the new batch of Bennu ppl especially.

& 5C32 (B6 + B7) ppl are jus plain crazy lah.

so being an OGL for them was a good experience (:

i'll be elaborating on it in my next post,

but here's a short thanks to everyone for being such fun people and for making the orientation a fun-filled one for me!

Year 6 life has started off really hectic.

i've been pushing off a lot of commitments that are coming my way and i expect that they'll be more.

oh well, i pretty much guess that it's going to be like dat for the whole year ahead so it's better if i could get used to it now i suppose.

oh but here's something random.

i discovered @ orienatation that,

there are a lot of SIMINs around sch!

in the Year 5 batch in particular!

there's like a 3 fold increase of people screaming SIMIN! and me responding to them lah.

here's an example.

i was at the toilet when someone shouted SIMIN! and 3 heads turned.

could you believe it, 3 simins at a single toilet leh!

how cool is that.

anyway JIAYOU SIMIN!

[ yes i mean all the SIMINs]

cause 2009 is going to be a real tough year ahead!

and i have absolute confidence that it's going to turn out REAL GOOD!

^____________^

i'm so LUCKY!!!　Ｘ１００

2009-01-09T08:57:00.000-08:00

OMG.
the scariest thing just happened can.

i was walking home from the bus-stop after watching Red Cliff 2 with the guitar peeps.
while crossing the road, there was this office lady in front of me.
then while waiting the traffic light i was looking around,
distracted by faraway cars and everything.
i remember seeing the light turn green,
but, ai yah, u know my reaction time most of the tiem a bit lag one mah.

the next time i knew right, was a loud *BANG*
the moment i turned righti saw her lying on the floor lah!

I TOTALLY SHOCKED TIO.
lucky there were adults nearby that came over to help.
and the driver offered to drive her to the hospital.

i was jus thinking, if it was just me and her, and if the driver jus hit & run,
then i wont really know what to do, maybe except call 999 >.<

i mean, she was just standing in front of me a moment ago!
she was only a mere 3 steps ahead of me lah!
if i had walked faster, or had my reaction time been as fast as hers, then i cant imagine what would have happened le.

but she was lucky it wasnt very serious lah.
my sis also kena once b4 at the exact same place.
that time she cut her toe & leg then it was super >.<

oh well, i really need to count my blessings!
for those of you who know that i'm a person who dont really know how to cross roads,
this really served as a life lesson.
i'll be more careful the next time i cross the roads le! ((:

Life's lemons

2009-01-05T20:35:00.000-08:00

it's the time of the year where we usher in yet another academic year.
as we suffer from pre-school reopening blues while trying to complete holiday assignments,
[ ok maybe that only applies to me. my hist essay! >.< ]
i havent had the time to really sit down and think about the past year.

however this article on TODAY really made me have the urge to do a bit of reflection on my own,
so here's a summerized version of what i have to say for the previous year.

2008 didnt really have a fairy tale ending.
and i dont think this only applies to me,
cause, well, at least i think the whole of the financial sector would likely agree with me?

looking back at my immediate surroundings,
i thought it sort of ended real badly.
dont really want to elaborate on that part,
but i would really have to remind myself to not take things for granted anymore.

Life, lately, has dealt us a whole orchard of lemons.
Although all these may seem unfortunate,
but it certainly isn't the time for us to stick out heads in the sand and pretend that this whole thing is a nightmare that's we're going to wake up from.

but then again, it takes lots of guts to face up to it lah.
i'm not sure if i can master up enough courage to do it >.<
i really applaud those who do though.
GOOD JOB~! ((:

in any case, for all we know,
all these may just be blessings in disguise!
what's more important is not about feeling depressed or brooding over the issue,
but rather, now that the situation is like that, what are we going to do to about it.

i believe that with enough determination and lots of can-do attitude,
we can turn every bad situation into something twice as good as before!

So, no way am i going to let all this misfortune dominate my life!
or the lives of those around me!
so i'm going to embark on this new mission on improving the lives of others bit by bit and maybe one day changing the world! HAHA! (:

ok i'm no super hero, and i dont think i can ever be one.
[even though i super admire those ppl, i seriously dont think i can be so self-sacrificial >.<]
thus, i really want to thank the individual super heroes who made a difference in my life!
i think you guys totally ROCK!
really appreciate the little things you guys did for me!
you might not know it but they do have great impact!
thanks for making me a better/happier person! (((:

anyway, i do believe that once we get out of the despair and found something to do about our predicament,
looking out for something positive isn't jus too difficult!
with just the can-do attitude, and A LOT of courage and determination,
咸鱼也能翻身变鲍鱼！

we'll jus have to start by turning all those lemons into something productive!

When life gives you lemons, MAKE LEMONADE!

i know next year's going to be real tough for all of us,
so i just want to let all of my friends know that i'll be there for you if you ever need a listening ear!
and i have no doubts that you guys are going to do the same for me when i need motivation right?
cause that's what friends are for! ((:

when the going gets tough, only the tough gets going!
i know you guys are all tough kids and sure can make it de!
so there's a present for all of you:

终结孤单!

约你你说不来
来了你又不high
大家开开心心出来玩
你却埋头吃饭

如果你的孤单
只是你的习惯
你就把你自己锁起来
实在是太不应该

心情好心情坏
怎么开始怎么办
你有的不爽让我来分担
everything gonna be alright
tomorrow will be fine
太阳依然灿烂地球继续转
有我的陪伴你再也不孤单
有我的陪伴一起终结孤单

卫冕者接受挑战
难免也会失败
人生像一场比赛
还是要保持乐观

请你把头抬起来
帮你把勇气装满
有我这样完美的朋友
high不high 当然很high

2009 & A levels, HERE WE COME!!

Today is MAYDAYYYYYYY!

2009-01-04T07:34:00.001-08:00

no it should be, everyday is MAYDAYYYY! ((:

really glad that i went for their outdoor concert!

in spite of the fact that it was a free concert,

they still sang their very best and it was much better than i ever expected it to be!

ashin was super on form despite of the dark shadow of going off key at the taiwan countdown and we're really proud of them!

it was a pity guanyou couldnt make it though.

nevertheless, it was a GREAT concert!

they even sang 夜访吸血鬼when my seniors and i didnt expect them to!

i'm so going to their Singapore concert on 29 Aug!

anyone wants to come with me? ((:

夜访吸血鬼！

满怀忧伤却流不出泪
极度的疲惫却不能入睡
只能够日日夜夜
然后又日日夜夜
无尽的日日夜夜
永远的深陷在人间

我是蝙蝠却不能飞
困在日复一日的街
无止尽的狩猎
彷佛一种天谴

夜色就是我的披肩
日出就是我的风险
舞池里的狂颠
是我宿命制约

上帝遗弃我们却又要给
黯淡的月照亮世界
要我们无尽又无情的繁衍
看爱过的人一一告别
做过的梦一一凋谢
只留下我独自残喘的千年

无法挥舞天使的纯洁
也无法拥有魔鬼的果决
只有像每个人类
贪嗔痴傻和愚昧
找寻着体温和血
找寻着同类

满怀忧伤却流不出泪
极度的疲惫却不能入睡
只能够日日夜夜
然后又日日夜夜
无尽的日日夜夜
永远的深陷在人间

饥饿是最好的调味
孤独是最强的催眠
疯狂找一双唇
能够当我酒杯

早就对这一切厌倦
也曾愤怒喝下圣水
却又无助醒在
下个漫长黑夜

青春遗忘我们却又要给
回忆的美就像玫瑰
要余生流血又流泪的受虐
看镜中的脸慢慢枯萎
高举的拳渐渐粉碎
只留下了无限唏嘘的相片

无法挥舞天使的纯洁
也无法拥有魔鬼的果决
只有像每个人类
贪嗔痴傻和愚昧
找寻着体温和血
找寻着同类

满怀忧伤却流不出泪
极度的疲惫却不能入睡
只能够日日夜夜
然后又日日夜夜
无尽的日日夜夜
永远的深陷在人间

无法挥舞天使的纯洁
也无法拥有魔鬼的果决
只有像每个人类
贪嗔痴傻和愚昧
找寻着体温和血
找寻着同类

满怀忧伤却流不出泪
极度的疲惫却不能入睡
只能够日日夜夜
然后又日日夜夜
无尽的日日夜夜
永远的深陷在人间

一个又一个孤单的千年
只能够日日夜夜
然后又日日夜夜
无尽的日日夜夜
我不能飞

today.

2008-12-22T08:22:00.000-08:00

went to sch for ISAC today.

but before i comment on ISAC i thought i'll spend some time to talk abt the TJR campus.

firstly, they have yello chairs. like BIRGHT YELLOW chairs. like those tt u'll likely find in nursary class. arrgh. cant stand it. strains my eyes u know. and strains my brain to even think abt it.

ok this a bit random but i thought it'll be good to share (:

u know we were at the TJR campus then someone said go to KFC to eat.

then we actually stoned for a while.

it really took everyone like 3 seconds to realise that we are not a Mt Senai anymore!

haha!

cos we were like expecting her to say Ghim Mo Market or smth.

cause like, Mt Senai got no fast food.

HAHA! okok random.

ok, moving on,

there hasn't been ISAC activitiy for a long time but i think it felt much better after that long break.

i guess the people really mattered.

i spend the better part of the afternoon talking to SwatYee & Wyane & Yifan @ KFC for the longest time.

i didnt realise it was so much fun to listen to their cycles of stories.

though i cant excactly say i'm close to them,

but it was cause the main characters were like the people we know,

and they were very willing to share and i felt comfortable jus laughing with their stories.

that's how it should be right?

i mean, it's casue they are nice people that i felt at ease with them.

and their effective communication which i felt i need with a lot of people but it somehow wasnt there.

i'm really glad i got to talk to them.

and i really think i should talk to them more.

i'm glad we're in press corps ((:

i'm so glad i'm in DHS actually.

cause like i just heard someone said "i hate DHS" then i thought back to my many talks with all the HighFive ppl from ohter tops schools.

the general feeling i get is that cause their school is big, they undeniably have more exposure but most of them dont actually like their school culture very much.

and so would i lah, if i had went there.

recently someone asked if i regret staying in DHS ( as in not transfering out ) and i thought about it.

truth is,

initially: yes. i really regretted it.

i was like missing out on so many opportunities and i would have made so many friends and all.

then i went so depressed that i even talked bad abt DHS fo a while until i grew immune to it and just stopped thinking about it.

and i havent thought abt it since.

until now, when someone asked if i regret making that choice to stay.

and my answer now would be no.

yes i do know i'm missing a lot of the JC life that the rest are speaking about, but i'm also freed from the complexities that come with it.

although i do agree that i could have made more friends if i've went on but why would i want to make more new friends when there could only be a few close ones?

i know some of us are still thinking about the opportunities that we missed,

but i seriously dont regret my decision.

although i cant say for the social circle that i could have widened but i could for the depth of ties that we've formed through the years.

i dont know what could have become of me if i really did transfer but i certainly would know what would happen to all the half formed friendship if i had left it just like that.

though the people remian the same but our ties get strengthened by the day.

bonds take time to grow and i really feel that i have more close friends now than i did in my junior high years.

i'd rather have close friends that i can really depend on in times of trouble then friends whom i could say hi on the corridor to.

well, that's just me i supposed.

and i realised after the talk @ KFC that DHS really still has more people that i havent met and nice people that i havent discoverd.

ok more reminence.

i was clearing out my Sec 1/2 stuff and i saw the old art pieces and i was like 0.o

sigh.

those were the days when we were made to do painting and all the stuff that i didnt like and in the end i was so bad at it.

lucky i took art in Year 3-4 if not i would have been stuck at the lousy image of art all my life.

ok finally, smth that totally pissed me off.

those tt know me will know that i hardly ever roll my eyes, or at least i try not to.

however, this made me roll it many times and it's because of 2 ppl that totally deserve coal from Santa this Xmas.

#@!!$&*^#\^(%*$#$@!^!!

i'm wondering why am i still nice so as to give her a Xmas card.

HUMPH.

ohh speaking of Xmas cards,

i'll pass it to u guys when i see u this week or if not i'll be mailing it be it'll take a long time cos there are many last-minute senders (like me) out there.

so sorry but it's better late than never right?

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE! (or rather, wad's left of it) ((:

busy busy week ahead

2008-12-21T06:30:00.000-08:00

tis' the season to be jolly,

falalalala-lalalala.

here's a big THANK YOU to all the nice ppl that sent me Xmas cards!

i really do appreciate them!

but pardon me of my laggness in replying!

cos as people rush to do their Xmas shopping,

i dont even hav time to finish my xmas cards yet! >.<

so sorry i'll pass it to u guys the next time i see you k?

sorry again if it takes super long cos my next wk is really quite packed >.<

went for Xmas gathering with the 38th dhs guides coy!

they went MINDS cafe and said it's quite fun, maybe i shld go there next time too! (:

joined them for dinner @ Aston's!

thought the food was quite good and it wasn't expensive too!

i think i should go there more next time!

oh but be sure to go early cos there might be a long long queue!

rarrh!

i realised that i dont have much time left to do homework!

and i've yet to start studying for my SATS!

OMG! >__________________<

Dear Santa,

i hope i've been a rather good girl this year!

here's my Xmas wishlist:

more TIME for my precious friends & family.

more SLEEP to replenish much needed energy.

more LUCK to overcome all the adversities.

more health to enjoy.

more things to be happy about.

more As for A levels!

^___________________^

i hope i havent been too greedy.

anyway, here's wishing all a

MERRY CHIRSTMAS

and a EVEN HAPPIER NEW YEAR!

camp vivant (:

2008-12-19T05:15:00.000-08:00

i thought vivant this year was a bit different, with the camp objectives and all, but nevertheless it was a good experience.

let's see.

at first i was rather reluctant to go for camp,

not because of anything but rather it would be taking up one whole week of my rapidly depleting time left to do homework.

but at the end of the day i'm glad i went,

mostly because it was a good chance for me to know my fellow highfivers better,

which i really need cause frankly it'll be harder for me to fit in if i keep missing highfive events.

this leads me to my next point, in which through the camp i realised some very important points i'll need to take note of.

firstly would be that i realised i dont really hit off nicely with a lot of people,

simply because not many are on the same frequency as me.

this makes it harder to make friends, so perhaps i should try adjusting my frequency a little and adapt myself more to the surrounding.

however at the same time,

it would mean i'll need to cherish my friends,

and to make extra effort to keep in touch with them as i few i'd rather have a few close friends than many not-close ones (:

secondly, i need to be consciencously aware of myself i think.

dont really want to give others a bad impression.

beef up on quantity and quality speech (:

to tie up the lose ends:

i really think the highfive are hilarious (and self-admitted bitchy)!

and the games were mostly fun (and disgusting)!

it was my 1st time sitting on a Maxis Cab!

the food was good (in comparsion with other camp food)! esp the day at Sentosa! (:

the loudging was GOOD! double-deck bed with aircon! (1st time i slept on the top deck)

subway&kfc breakfast was good!

so were all the junkfood & herbal tea + honey lemon!

i think late night debriefing sessions work.

well, that pretty much sums up the camp!. ((:

i dont think i'll have time to do a lot of highfive stuff in 2009,

so perhaps the next proj i can do will be vivant 09.

well, till then! ^____________^

recent dining experiences

2008-12-13T08:48:00.000-08:00

for those who know me will know that i'm a pig.

for those who dont, haha, now you do (:

okok pardon my poor opening statement,

but what i really wanted to say was that some of my recent dining experiences

really warrent some special mention.

the 1st:

after helping to shift all the stuff from the backstage to the (unexpectenly small) lorry,

i had supper @ Mac with Dora, YunTong & ShunJie + some other TS ppl that i dont exactly know.

i was abt to sit down & was strating to clear the trays

when i saw this auntie talking to Dora & YunTong.

well, she was lecturing us about clearing our own trays & clearing up after ourselves.

we were like: ok auntie we were jus abt to clear the trays.

but she jus went on and on.

we were like 0.o

cause basically she isnt even an employee of Mac.

but she's like,

going everywhere clear up after all the mac customers & lecturing poor ppl like us abt replacing our own tray after we finish.

we seriously think she's like more efficient than all the Mac staff put tgt lah!

it was just us thinking that way,

cos we overheard ppl at the other table talking about her too.

and there was this other Mac employee staring at her with wide open eyes.

cos with her around i dont think they'll hav any jobs to do lah.

haha maybe she's just some 洁癖 that has too much time and energy (in which she transfers to naggy power) on her hands.

2nd:

LiBing & i went to visit Peggy at SGH with the rest of the BSP 07 facils

she jus had an operation.

havent seen the rest for a very long time,

but most of them are still their old self lah.

all except PohTing i think.

she really changed a lot!

and the way she speaks remind me of someone,

but up till now i still cant figure out who's that.

anyway, we watched Peggy pick at her strands of noodles and then went to Kopitiam and had lunch ourselves.

then the rest decided to go somewhere to talk crap but i didnt tag along.

i figured my absence wouldnt make a difference to them cos we dont exactly clique lah.

but still, they are a bunch of ppl that i can get along with and hope will be able to keep in contact (:

3rd & the worst:

my dinner at Chinatown with my family.

ok firstly it was cos the auntie waitress was terrible.

she seemed to have a drop too much lah.

cant even remb whether that she already took orders from us.

and took her own sweet time to deliver up the plates (she brought 3 instead of 4 -.-)

then the ppl at the next table discovered that their steam fish is still a bit raw. (YUCKS)

the fact is, we ordered steam fish too.

and then it took ages to come. (1 whole hour to be exact)

till the point that we dont even feel like eating.

haha okok i shall ignore the above bad experience.

no worries it did not deminish my food-loving soul one bit!

i was just talking to Suat abt the guitar Xmas gathering and i'm like looking forward to it already.

haha YESH I'M A PIG.

old + new

2008-12-12T09:16:00.000-08:00

was surprised to receive an email from my old boss asking me to go back and help.

and so i did.

didnt lose my way as i thought i would have, (which is a good thing)

and i discovered i actually only need half an hour to get there! (:

haha met new ppl,

and marvelled at the way they do business.

what a lot i have to learn from them..

did the same boring but slack job and feel the sense of the familarity of 3 years ago when i was a mere Sec 2.

alas! how time flies!

the place was how i remb it was,

except that Boss renovated the place - looks more hip and presentable now.

but the back is like 0.o HORRIBLE.

i only have one word to describe it - MAN.

one houseful of man living in this house crammed with so many goods that they cant even call it home.

ok i was alr like that the last time i saw it,

but at least it didnt stink so badly cos there was Venus.

oh boy, how i miss her!

but i hear that she's doing good now so at least that's good news (:

and here's another piece of good news.

Boss has expanded his business by 3-folds in the last few years!

pro right?

i knew he had that in him lah (:

but that seriously made him a very busy man.

i wonder if he has time for his family?

or is his hands aways full with work from one of his many companies?

pleasant surprise to meet RuiXian on bus 14.

made my way to help out at TheatreSports 劲爆剧场大比拼!

omg omg it was such a good experience!

i went from having nothing to do,

to having lots of things to do and having to do them at a really fast speed.

but no worries i got my fair share of emancing myself in their performance,

along with Dora, who was ever excited and always jumping/screaming about. haha.

TS is about impromptu + daring + expressive + humour,

which i seriously dont have the talent for.

looks like i really need a lot of practice in that area!

but i must say,

watching them was certainly very good exposure.

i regret not taking pictures lah!

nvm nvm i shall go again next year ((:

and the clappers were really useful lah!

and the rest of the TS merchanise!

a pity we couldnt really give a lot of them out.

but oh well,

looks like i'm not the only one going in unsure of a lot of things.

unfortunately, the MC is too.

she only started practicing today lah. WTH.

anyway, watching them was really entertaining,

esp the seniors team, who strung tgt puns at 陈随便(HAHA!) & 恶毒后妈's fansination for Melamin-tainted milk products.

ohh and the best were the guest performers from Macau!

super enthusiatic and very humourous despite the difference in language and culture,

they really made me re-new my resoluntion to learn fluent Canto!

[yup ppl, try to talk to me in Canto k? i really need to expand my very limited Canto vocab (: ]

haha i was like thinking,

there's hope for DHS's 戏剧 le!

cos like, Hua Chong's 皇城 is alr so established,

so it's quite hard to match up to their current standard given our lack of manpower & experience.

however, i seriously think that TS is a good direction to go to capture some of the Chinese Drama market share!

though TS doesnt come with all the extensive backdrops and well-memorised scripts,

that is precisely the selling-point and the gem of the sport.

after watching this year's 皇城,

i can tell you that, coming for 劲爆剧场大比拼 is certainly more worth your while.

like Grace said, her $5 was super worth it for 3 solid hours of laughter.

not only that, it's cause everything is impromptu,

you can really see the real skill in the actors instead of the well-rehearsed script regurgitation.

& there's audience participantion!

so much better than 皇城 where u jus sit thru the whole performance whether you like the story or not.

i really think that it'll help boost DHS's reputation in the Drama arena.

there should be much more publicity!

皇城's only famous cause they have the history and the manpower lor.

but in fact they dont really have a lot of new ideas and standards have become stangant over the years?

but TS is different!

more and more people are getting exposed to TS and with them they bring in new ideas!

i believe that given more time the sport could blossom and bear the fruits for Mr Jacky Lee's labour!

WAY TO GO 劲爆剧场大比拼!

you guys alr have some loyal fans!

and in time to go,

show the 皇城 people who's boss. ((:

i love my SHINY FINGER!

2008-12-11T07:09:00.000-08:00

YAY i finally found time to do some real reading!

after i finish this i'm going to find other books written by Gregg Hurwitz & Nora Roberts (:

[ yup one's action & the other's romance - geners that i never read b4! ]

ohh and i jus got reminded of the Alex Rider series!

and the series of unfortunate events! - my last book alr leh!

ahhh! must readddddddddddd!

OHH and i got a SHINY FINGER!

cos this promotor polished it for me (:

she found the right target lor,

cos guitar ppl are obessed with nail care, or rather, kevin is.

but the difference is, i'm not as price insensitive as him,

so i didnt buy it as despite the generous 50% discount & buy 2 get 1 free promo,

the $45 is way out of my budget.

maybe we should use guitar fund to buy!

or anohter suggestion,

we could go for mass madicure!

HAHA (:

standard chartered marathon

2008-12-08T05:50:00.000-08:00

i kept mistaking the actual day to be Sun,

simply cause it's dated 7 Dec.

lucky mervyn reminded me it's supposed to be Sat night (;

anyway we went for a midnight movie at bugis!

because of my absolute objection to watching horror shows,

we watched BOLT!

thanks to the guys for being accomodating ((:

we meet the scouts in the cinema,

with us wearing black and thme wearing white

no it wasnt pre-arranged,

(i'm refering to both meeting them & wearing colour-combi shirts)

but it certainly made walking there more fun, with an overdose of replays from Bolt scenes - i found Nic's Super-Bark command re-invented SHUT UP particularly funny ((:

[and nope we didnt get lost despite the fact what it was past mid-night cause we were on my turf (: ]

and i would jus like to mention that Bolt's #1 fan RHINO is SUPER CUTE!

i especailly like that part when he mentions he eats danger for breakfast!

rhino! <33

when we reached there,

despite having to wave and shout (haha that part was only me i think)

it wasn't long before we found the rest!

ohh but i would like to mention: THEY KEEP BULLYIN ME! HUMPH.

we spent a long time queuing (a-hem) before we found our leader & made our way to Drink Station 2 on foot.

thought our group had generally nice ppl,

though DHS ppl consisted of half the grp. haha.

we spent a lot of our breakfast time entertaining ourselves as expected.

with them eating fishball fried mee and me eating my hotdog bun.

but they were saying some sick joke that almost got me choke on it. ><

we didnt take a long time to set up and get ready!

geraldine and i found out that pouring drinks is quite fun!

the whole thing was a bit like diner's dash!

a pity we dont really have a lot of runners running past us though.

it was only the 42km-ers and half-marathon 21km-ers and not the 10km-ers.

but still, it was a good experience!

and we were quite efficient at cleaning up the rubbish too!

the cups espeically! ((:

we were so efficient that we finished super early,

we even started walking back to the finishing point when they called half of us back to clear stuff off the road.

who knows that due to total bad organisation,

there was this loose end yet to be tied up and

we had to clear up the mess for them,

although in full knowledge that we're jus in fact making another mess for the movers to clear up.

and it didnt' help to have someone shouting all the AP comments while the rest of us were trying to live with whatever job that we had to do.

all the "EXCUSE ME!!!" & "EYE POWER"only added on to the fury in our hearts even though we were civil enough not to show it like you did.

yesh we know you are pissed with doing sai-kang,

but have you spared a thought for all of us who are just as pissed but are trying not to show it knowing that it'll only lower the morale of the rest?

shouting at others doesnt make the job easier you know.

though u might be unwilling to try out new ideas,

cant you at least try to be considerate?

we are only trying to think of a more efficient way.

ok fine if you dont want to listen to us.

but cant you at least listen to what your friend had to say?

working in a team makes will make things easier if you even stop headbutting sturbbonness to realise.

ARRGHH.

i've complained enough so i shall not rant about it futher here,

but all in all it just made me super pissed.

Period.

ohh but we met our seniors (TienLeng & YiWei) cheering ppl on at the finishing line,

so that sort of lightened my mood a bit (:

though i wouldnt count that as a super good experience,

it doesnt mean that i cannot learn smth from it.

i think i begin to see the need to shut up and just stick with it,

in the case of working by instrustions despite how stupid they might be.

and remaining silent in the face of someone as unreasonable,

no matter how much endurance that might need.

in a nutshell i learn to better deal with difficult situations and difficult people lah.

but that guy really need to have some patience in him.

i know this kind of volunteering if is different from the kind that i saw in Life Transformers,

[yup it's the 8pm every Mon Channel 8, but sadly it's the last episode today?]

but i seriously recommand him to go watch that series.

i think he really can learn a lesson or two there (:

despite the ups and downs,

generally it was a good experience lah,

but different from my 1st session with the Deep Heat ppl in 2006.

oh well, this was a whole new kind of experience i suppose,

learning how to deal with AP ppl and more.

it was certainly an experience worthwhile (:

busy week (:

2008-12-01T06:02:00.000-08:00

there's the end of a busy busy week.

and here's a short recount.

FRIDAY

guitar BBQ!

most of us went straight to Pasir Ris after practice in school.

however we took such a long time eating (i think becos of me)

and at NTUC (ended up buying 9 bottles of mineral water)

and waited super long for 403,

that we ended up even later than JingHuan who went home to deposit her alto guitar!

oh and then we went blading/cycling!

Suat & Kim tried to teach me to blade!

and i fell like, lots of times that even i lost count.

oh and Suat fell cause she tried to save me lor!

SO SORRY! >.<

and the BBQ was fun!

thanks 940 for all the food! ((:

but the Year 6s & Year 5s were still not really interacting much.

i was worried that XiaoYou & YiWei will get lost,

so we decided we'll go play in the playground then can suibian fetch them in (:

so the Year 5s went to play!

there were lots of kids there in the afternoon but at night it was mostly cleared (:

there was this circle pull-up bar thing, and this rotating plate thing,

and this obstacle course and this flying-fox thing..

haha it all made us super dizzy and super sandy and super felt like puking.

we all had a lot of fun!

but we didnt managed to finish playing the entire playground,

cause kim's phone and 940's ball went missing.

kim's phone was picked up by someone so that's easliy settled,

but we didnt hav such luck with the ball.

we spent super long trying to look for it but efforts were in vain.

sigh. think we better buy her a new ball le.

anyway guitar will be performing for Year 6s graduation!

we'll be the 1st group to perform at the DHS TJR campus!

so honoured right (:

SATURDAY

the embRACE funfair!

went collect the Remly Burgers before going to the funfair,

and sort of felt cheated cos there was no burgers nor egg.

had to prepare our own egg omlettle in the seed ro.om.

was listening to little nonya stories by Fredrick.

haha speaking of Fredick,

here's yet another Mr Helpful story. (:

one of us, WeeLeng i think,

wanted to go toilet then Fredick offered to bring her to the nearest toilet.

then the corridor was quite dark lah,

so she commented "wah so scary"

then Fredick was like, "want me to wait outside the toilet for you?"

omg lah!

he super gentleman right?

and he's quite a good brother too!

he specially got us to save a shirt for his brother,

who is super cute also!

and both of them kind of manned the ice-cream stall,

and kept asking ppl to eat the tubs of leftover ice-cream,

when the both of them where eating plain ice (the ice-kachang kind)

so nice right!

^______________^

haha but embRACE ended nicely.

and it turned out much better than expected!

even the funfair was ok lah,

though it was more of an internal affair more than anything and we ended up bringing home a lot of the things but we all enjoyed ourselves very much!

one kid even commented that "it's the best day of my life" while eating a whole cupful of ice-cream.

[ oh and we even managed to break even (: ]

and i think i really learnt a lot from embRACE.

from the traditional ethnic practices, to how to deal with kids,

making new friends, and improving relations with old ones,

and more importantly, working will people, organisational skills, and learning more about myself and realising my mistakes.

basically, embRACE rock!

it was certainly a super fullfilling and meaningful week.

and i'm going to miss Fredrick! ((:

SUNDAY

SV trip gathering!

went to play pool b4 helping the guys with the BBQ shopping.

seriously learnt the lesson of not buying just the cheapest of everything.

and after fetching the 2 lost sheep,

i seriously think i know Marine Parade a bit better now (:

it was nice catching up with the SV ppl (:

but i think future gatherings should avoid places that are too far to the East/West?

like this time the Boon Lay ppl took almost 2 hours to get to ECP >.<

haha i saw the 3 Boon Lay kids to City Hall MRT!

and Geraldine made them sms me when they got home,

which was super late lah!

i think we shld jus go for a simple steamboat session for smth for next gathering.

haha ((:

yupyup so that ended my busy busy week.

noticed that i havent been doing much work this week >.<

sigh after this performace going to start being hardworking agian!

plans for this week:

guitar performance @ TJR campus (which i hope isn't too ugly like that made it sound like)

meeting up with JiaYing for Math

dinner with Sharon

Standard Chartered Marathon! - which i hope to use to catch up with some ppl (:

+ maybe a midnight movie b4 that?

haha ((:

ARRGHH! i hate myself.

2008-11-29T19:22:00.000-08:00

omg.

people are angry with me.

and it's my fault. >.<

but i didnt mean it!

i was only trying to protect myself,

but i totally overlooked the fact that i'm doing that at the expense of others. >.<

i jus didnt realise that i'm like pushing the burden to others,

while trying to avoid trouble for myself.

ARRGHHH i didnt mean it lah!

i'm so sorry!

please forgive me!

i shall learn to find the balance between being selfless and every-man-for-himself.

oh and i found out that different ppl will have different will have different impressions of someone,

simply because one behaves differently in front of different ppl.

and i dont mean in the hyporcritical way,

but rather because people tend to feel more comfortable when with certain groups of ppl.

i think some ppl find me very serious,

esp when i dont talk when they are talking a lot.

but that's just cause i'm not that familar with you guys yet,

and likely dont have anything to say and that's why i keep quiet.

i just dont find it necessary to keep talking all the time lor.

eh but it's good to have someone talking most of the time,

if not it'll just be awkward silence which can be rather >.<

so if's i'm like alone with someone,

then i'll try to find common topics to talk about bah,

and will appreciate if the other person does the same too (:

but dont be pressurised to think of something to say bah.

sometimes a comfortable sclience is ok too (:

while some ppl found out that i can be rather childish.

eh but that's only in front of some ppl lor!

haha but i admit i can be rather childish lah.

but that's only cos i dont hide anything in front of u guys lor! ((:

i am an authentic person so i wont try to hide what i feel.

i cant help being abit attitude sometimes.

it's only a slight diff between having a attitude (with negative connotations)

and character (positive connotation).

so, be rest assued that when i'm pissed with you,

i'll make sure u know it (:

and i do believe in the power of praising oneself and others.

we dont need to be stingy with praises right? (:

oh but do remind me if i get too carried away!

^_______________^

a better tomorrow (:

2008-11-26T08:00:00.001-08:00

today is such a happy day! ((:

haha seriously much better than yesterday,

prog were going on smoothly, participants more responsive etc.

so glad that things are turning out well ((:

the best thing about today was during lunch!

where this super cute boy came over to help me with the cordial drinks.

i was having trouble with refilling the container with the Sasi concentrate + pouring concentrate into individual cups,

cos everyone was fighting for a drink and i only had a pair of hands.

then Fredrick, aka Mr Helpful,

came over and volunteered to help me with the refill!

[haha he's really super cute lah! he reminds me of XiaoYuan but cuter. haha (: ]

he offered to bring me to this faraway watercooler cos the watercooler at the canteen wasn't cold enough or smth.

then while we were making our way back right,

he even offered to help me carry the container water!

i was like, "it's ok, there'll be plenty of time for you to show ur gentlemanly skills"

then he was like, "no, i just like to help" and his smile was so sincere lah!

then i was so impressed!!

and he offered to help me mix the Sasi into the best proportion (yup! sweegeok + the rest praised it)

even though he havent even eaten his lunch when i alr eaten mine leh!

and he also helped with the PA system + the sch's computer log in system, etc..

he's jus super nice and always the one taking initiative *beams*

haha,

i'm jus so SUPER impressed with Mr Helpful!

^_______________^

okk speaking of pictures,

i brought my camera and took lots of pictures!

shall find time to post some up here later ((:

which some of it will go into illustrating how propaganda-ish NanHua is.

and speaking of NanHua kids,

most of them a quite racist >.<

not sure if it's the environment they are brought up in?

there's this clan of girls who are like, anti-guys.

and this cute little girl who looks super innocent,

but is actually SUPER VIOLENT!

totally 人不可貌相 man.

and there's this pair of jokers from a GEPer class.

they are like, very lively and everything lah,

but really VERY NOISY to the extent of them mostly 自high-ing by themselves lah.

u know what they did with the bag of twisties?

one of them throw the bits of twisties on the floor,

while the other picks them up and eats it.

super >.<>

and the kids from the madrasas are cute too!

and Safaras finds me familar?

haha they are jus super cute lah.

^______________________^

what a day.

2008-11-25T06:46:00.000-08:00

today was not a bad day.

considering that i can still function reasonably well despite the fact that i slept at 3am.

but seriously i have to admit i'm old.

it really takes up a lot of energy running after and entertaining P5 kids lah.

esp when they seem to have everlasting energy to run about.

random fact: NanHua Pri is super nice + super propaganda-ish.

let me take some picture edvience b4 telling u all why!

after we cleared up everything, we realised there were like,

one whole box of food left.

we seriously thought of each bringing 4 packets home lah!

[there were 7 of us so u can imagine how much food there was]

but luckily, we managed to find a group of construction workers sitting outside the pavement,

and we tried to give it to them.

at first they thought we were selling the food, so they refused.

then after they realised that we were giving it away for free,

they readily accepted the food and kept thanking us!

and we kept thanking them cos they helped us clear the food!

win-win situation ((:

OHHH but sleeping at 3am is still bad for health.

it seriously endangers you life lah,

or rather, mine.

for those who know me might know that i'm super bad at crossing roads.

then at the end of the day when we were going home,

i was super tired and almost run into this fast-turning bus lah!

OMG right??

it's SUPERY SCARY i tell u.

i cant imagine what will happen if we werent careful >.<

rant:

ARRGHH

cannot stand it when they dont LISTEN.

i mean, i cant say more out of respect for them,

i mean, we're only trying to make things going more smoothly and efficiently.

sigh. nvm.

do it u're way then.

since u're having the say anyway.

busy busy week.

2008-11-23T07:16:00.000-08:00

guitar intensive training ended with a game of cball,

in which the seniors played against the juniors and won.

which sort of reminded us of last year.

maybe it'll be like a guitar tradition? haha. (:

no doubt there was a lot of food (thanks to kevin),

and we all ended up memorising the 2 new songs and having hardened fingers.

GIT sure was mentally and physically draining,

but well at least we achieved what we wanted (:

i'll be looking forward to guitar bbq on fri ((:

oh well,

next is another busy week ahead.

embRACE will be having a carnival @ Nan Hua Pri (Clementi)

on 29 Nov so please do come and support if you have the time ok?

on a random note,

the channel 8 45th anniversary show kind of reminded me of how i used to just sit in front of the TV and watch it all day long.

i could vaugely remember the shows i watched when i was like jus 2 years old!

and i could sing the theme song for drama serials at that time when it was screening lor.

i was such a TV-addict (;

how i missed those days..

another funny day (:

2008-11-18T06:15:00.000-08:00

OMG XY & JH ARE SUPER FUNNY!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i really laughed like mad again today lor (:

funny incident #1 - JH's cow joke.

kevin was saying 对牛弹琴 - 你数牛的阿？

she was like - 有牛的meh?

then we were all like, 0.o

then we started laughing like mad!

haha! u must be there at tt time to hear it in the oringal typical JH verision to really get the joke!

JH never fails to make me laugh ((:

oh but she can be quite mean sometimes lor!

like how she said i was CMI playing LaPa ><

tt time time i was like !*%&%@!!$^@!

but now i realise she only said that because she needed someone to accompany her in this terrible playing cos she really couldnt make it very much.

yup i understand cos her part is really quite hard!

so i dont blame her.

JIAYOU JH! ((:

funny incident #2 - DJ's mossy-green bubble tea

they bought weird flavours of bubble tea on the way home.

but DJ's was the weirdest!

for one, it's green.

and it's not the normal kind of green-tea-green,

but really, MOSSY-green,

which not only looked bad, but also tasted bad.

worse, it made his teeth green!

and that's not the end of it.

SIMIN (: XY & JH ARE SUPER FUNNY! ((: said:

haha nvm de BUBBLE TEA will make u get 100 for grading tmr! ((:

SIMIN (: XY & JH ARE SUPER FUNNY! ((: said:

although it made ur teeth green,

SIMIN (: XY & JH ARE SUPER FUNNY! ((: said:

but it's worth it (:

[ DJ ] Stupid bubbletea. said:

lol it made me have diarrhoea

xiao you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger says:

hahaha i heard about ur diarrhoea

xiao you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger says:

did it make u slimmer?

[ DJ ] Stupid bubbletea. says:

lol better not

[ DJ ] Stupid bubbletea. says:

how come every1 noe so fast lol

xiao you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger says:

we will help to advertise for sweettalk

xiao you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger says:

new slimming method!

[ DJ ] Stupid bubbletea. says:

=.= lol

funny incident #3 - revenge of the BEARS!

they were talking abt concert stuff so XY + Suat + i were discussing joce's present

{yeah we still owe her >< }

when XY's bear kept interupting our convo by talking in this deep deep voice

and spinning around the guitar 100 times -.-

then while we were going home,

HS kept bullying the bear by making it wear 'pants'

which was actually the pringles bottle which is awfully dirty and made XY super pissed.

then she turn ard and the pringles bottle hit her ><

then HS made her bear fly to its death somehow.

poor bear. bullied by the evil HS.

and it was a double tragedy.

my star suddenly decided to become a shooting star too. :(

funny incident #4 - XY the silverfish!

the fouth, and final (haha PW) funny incident,

is also the funniest of all!

XY suddenly had this craving for donuts so i went with her to city hall to hav J.CO!

[my fav donut place (: ]

aft tt we went looking ard for joce's present

we then went into this nice shop called "Prints"

which sells the nice nice notebooks and we saw super a lot of BEARS!

we kept getting reminded of funny incident #3 and were convinced that the bears were out to seek revenge!

then we saw this nice place where we got to test out all the nice nice markers.

XY drew a lot of bears!

[i think XY should spamm HS with bears (: ]

she then somehow got hold of this silver marker.

then the funniest thing of the day happened..

maybe it was smth she said,

or maybe it was jus the look on her face.

haha it was jus ultra funny lah!

more funny than JH can!

but in public must control a bit.

it i was in school i'll be like rolling with laughter lah!

OMG i think guitar ppl are SUPER FUNNY!

i really cannot stop laughing sometimes lor (:

i think we influence each other lah.

or maybe funniness is contagious and we all just caught it from JH.

either way,

i'm sure there will be more laughter coming our way ((:

stunt-badminton! ((:

2008-11-17T05:13:00.000-08:00

HAHA!

the guitar ppl played badminton today!

though the racket sort of makes ur hand blue/black & the shuttlecocks were yellow,

(erm mine was anway)

we still had a lot of fun!

cant believe we could actually improvise badminton to make it more fun!

maybe it was the sport,

or maybe it was the people.

but either way,

watching stunt-badminton was ultra fun! ((:

we shld do that again sometime!

like friday!

or when it's not so slippery! - JX was sliding around when she was playing.

but dont make JH & I play!

i hope SamC & DJ get to win at least a match!

and i hope the rest can come up with some new stunts! esp SamC + HongSheng!

HAHA!

i really got very high expectations for friday!

*welfare i/c take note! (:

oh i forgot to mention,

i enjoyed watching JH play today!

haha she was super animated lor!

and was exhilarated to win her 1st ever badminton match!

although it was more of HongSheng VS the other team. haha (:

but still, JH wins the most supportive cheerleader award!
JH IS SO CUTE LAH ^_____________^

even oxy thinks so!

[ haha she's so cute to the extend tt i'm dedicating one whole para for her! *beams* ]

and so XY, JH, JX, Grace, HS, SamC, DJ, Suat, Kimba & me had a super fun time playing/watching badminton today & laughing till our stomach hurt (:

and special thanks to HS for the dvd (:

this saturday (:

2008-11-16T01:32:00.000-08:00

starting on a random note,

i came to realise the effectiveness of blogs as a mode of communication.

but oh well,

i'll have to say that some stuff on this blog is really meant for myself to read and understand,

while others are more mant for others to read and hopefully get the message.

but i'm sorry it sounds too harsh though.

what i can say is those were what i truely felt at the point of time when i typed it.

most of whatever has already subslided by the time you read it i think.

when ever i say smth,

i'll really mean it.

so when i say i'm not angry at you, means i'm really not.

and when i say i rest my case,

that's it, CASE CLOSED.

anyway,

went to miss seow's wedding yesterday with the 4e peeps!

erm the place is kind of ulu so we walked a long way there ><

well it was a nice and cosy church.

it was a good experience!

and miss seow placed us first in her list of students to take photos!

and she said she liked our present a lot cos it was what she wanted to get but her husband said it was too expensive.

haha yup it was really quite ex,

but since she like it i think it's worth it!

here's congrates to miss seow (or rather, mrs kong) for finding her Prince Charming and living Happily Ever After! ((:

“May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.”

grace says:

can write in christmas cards and send

grace says:

it's like balanced

grace says:

i always feel 'stay happy' isn't very realistic

that's true i guess.

i always thought Lyon's brand of happiness was abit fairy-tale like and a bit unattainable.

but oh well, it's cause it's unattainable that we would keep working towards it right?

[ sounds familar? towards a brighter tomorrow without AIDS! ((: ]

another random comment.

being a resonably resourceful and streetsmart person,

i realised i totally cannot stand those who are totally stuck in their old world and completely obilvious to prices (in this case, meaning that they really signal the highest price they are willing to pay without bothering to check for alternatives)

and i cant stand those who are overly idealistic and opitmistic over even the most impossible things, to the extent that they really ignore all the advice that i gave.

i really think they need to GROW UP,

(which is weird cos they are alr older than me, but apparently not more resourceful)

and sort of realise that things dont aways go according to how you want them to and we should aways think of a Plan B when that happens.

apart from giving them each a tight shake,

i dont know anything else can wake them from their wonderful dream.

i jus cant bear to do it.

though i seriously should.

ARRRGH.

HUMPH.

2008-11-14T01:49:00.000-08:00

i have a feeling things are starting to change.

suddenly it's not only us anymore.

and now there's lots more to worry about cos there's more stuff at stake.

it's like, no longer wad we are used to.

or rather, we cannot be like we we used to do.

seniority comes with responsibility.

that's only common sense right.

it's only right that to set an example for the rest to follow.

yeah i know we live in a democratic society and everything,

but there shld always be a line drawn and certain matters shld be jus kept to the ears of certain ppl.

not like we are talking abt some sensitive issue or anything,

but it's like,

do we really have to settle this thing so openly?

even like, even open conflict in front of juniors?

cant you jus keep this within our circle?!?!?!?!

like, at the very least, safe us some face in front of the juniors.

dont you think that some things are better not known to the juniors?

i'm not trying to disagree with you,

but come to think of it,

this issue is mostly our problem.

it's mainly under our adminstration,

we involve you is cos we respect you.

but why should you interfer with our decision?

i mean, rules are supposed to be set by only a small group of ppl.

the rest just need to follow them.

that's the logic. GET IT?

and YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE THE BAD GUY.

so why push the responsibility to me while you polish your golden halo?

ARRGHH i'm so pissed.

so now i'm the bad guy.

YOU HAPPY??

you cant take a happy-go-lucky stance forever if you want progress.

sometimes you jus hav to be FRIM.

i mean. not that i completely disagree with your viewpoint.

but the scenarios you gave where mainly isolated cases.

dont tell me you have to take ur dog to the vet every now and then?

then u dog must seriously need to stay in ICU.

ultimately the system is aimed at solving the problem right,

so i have no issue if wad we are trying now can acheive that aim.

since everyone is like, whatever,

so be it.

if that's what you want, and is the general consenus,

[and it's wad you want to show to the juniors]

then why shld i bother?

ARRGHH

sometimes i really wonder why i bother so much when the rest jus dont care.

i really dont understand why the top adminstration can be so slack,

when i'm the one tt's doing all the worrying.

WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO??

i'm doing it not because i like being the bad guy,

but rather, i do it because I CARE.

although i know you're doing this because you care about us, i reall do,

but whatever you do,

please keep in mind that this is not what we want the juniors to think about us.

so in other words,

KEEP ISSUES TO YOURSELF AND TRY NOT TO DEGRADE US IN FRONT OF JUNIORS.

and i'll appreciate that very much.

sorry if i sound rude,

but that's cause i thought it's better to be more frank upfront.

i know both u & i ultimately just want to solve the problem,

it's just that we dont argee with the approach.

but i understand where you are coming from.

however i think in order for progress we need CHANGE.

and since our intentions are all for the betterment of everyone,

so no hard feelings right? (:

backpack travel anyone? (:

2008-11-11T07:53:00.001-08:00

something random from grace tt put a smile on my face (:

http://www.27bslash6.com/overdue.html

today was the 1st offical Guitar Pract with the Year 4s!

erm it was kind of weird to have juniors around lah,

since guitar have always been a tightly knited bunuch of crazy year 5s. haha.

guess it's not so easy to get used to having juniors yet bah (:

and it's worse when they play better than you do! >.<

nvm there's still the

Guitar Welfare BBQ to look forward to! ((:

it's going to be our biggest one yet cos we're inviting the seniors and juniors!

we jus found the perfect person to be our welfare i/c - SUAT!

haha jus tt she'll force us to play cball at every opportunity i bet ((:

oh and there's this Xmas gift Xchange idea of hers.

YAY guitar this hols is going to be FUN despite the tough training..

oh and the Guides ppl broke camp today.

i jus got reminded of how we used to go to Camp Chirstine for ATC as campers..

and how we put so much effort into organising ATC for our juniors..

i wonder if they get the same feeling i did when i was a camper?

i really wonder if they take ATC as seriously as we did.

i wonder, and sure hope so.

Oh and this sat is Miss Seow's wedding!

it's nice to get the bunch of 4e ppl gathered together again (:

haha and i really think that 4e ppl are WEIRD!

like how we discussed buying air fragrance thingys tt cost $100+

and figures tt cos $200+

and ended up buying digital photo frames tt cost $199.

oh and i was thinking of going backpack travelling next hols!

like after As and everything we save $ and go budget travel ard the world!

and i saw this student travel guide to Lyon!

anyone insterested to come along jus tell me k?

the more the merrier! ((:

random events (:

2008-11-10T05:05:00.000-08:00

i received a random call from a dear friend on Sunday evening,

asking me to watch a tkd demostration which she didnt want to watch alone.

and i agreed mostly cos our other dear friend is performing.

well, i am so glad that i went!

cos it totally changed my perception of tkd.

first i didnt know there would be so many ppl there.

cause like, it's not a very widely publicised event or anything.

but i was surprised the whole sports hall was FULL!

at the start there was this pro kid who shouted commands.

he's like 5 years old, and so cute lah! ((:

next was this other 5 year old!

he came out with this older group which jus made him look cuter!

and he didnt managed to break the board at the first 2 tries but the crowd cheered for him and he mangaged on his 3rd try! SO SUPER CUTE!

and this this 5 year old girl bashing up the bad guy!

she jump on him lor!

SO CUTE! ^_______________^

and there were some special performance with dance steps and skipping ropes too!

oh and there were the koreans,

cos they were the national team who performed at the omylpics and paralympics mah,

so they were real good.

they can kick really HIGH!

then like, jump and step on some other ppl to kick higher!

and they kick apples!

jus very cool lah.

no wonder so many ppl + VIP turned up..

THANKS FOR THAT RANDOM CALL TO INVITE ME THERE! ((:

despite the rain,

i went to sch today for publications meeting!

and i stayed back to study!

cos it was super warm at home so i decided to study in sch.

who knows it'll rain so heavily HUMPH.

i was quite proud of myself for mangaging to do some work!

but i think i can be more productive bah.

nvm going back sch to study again!

this time with like, lots of ppl.

i hope i can be MORE PRODUCTIVE! ((:

OHH the last random thing,

while i was studying in sch,

Xin Zhi suddenly came over and said,

"WISH ME LUCK"

i was a bit stunned, but quickly shook his hand and said "GOOD LUCK & JIAYOU!"

so here's my sincere well-wishes to all my dearest seniors

ALL THE BEST FOR THEIR A LEVELS!

u guys are really the best seniors and i will miss you guys lots!

^_____________________^

1st of my holidays (:

2008-11-04T08:02:00.000-08:00

wheeeee~!

holidays (sort of) offically started!

haha ok lah there wasnt much of a holiday to speak of,

and i sort of slacked a bit today,

but at least i attempted to make full use of my holidays right from the beginning!

[ i didnt procrastinate as much as i used to lor, that's already an improvement (: ]

quite proud of myself for doing so many things today.

but tomorrow shall be BETTER!

i shall move on to greater achievements.

JIAYOU SIMIN! ((:

haha dunno why but OP really seems abit distant from me now,

but anyway, here's wishing all GOOD LUCK FOR HCL O LVL & OP TMR! ((:

post-PW thoughts (:

2008-11-03T06:27:00.000-08:00

WOOHOO!

[ apart from the filing of GPF, which isn't that much of a big issue ]

the handling up of our I&R sort of marked the end of PW!

haha was @ Firefly, St James Power Station.

and the day consisted of waiting, target of random photo-taking, cool lightings, pledging for organ donations and mostly GOOD FOOD! :P

caught up with the SV ppl,

whose never ending energy (and liking for High School Musical) sort of reminded me of how old i am.

but still, they are a fun bunch of ppl i've to admit (:

think there might be another SV gathering? haha.

with PW coming to an end,

it's only now that i feel the peace of not having to hand up overdued homework,

which finally gives me a chance to catch my breath.

but mind you,

it's only catching my breath.

the moment of peace was immediately broken when my mum called for me to clear my room.

and that was the moment that reality sank in.

stop dreaming man,

there's like a lot more work to be done.

a sneak peek at my to-do list reviews the laundary list of errands to run and the never-ending tasks that i promised to do but not yet done.

oh well,

there's senior high life for me.

i shld have gotten used to it by now.

time to stop procrastinating

[ as recommended by Lyon's book "Why Procrastinate?" ]

and start getting rid of the stuff that was ought to be completed long ago.

and yup that includes revising all the topics that i ought to have studied for promos but failed to do so.

and yup xiaoyou that includes maths!

anytime u free call me k? then we go study tgt!

THANKS ((:

choices.

2008-11-01T07:42:00.000-07:00

this post shall be about choices.

as for which choices in particular,
it's about those choices which i made and regreted.

but now,
after thinking back, i realised that i dont regret making that decision after all!

haha i dont know lah,
but at a certain point i was seriously regretting certain decisions i've made.
like i was totally blaming myself for not being able to embrace changes to my life which i think would have been good for me.
but i learnt to live with it, and forgot abt it after a while,
but now it suddenly jus all comes back and i'm really proud of myself for making that choice!

i realise i'm really quite comfortable with life now.
as in, it may not be the BEST way to live lah.
but at least i'm ok with life now,
cos no doubt it's very stressful and everything,
but i think i can deal with it cos there's like ppl around me to motivate me and give encouragment when i need it!

on a related note,
i seriously think senior high life as compared to junior high,
despite the hectic schedule and everything,
is more fulfilling as i feel a greater sense of achievement.

that is largely cos of my group of my friends i think!
i totally can feel the bond in friendship in times of need,
and tt feeling is definitely more than in my junior high years.
thanks for being ever-supportive, lending a listening ear and offering help when i need it!
i think you guys are the people who really made the difference.
and confirmed my decision was a right one (:

also, maybe it's cos i have more control my acdemic life now?
but then again,
it boils down to making the right choices.

and i'm faced with another dilemma now.
whether to drop econs or math to h1.
and i've decided to give myself this hol to give both subj a chance and see how i'll fare.

so i made up my mind to study this hols le.

and i hope i have the determination live up to that promise.

yupp i'll be going over to esther's house quite often this hols!
and there's the math study session with mx & hs. (:

i cant believe i need to start doing this so fast after OP,

but oh well i think it's a good decision.

it'll help me make a better choice next year bah.

and yesh i'm going to be super hardworking this hols!
you'll see (:

today is THE day.

2008-10-31T08:23:00.000-07:00

OP!
arrghh!
the day we have slogged so hard all year for!

and it's over!

like sieuping puts it,
a journey so long yet surprisingly enjoyable.
i couldnt' agree more man.

no doubt PW has its fair share of irritations,
it has came with quite a few pleasant takeaways too.

like how our group, DH004 is comprised of random ppl put tgt,
a bit awkward at first,
but after working tgt for like, almost one whole year for our WR followed by OP,
we have sort of gotten used to each other's company,
and like have become quite bonded tgt!

to my dearest fellow XterminAID-ers:
i really enjoyed working with you guys for our super cool project!
and i totally think we are a bunch of super enthu ppl that are really passionate about what we do!
guess it's fate we are in the same group!
and it is my pleasure to be be in the same group as u guys,
who have brought lots of joy and laughter to our mundane PW life!
i can think of some of the stupid things we do and smile sometimes (:
and GOOD JOB PPL!
i think we really brought a smile to the teacher's faces with our super cool XterminAIDS workout! ((:

a pity my Q&A had to be bad though. :(
but no worries i've gotten over it with lots of Mayday theraphy!
and to all the enthu ppl in 5C12: WELL DONE!
you guys have made me enjoy (a certain aspect of) PW! ((:

五月天真的回来了

2008-10-29T08:01:00.000-07:00

i totally dont know now to say this but MAYDAY REALLY ROCKS.
think this ablum is an apt illustration of my point and it certainly reaffirmed my love for mayday songs (:

i feel that this article kind of summerises what i want to say so i shall not do the talking.
also, no words can do justice to that incredible feeling i get from listening to their songs.
you totally need to feel it for yourself mann.

i'm so super happy i finally got my copy of their newest ablum 《后青春期的诗》!
i think it's better than the previous one.
i cant really say why, but it jus feels, more close to heart.
like, less of the glamour that makes everything feels very packaged.
this ablum is just totoally emotions.
not big themes like in 《为爱而生》, but jus pure emotions that reaches out to your deepest feelings underneath everything else.

and i daresay ashin's lyrics writing skills has improved quite a fair bit.
every song is so carefully written then i can only marvel at the use of language!
haha yup u need to equip yourself with the lyrics booklet when u listen to each of their songs in detail!
i super love 《夜访吸血鬼》
i never knew so much about vampires could be written into jus one song (:

also, i think Monster's acting skills has improved!
he was so good in the MV of 《你不是真正的快乐》
go watch k?
it's a bit emo though. the whole ablum is.
cos their aim was to appeal to your deepest senses mah.
but no worries, there are your fair share of happy songs too!
but they didnt include the motivating 《开天窗》

i seriously urge you guys to go buy a Mayday CD each.
besides the fact that their songs are seriously good and that the lyrics will catch you in awe,
Mayday is kind enough to include a concert tic with every CD purchase!
so buy the CD and i can go with you to watch Mayday live!
wad better deal than that right (:

haha.
in conclusion, mayday rocks.
dont ask me why, you got to feel it yourself.
but let me tell you, they just rock.

“有梦想就要努力，但努力不一定代表成功。
其实努力的过程就是成功，因为你不去服从那胆小懦弱的自己。
所以我们不歌颂成功，我们歌颂过程。”
- 五月天摇滚精神

busy studying holiday

2008-10-24T05:16:00.000-07:00

wah jus when i thought i had enough things to do for the holidays,

there comes more.

and i shall not elaborate on the long list.

well, the release of results today sort of reminded me that i really need to study this hols.

i mean, not that it's unexpeceted lah, since i alr made tt decision long ago.

it jus means more as strengthening my already-made-up mind,

cos i think i really need a lot of self-discipline and self-determination to make sure i improve.

oh and i'm happy to hear that the school is going to do the mock SAT for us in Jan!

cos i've been meaning to sign up for it.

haha yup yes it's cos it'll place me in a better position to get into SMU.

erm yeah another reason is my current results cant really get me anyway near there,

so even if i need to spend $120,

at least it'll buy me some hope.

as well as serve as a drive to motivate to study hard during the hols i suppose.

but still, i'll need additional studying motivations!

thanks to Esther, GerGer & TongTong who offered to study tgt with me!

i think i'll going to spend quite some time @ Esther's house this hol to study math, computing, etc (:

still, if anyone of u are interested, feel free to ask me out to study during the hols!

here's thanking you all in advance ((:

oh and did i mention,

i was super proud of myself for staying up till 2am to finish my I&R 1st draft!

*claps!*

haha but i sort of did badly at OP trial this afternoon :(

anyway OP preparations are getting more intense!

now really need to focus on the delivery le! >.<

and Q&A!

JIAYOU PPL!

special note to going out to all those who need it:

totally understand the feeling of how one can spend lots of time studying but still end up with lousy results.

i then realised it's the wrong method to studying.

studying hard does not get you the grade,

only studying SMART does.

and you have to been on your tip-top condition during exams,

and be exam-friendly. knows what the exams want and deliver just that.

the key is just to practice bah i think.

and that's exactly what i'm going to do.

so if u just need a person to study with, can ask me ok?

although i dont really think that i'll be able to teach you stuff,

but at the very least i can promise my company.

remember DONT GIVE UP HOPE!

it's not the end of the world you know.

doomsday only comes when you give up trying.

and by trying i dont mean jus a feeble attempt!

i mean, take this seriously and really slog it all out and give it your bestest best effort!

then u can tell yourself that you're have done your best and this is going to be the real result i'm going to get when i put in all my effort.

i'm sure like, this promo thing is jus a mere grade in this piece of paper right.

who's going to remember your promo grade after these few months lah.

this is not the end of the journey, A Levels is!

dont give up trying when u are only halfway there.

this lousy grade is only temporary and it's cause of some stupid mistakes made!

promise yourself that it's not going to be how ur A level grade will turn out and work hard and study smart to acheiving it can le!

the above was meant to encourage ppl but

i think it's more for myself than anyone else. haha.

i really need some motivation!

best way of motivation is to study with me! ((:

anyone keen?

everyday is mayday! and PWday.

2008-10-23T04:34:00.000-07:00

PW is really draining me out.

and today's econs lecture was ...

but i jus think mr lee went overboard by saying all that lah.

so i'm taking a break and listening to Mayday's new 7th ablum! ((:

haha i'm so going to buy the ablum and going to their mini concert!

[ yupyup there is a free ticket with every purchase of their 《后青春期的诗》! ]

mayday rocks!

u guys shld go buy their ablum and go to the concert with me! (:

and i think PW really make our grp bond lor.

that's like, one of the (only) things we take away from doing PW for one whole year.

cos previously, we were all quite random ppl put into a group,

then it's after these WR sessions and everything that kind of all turned into bonding sessions. (:

oh and there's another takeaway!

the facebook thing really kind of make us famous overnight!

SUPER COOL RIGHT. wish we had done this before our WR.

nevertheless, it's still cool!

and u can join us at http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=30142138418 to be part of teh movement!

haha okk. i still cant get over the fact that the HPB Youth Division actually contacted us. ((:

i seriously hope it'll all go well for OP! *cross-fingers*

take care of ur health ppl!

we must be in our tip-top condition!

DHS004 is SO GOING TO OWN THIS MANN!

exam-friendliness needed

2008-10-20T07:55:00.001-07:00

was reading xiaoyou's blog and reminded me of another sound advice:

not study hard,

but rather, study SMART.

ARRGH.

that's exactly something that i havent been doing lah.

i mean it's only after the promos where i realised that i could have spent time more efficiently and spend more time FOCUSED on the tested topics rather than aimlessly trying to make sense of the whole thing.

it's like,

I KNOW DE LOR! and i planned to do it.

but it's jus that, eventually i jus didnt do it.

RRRRRRRRRRRRR.

totally just feel like giving myself a tight slap.

i need to wake up,

and seriously start being more exam-friendly.

time to be selfish

2008-10-19T07:15:00.000-07:00

sound advice from a good friend:

sometimes we need to be more selfish.

cause ultimately you can't blame anyone for your grades right?

sighz.

i guess that's true lah.

that's the reason i have been kind of 'wasting' my whole of 2008, doing unproductive and unappreciated stuff for the good of society :(

ARRGHH.

really need to set my priorities correctly.

shall learn to say NO to sai kang >.<

u know how econs we talk abt maximising society welfare?

i'm like doing just that lor.

operating at AC pricing instead of my profit maximising condition.

and it's not even subsidised by any form of government can.

well, this cant continue.

if not the firm will really need to shut down soon.

i shall try not think about achieving allocative efficiency when i know it's not possible to acheive the best possible resource allocation outcome.

it's not use making all the compromises when you know that not everyone is doing the same for you.

cant care about society welfare all the time le.

really need to start using rational decision making to make decisions based on my own private interests.

does that mean that i haven't been making rational decisions all these while?

0.o

i HATE regrets.

2008-10-18T03:20:00.000-07:00

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why do i always have regrets for the things i did / didnt do????

ARRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHH.

ignore me. i'm jus feeling very disappointed in myself.

on a brighter note,

i'm rather pround of myself for being able to stay up for one whole night to do PW.

though LDMR sort of set in at 3am,

but i think it's the first time i really did stay up for one entire night.

haha good job ppl!

we chiong-ed out the WR eventually!

and i have faith that we'll do even better in our OP! (((:

Friday (:

2008-10-10T08:54:00.000-07:00

meant to blog abt lots of stuff.

but then i was sick.

by now i've forgotten nearly everything i wanted to say le :(

nevertheless i shall try to recall the bits and pieces ((:

biennale was WOW!

i mean, even though the facilitation could have been better lah.

oh and except tt the weather was SUPER ULTRA HOT.

so much so tt i ran out of water and ended up sick the next day. >.<

anyway i thought the exhibits were real COOL.

i shall not try to do any discripiton here cos i think it wouldnt do the art pieces any justice.

oh and we had a mini class outing after tt,

lunch was @ subway/BK

LiBing, Dora, Keith & I went to watch Eagle Eye after lots of discussions and accomodations.

but it turned out to be a pretty good choice!

[if not we would have killed Keith.]

haha i mean Eagle Eye could be a super good GP show to analyse.

it made us realise how technology could be exploited to serve the needs of the powerful.

we spent hours after tt talking abt how it reflects reality and how we are subjugated by the dominance of Google.

and yupyup ignorance is definitely blissed.

it hurts to know that you are being watched,

especially when you realise you cant do anything abt it.

we continue to play into the hands of the powerful, for the sake of convience we are willing to compromise our privacy.

well, we have no choice anyway.

so much so about changing the world.

all the same, i love analysing shows!

it reminded me of the time the 4e peeps spent 4 hours on Batman ((:

anymore good shows lately?

Burn After Reading?

haha shall stop here cos i'm not supposed to tell you how good/bad it was.

all i have to say is,

JinHui & Jason must hav regreted tt they didnt catch the movie with us.

and they missed out on Pizza Hut dinner too!

HAHA.

OH but after tt i had one of my tearing incidents again.

but this time was like much worse than usual.

i think i really must have scared the 3 of them cos i really looked like i'm crying?

ARRGHH. must be weather again.

oh i still have Pizza Hut coupons till 25 Nov.

anyone want to go eat anytime soon can call me along ((:

post-promo wake-up call.

2008-10-09T04:50:00.000-07:00

haha with a reminder for xiaoyou,

i have shall start my first post-promo entry.

yupp promos are over.

but somehow i dont feel very much different.

i wonder why.

perhaps it's the thought of the pile of work wating for me to complete that puts me off.

is it the PW WR + OP?

or maybe it's the messy room i promised to clean?

whatever it is,

i jus dont feel like doing them all.

at least not now.

well, or it could be the thought of having to study for all my re-tests.

yeah, RE-exaiminations.

i did badly and i knew it.

i mean, i didnt even have time to finish the paper?!

i have no one to blame but myself.

SIGHZ.

oh well,

i shall jus put it at the back of my mind for now.

at least let my clear my mind for these couple of days.

it's like,

i already wasted most of my Year 5,

what's with a few more days?

i dont know what i've been doing for the whole of this year,

but be rest assured that i'll do whatever it takes to regain my balance.

i shall be spending my dec hols picking up the pieces and finish whatever i'm supposed to have done long ago.

thanks to all those who care abt me:

no worries,

after tt few days of self-reflection,

i'll pick myself up.

i promise.

BUCK UP SIMIN.

YOU HAVE A LOT OF CATCHING UP TO DO.

taking a break from studying..

2008-09-26T08:19:00.000-07:00

finally handed up my eom!

OMG lah most of my study break have been decidated to writing this piece of thingy tt i dont really have time for other stuff! >.<

really relieved to get it off my workload though.

now gearing into study-mode!

the staying-in-school-to-study sessions really help!

many thanks to all my saviours who took percious studying time off to teach me math!

i love you all! *MUACKZ!*

bad weather again today.

thank goodness for study leave!

if not i'll become some 落汤鸡 again.

why must it always be rainning at 7.30am?

can they rain at 5.30am or smth?!?!

and,

F1 is REALLY SUPER NOISY!

i mean it's nice to watch on tv lah,

but the prob is,

I CAN BARELY HEAR THE TV!
and u know wad?
the newspapers published tt my block of flats de top floor is the no.1 place to watch free F1.
dont need to be an economist also can predict tt there' be a big crowd coming to camp on the corridoor tmr.

talk about negative externalities...

okk shall keep this short.

nightz! ((:

TongTong & GerGer ROCK!

2008-09-19T08:22:00.000-07:00

WAH.
i cant believe i actually can study for 9 hours straight!
so proud of myself! ^__________^

haha of cos i cant do it alone!
so i have to thank TongTong & GerGer for studying with me!
TongTong for missing her bus & GerGer for treating us wanton!
and both of them for teaching me CSC!
YOU GUYS ROCK!!! ((:

went home with both of them and Mervyn at 9pm!
haha no we are not the craziest ones!
still got ppl staying until 10pm!

haha i really think that it's an effective way of making myself study lor!
cos i go home sure get distracted by the TV/computer/bed de!
all or jus spend all my time stoning!

so i think this method works for me!
though it's abit late to only realise it now?
haha, but it's better now than never!

i shall do tt next year too!
and get GerGer & TongTong to study with me again if they are willing!
cos i think i can study efficiently with them leh! (:
yup, more effective then if i study with some other ppl!
cos it's like, i'm quite productive and at the same time dont really feel stressed!
and we can talk abt hist + CSC tgt at the same time!
oh! and we shall try to get esther to study with us too!
in case she go home and start watching TMNT. haha!

OHHHH.
but still, there's still smth else i need to complain abt.
and that is HOW MUCH I HATE THE RAIN & BUS 92.

ARRGHH.
yes it happened again.
and this time, it's WORSE.

when i walked out of the mrt, it was fine.
but wheni reached the carpark,
it started raining SUPER HEAVILY.
so i took out my umbrella.

but who knows the wind was so strong tt i blew my umbrella from side to side!
by the time i reach the shelter i was completely drenched!!!!

then i saw LiHui & ChingSiang there.
the rain was SO SUPER HEAVY that we had to wait for the cats and dogs to finish dropping.
we didnt take 92 cos we scared we late.
but later the rain dont stop then we also late how?

however, the lateness thing didnt bother us much.
cos aft 5 min, the rain stopped.

yeah it jus STOPPED!!!
it's like, i barely lasted 5 min!
i could have totally not kena the rain if i took the later train lah!
then i dont hav to wear wet shoes for one whole day!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

it was super uncomfortable can!
and it stinks!
and to think i stayed in sch till 9pm!
wah siao.
i jus totally hate the rain and bus 92.

rants & mooncakes

2008-09-18T09:27:00.000-07:00

haha i bet anyone could tell that this is going to be a random post by the title!
yup, it was inspired by the mooncakes tt i ate, esp those with the egg yokes!
haha i'm a PIG! [and proud of it (: ]

hmmm.. spent the mid-autumn fest celebration accompanying old folks from ghim moh blk 3 with Lyon, Dora, Jasmine and AiYi.
thought the celebration was a good attempt lah,
though i wasn't there at LT1 watching the various competitions,
i could tell that it was rather entertaining!
Congrats to 5C12's representatives for winning!
good job CheeGuan & JinHui!

now for some complaining. *deep breath*
92 bus make me late for sch!!! #*(#&@($!^!@(&*
ARRGHH. super pissed lor!
cos raining mah, so thought i'll take bus.
in then we waited like, half an hour for it?!?!?!
WTH lah.
the whole bus of students were later than those who took the later trains and walked.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

but there was this incident which sort of offset my frustration a bit.
cos the Year 6s were having exams in the hall,
so Year 5s cant go to the hall for flag raising.
thus, there was this lost soul in the canteen.

i was like, "eh, Esther you also late for sch ar?"
"no i jus dont know where is flag raising"

then i LAUGH LIKE MAD.
i mean REALLY LAUGH LIKE MADDDDD!!
hongsheng & chingsiang who walked past thought i was mad lah!
but it was really funny!
i mean, u hav to know esther to know that it's really funny!
it's not hard to imagine esther carrying her file walking in the canteen like a lost sheep! ((:

random comment:
yup impressions do count. *wink*

oh, and did i mention,
though most of the stuff i wrote is always totally random
cos i always write with the intention of self-reminder/reenforcement,
i realised some ppl really do read them aft all!
it's so cool to realise there are ppl who care abt me very much!
THANKS FOR BEING SO CONCERNED!
I <3 YOU GUYS! ((:

also, I FOUND A SAVIOUR!
OMG LAH, I THINK YOU ROCK!
your altruistic characteristic is really a rare gem nowadays.

and that is the quality i admire a lot.
i mean, i totally admire them because i know that i can never be totally altruistic!
and that's because as time goes,
you get to know more about the sad reality, s
o much so that i think i sort of lost touch with the ideals i used to have.

therefore, i need to say a big THANK YOU thank you not only for helping me with homework,
but also for the reminder that pure-goodness exist in this world aft all.

and since i could never be truly altruistic,
the least i could do is to be their protector,
to ensure that this novel quality is not taken advantage of.

i dont know if it's for the better or for worse,
but i think i changed.
ok, maybe not in terms of height, (DUH)
but it's like, i really think what i say/do is quite different lor.

argghh.
i'm doing things w/o thinking
(ok tt's what extroverts do but i'm an introvert too!)
of cos sometimes tt's the good quality of the Es,
but at other times i'm hurting ppl when i'm saying/doing smth,
but only realising it much later?
then i'll feel totally bad and regret wad i said/do.
but it's like, what's done is done right?
then i'm like hurting my friends unknowingly. A

RRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHH
it's ok if it's ppl i dont really know.
even if they hate me, i'm ok with it cos you cant expect everyone to like you right?
but it's not ok if these ppl are my friends.
other ppl can hate me for all i care but not my friends,
those that i value and cherish dearly.
so, here's my sincere apologies if i ever did anything that i shouldnt have done.
i totally hate myself for being so careless :(
you can trust that they were all a slip of tongue and that it wouldnt' happen again.
again, I'M SORRY. >.<
dont hate me ok?

speaking of regrets i do have alot.
as a Feeling person i tend to judge a lot.
but not all the time it's accurate.
so again, sorry for any misunderstandings!
oh and i regret not studying for my Promos earlier! (or, MoMos! HAHA )
but be rest assured i'll be working hard for my MIRACLE!
i realised tt staying back in school till late to study is a good strategy lor!
thanks to GerGer & tongtong for accompanying me and teaching me maths! (((:

and i enjoy walking to the MRT with GerGer late at night too!
esp the night sky on monday - the moon was SUPER BIG AND BRIGHT!
it was totally cool lor that!
it's a pity we didnt have a camera with us!
cos a phone camera wont do it justice! ((:

haha but being a bit more extroverted at times is good too!
ohh but i realise i'm bolder when i'm with close friends [DUH. haha ]
or when i'm somewhere alone!
i mean, when i'm somewhere where no one knows me!
[haha maybe tt's why i've been attending a lot of stuff alone! ]

haha and YUP, like jinghuan say,
close friends not necessarily hav to know each other for very long,
what's more impt is they must be on the same frequency!
((:

oh and tt day joshua was teling me he's profiling ppl!
haha i think tt's quite cool lah,
like classify ppl according to their personality types then you can see the similarities clearly (:
oh, and joshua is another guy who really change A LOT.

erm,
could see that jinghuan is super stressed abt Promos.
she was like saying tt she has insomia!
OMG lah to me tt's very serious cos i always fall asleep within 5 seconds!
[yeah i'm a pig]
cos mostly i lack sleep so i think that sleep is super ultra impt!!!!!
argh. i wasn't stressed initially but i think i now am :(

cos i got 3 days to finish the entire hist syllabus for the Hist mock Exam :(
and my flopped-like-siao hist test recently isnt going to help :((
ARRGHH. studying day in school again! ((:

in addition, miss leong set a Promo target for us - best improved class!
i mean, she was super enthu talking abt it lah!
but yah! i think it's a good goal for us to work towards!
JIAYOU 5C12! WE CAN DO IT DE!
MUST OWN THEM! ^_____________^
so we can go party? or class chalet @ bintan? (:

oh but she also said abt the tough requirements to get into SMU :(
oh well, i'll jus hav to work harder!
i do believe that i have wat it takes (:

ok! confirmed the need to pia like mad during the hols.
shall try to keep myself relatively free this hols.
A Levels, SYF, and whatever else.
2009, here i come!!!

pre-promo rant

2008-09-09T22:11:00.000-07:00

Despite his post on the forum
GP lesson today was surprisingly pleasant.
Haha. Nope, I don’t think that we deserved to receive another blasting,
But it was jus that after hearing whatever he said to 31,
I was thinking: better brace myself for wadever comes!

Different teachers have their own style of teaching I suppose.
Though I do think that his way of outburst is too extreme,
It does shows that he’s a teacher who cares lah.
at least he bothers scolding us?

It’s like, some other teachers way of teaching is thru fun learning and everything,
But whatever the teaching method the teachers adopt,
We just have to adapt ourselves to it?
They jus want the best for us right.
I mean, I seriously think he is a good teacher lah.
Look at all those notes & answer schemes he compiled.
they are useful lor, but ONLY IF we can squeeze out time to read them that is.

Speaking of which, there’s like a super huge pile of stuff for me to read thru
In addition to the stack of overdue math assignments to complete.
I seriously doubt that I could finish all these before promos lor.
And I really need to improve on my writing skills. (also thinking skills)
And get someone to go thru all my math problems with me.
And force myself to sit there and really understand all those computing terms,
And get someone to go thru all those Java practicals.

Sigh. Wad a whole lot to do.
Not to mention if I have enough determination to force myself to focus on doing work.

Time is running out.
I seriously hav a feeling this would stretch over to the dec hols.
But I’m DETERMINED not to let it influence my Year 6 year.
That means I need to be working hard thru out the hols as well.
(can see that I’m making long term goals cos I seriously doubt that I can achieve anything much in the upcoming promos. >.< )

Sighz. I really need a M I R A C L E!
And it needs to be a quick one too!

TIME not enough :(

2008-09-05T20:06:00.000-07:00

2nd last day of sept hos.

really felt the urgency to finish the pile of mostly-untouched homework.
not like it has been much of a holiday,
but at least i could catch up on much needed sleep and wake up naturally every morning?
[by naturally i meant no assistance from my mum or alarm clock. haha ]

thinking back,
i hadnt finish 90% of what i set to accomplish this hols. (yeah, as EXPECTED)
as much of the hols has been dedicated to PW.

but i daresay that i'm proud of my PW grp for chionging thruout most of the hols!
GOOD WORK PPL!

haha yup after hearing so many horror stories from some other ppl,
i'm really glad to have such a nice grp for PW lah.
though the people like quite randomly put tgt,
but i think sometime random does wonders!

like how we had a good laugh over a random book from the Bedok Library children's section:
The Boy who looked like Abe Lincoln
it's not really a children book as it might seem.
[ haha interested ppl go read tt book! but 1st u need to know who is Lincoln and Nixon (: ]

much to our dismay, our usual hangout (Bedok Macs)
has recently blocked up their electric plug :(
we were like, no wonder there seemed to be fewer laptop users chionging for the plug!

worst still,
they stopped their supply of garlic chili.
furthermore, their chickenfoldover taste terrible.
ARRGH. i hate MACS.

haha but i really look forward to after promos!
then we chiong our OP ((:

but meanwhile, study hard ppl!
we first need to SURVIVE PROMOS !!!

sigh i realised i'm not really that efficient mugger that i thought i could become.
environment seriously matters, i think.
like me, i nearly almost 任命 le.
until something elvina said that made jot back to realisation that,
hey, that is totally unlike of me.
i could do it de, i know it.
i just chose not do do it? but WHY?
why am i depriving myself of the chance to prove myself?
something is seriously wrong lah.
i need to get back on form.

so thanks elvina!
and all those who believe in me.
i really got to catch up on my slackness for the paste one year.
and i really need to learn some time management skills.
i think the sept hols was a good start.
i jus need to continue with it.

and here's sorry in advance to all the people i have to reject.
so, dont tempt me, ppl.
i know what i'm doing, jus dont make me go offcourse.

i need to reset my priorities,
as long as get some self-dsicipline before it's too late.
i need to start NOW.

cherish health! & the happy moments ((:

2008-08-30T07:17:00.000-07:00

thanks for the concern and all,
i feel much better aft sleeping for one whole day le! (:

woah it really felt terrible to be sick.
it's like i havent been sick for ultra long le,
maybe becos of my flu jab?
but then again, i felt better aft 2 days.
still not too bad ((:

was unwell from thus le,
didnt feel much better aft drinking 2 bottles of Nutri Tea :(
so couldnt go stayover at Nicole's house with the rest.

but i still went to sch on fri though.
cos aft preparing so long for it,
it's finally 5C12's big day to ROCK THE SCHOOL!

haha i think everyone looked super cool!
i took lots of pictures with my new Sony Cyber-shot DSC-T2!
here's some and the rest are uploaded HERE.
(haha yup the last photo from the album was the one tt i went with Lyon to look for mr gi @ the com lab)

among all the DeathNote, Iron Ladies, Pirates OTC, Army Days, Dracula, Ah Long Ptd Ltd (with real parangs!),
we won 3rd place! (along with Alice in Wonderland)
Hairspray was 2nd, thought they looked really cute with their dresses ((:
erm 1st was Geisha,
though i really thought that Joker was better in terms of painted faces.
(here's a couple of Jokers to prove my case.)
but oh well, the judges decision is final i guess.
and, did i mention, miss leong was awarded one of the best dressed teachers!

think this year's teachers' day celebrations was better than the previous years,
not only was the dressing up but also the concert!
our teachers were super sporting during the charades!
i thought they were pretty cool. esp the transformers part ((:

it was a pity that i couldnt go for class outing aft tt.
was feeling like puking aft the bus ride >.< [in which almost our whole class zonk out] went home to sleep the rest of the day off. but no worries, i felt better after puking le ((: really proud of my class for being so enthu! that's wad i like about 5C12 (: i jus hope that, like jolai said in her email, we would be able to translate reflection into action soon! that would be the best teachers day present for our teachers (: going out to all the teachers who made a difference in my life,
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!
YOU'RE THE BEST!

wake up call

2008-08-30T07:00:00.000-07:00

aft all that from mr tan,
i could only say tt jolai's email was expected.

like wad's said earlier,
it's really time for us to reflect on our behaviour and really and truly translate tt into action.
in other words, we really need to BUCK UP.

kind of surprised to realise tt ppl actually read my blog though.
it made me re-read my previous post.

i realised i sort of typed lots of unpleasant stuff.
sorry guys, it was all typed in anguish so i apologise if it sounded offensive or smth.

but then again, abt the the 'herd instinct':
dont u guys think we ought to pay more attention to our own actions cos it doesnt simply have a effect on ourselves but would lead to a reaction from others - which emplfied, may in turn lead to a negative empression of our attitude on the teachers?

so wad i'm saying is, our actions doesnt only have an impact on us alone but also hav externalities on those ard us, so always think twice b4 we do smth (:

so JIAYOU 5C12!
show the rest jus how capable we are!

thanks to our GP for the wake up call,
i guess we really needed it (:

time to REFLECT and GROW UP

2008-08-27T08:13:00.000-07:00

ARRGH.

super stressed this week.
yeah i know i'm like one of the lucky ones that dont hav any tests this wk,
but for me,
it's more of an emotional truma? rollar coaster ride?
and let me tell u, it doesnt feel so good either.

which ever the case,
it's jus bad lah.
the promos drawing nearer,
the tension is driving everyone madd lah.
esp the teachers.

it's like,
3 scolding session in a row,
miss leong, mr tan, mr glibert lee.
ok, maybe mr lee's words during econs are meant to be motivating.
but it jus came at the wrong time, when we were still suffering from the aftermath of mr tan's SUPER LOUD scolding that took all of us by SHOCK.
he even went to the extent of asking us to write on a piece of paper the GP teacher we want for next year. cos he doesnt want to teach us anymore.
i dont know how to put it,
but it's jus tt it seems we're not even doing ourselves the favour of handing in work on time,
what more do we expect from him?
however, it's like, maybe he hasn't given up on us,
cos if he did that he likely wont hav to strain his voice so much by screaming at that volume.
i never knew mr tan could shout tt loud.
certainly dont wish to hear that ever again.

you would have to be there to know what i mean.
it was totally >.<
yeah. so it's like, this 'encouragement' sort of backfired when used at the wrong time.
mr lee's words most likely is the result of miss leong's sharing.
so, in other words, it boils down to the same problem. US.

i mean, for all these to happen, there shld be a root cause right?
and i think i know what's the root cause - US.
and our @#%^*&$ attitude towards studying.

it's not like we shld be a mugger class or smth.
it's just tt we shld be more serious in the way we treat our homework.
it's really time to take our own initiative to finish work on time without having teachers to keep chasing us for it.

also it's time to reflect on our attiude.
esp during lessons.
we are too self-centred.
i really think we ought to show the teachers' more respect lor.

it really is the mob instinct.
it's like, all it takes is for one person to say/do smth beyond the line and the rest would follow,
despite all that disturbing the rest and distracting the teacher.
i think it's seriously wrong lor.

then again, it's not like we havent been scolded b4.
scolded, SO WHAT.
the exact situtation occurs again in the next lesson.
no significant improvement. back to sq one.
that's the problem with the class lah.

SUPER CHILDISH.
jus like a child, completely self-centred.
do what makes u happy w/o sparing a thought for the rest.
only concerned with what's the moment's happiness and do things TOTALLY IGNORING the long term concequence.

...

we really need to GROW UP
like mr tan said, have more perspective.
spare a thought for others the next time u wish to say some out of line in class.

...

actually i dont even know why i bother writing this.
it's not like we are going to change anyway.
just like wad mr gilbert lee said, 认命 lor.

but then again,
why does the teacher even bother to scold when they know we are likedat?
tt's cos they think we deserve another chance,
they still have faith in us.

and tt's why i shld keep the faith,
and hope that the rest realises this too.

busy busy week! ><

2008-08-17T06:46:00.000-07:00

woah. seems like i havent blogged for a long time.
shows that this week has been really hectic,
and i assume it's jus going to get worse.
gearing up for promos i guess.

looking at those peeps who started counting down,
it's also a glaring signal for me - not much time left le! MUST catch up!
reminding me of how much i'm lagging >.< style="font-weight: bold;">6 August - BTMC trip!
haha it was quite an eye opener i think,
imagine all the guys going there 2 years later! ((:
and we saw MAYFONG! and Cheryl! ^__________^
haha the NUS High kids were there too! along with some ppl from YJC, yup.
and ohhh did i mention, they have cool food!
the green 'kinder-surprise' especially! - haha i'm a glutton, i know ((:

8 August - Cross Country @ Changi Beach
i reached the bus station and saw this LOOONG queue.
so i went back to Pasir Ris Mrt and guess who i found?
the 4e peeps!~
YAY i was super happy to see them lah! (:
and we're going to catch Batman aft tt cos i managed to persuade them to watch with me aft mass PE on Tue (:

but we were quite late lah,
libing called when we were on the bus.
then when we got off, i heard this familar voice saying: “快点！”
oppz, and guess wad, it was Miss Seow!
so we ran across the bridge, haha (:

i sat with Lyon, Dora & Keith.
let me tell u. the jazz version of our national day songs sound SUPER o.0
to make it worse, there was this invited emcee, Benjamin Heng or smth, to lead the community songs.
he wasn't really getting our attention though,
dora was more entertaining (:
and then there was the house committee, singing + beatboxing. haha (:

then things somehow got better when Stars from Beyond came.
they are this hiphop crew tt remixed national our national day songs and choreographed dances to go along with it.
think it was quite innovative and they were much better then Benjamin Heng for sure (:
i esp like their signature stars-from-beyond move! ((:

but aft their performance there was nothing much to entertain us.
maybe reason was it was our 1st time organising such events.
due to poor organisation there was jus a lack of entertainment.

so my PE partner and i entertained ourselves by going to cheer for our friends in the competitive race!
wah they ran super fast lah!
and so scary! - cos aft tt we heard a lot of a lot of not so good stuff happening. SIGHZ.
in a competitive race the thing shldnt be like, one lane lor.
sure got a lot of shoving ard de.
that wasnt all lor. the awarding of the medals were also problematic.
2 ppl of the same class cant both get medals? tt's ridiculous!
HAIIII - big sigh.

but we discovered tt a lot of ppl could run!
and our dearest guitar senior PinYen was the fastest runner in school!
GOOD JOB! ^____________^

ohh Lyon was super disappointed Mr Gi couldnt come to run.
if not i think he'll super fast too! (:

met up with LiBing, Suat, Joce & Elvina aft tt.
we spent a long time deciding where to go eat!
we were still discussing on the taxi lah!
haha but in the end we went to Changi Airport cos we thought tt the rest of the places will be full of people!

went to Popeye's to eat cos there isnt outlets anywhere else in Singapore.
there quite a lot of ppl so quite hard to find seats.
ohh and the teachers came! a whole tableful of them somemore!
and the NPCC squad! and some Year 5s! looks like changi airport is quite a popular destination aft all!
and yup it was nice!
but rather unhealthy too.
erm, think of KFC + Long John Silvers plus lots of spices and u'll get it (:

aft a super lengthy discussion,
we finally decided towatch Batman at Princess.
but we had to rush there though, to be able to make it.
we meet Xiaoyou there, cos she had class lunch @ changi and didnt know where was the princess. (:

and we made it!
Batman was a nice moive! and a long one too!
oh but then cos we were all super tired then keep dozing off and missing parts!
and only 3 of us caught the 3 sec of Edison Chen!
but i really think Joker's mind games are cool! ((:

everyone was SUPER HIGH after watching Batman tt we decided to sit down to analyse it!
haha then guess wad,
we spend close to 4 hours @ Bedok Macs jus talking!
and we didnt even buy anything lor!
we totally analyse the whole of batman from top to end and all of joker's mind games!
haha and we talked abt how every guy in 4e is weird.
and that Suat & Joce are weird too!
and lots of random stuff!
HAHA 4E PEEPS ROCK! ^_________________^

9 August - PW time >.<
had embRACE meeting in the morning,
then went to Bedok Macs - yes AGAIN, for PW.
wah can u believe it there were like super a lot of Year 5s down there lah!
at least got wad, 3 tableful? 0.o
we are totally MADD.
ended up sharing the electric plug ((:

ohh and agnes almost lost her phone!
super funnY!
but lucky for her honest ppl seating at our previous seat found it (:

13 August - flopped my hist test
i was super stressed up tt i decided to totally give up and give myself time to breathe.
need i say more?

15 August - TGIF!
i always loved fridays!
not only of the free periods but there's also guitar!
oh but this time wasnt tt good cos we had to present our chamber pieces,
in which, ERM, wasnt such a success.
but nevertheless we will try harder!
PPL! when are u guys free to practice?
we need to find a common slot! (:

went home with the guitar peeps,
there were surprisingly a large no. of ppl going home tgt this time!
except Molly who left 1st, those who usually pangseh us didnt this time round!
haha we sang 'Sing' to Mr Sng,
who kindly offered us a ride which we reluctantly rejected cos we had too many ppl!
and i was thinking if we took his car we'll likely stink it up or make so much noise tt his ear drums might break!

haha okok it was only the 3 of us making the most noise - namely Suat, xiaoyou & me!
oppz, yah it's the 4e peeps.
revisiting our high times @ Bedok Macs!
i still remb we all thought we hav fever cos our faces burning,
then we realise it's cos we laugh too much! HAHA!

once again, 4E peeps ROCK! ((:
i totally look forward to watching The Prestige together!
though i expect we'll have to talk more than 4 hours this time :P

i'm a MAYDAY addict (:

2008-08-05T08:33:00.000-07:00

haha I LOVE MAYDAY!
so much so that i'm turning in a addict?
cos as hongsheng puts it, mayday songs are like drugs, they make you HIGH!
HAHA BUT I DONT CARE LAH!
addict then addict lor!
MAYDAY ROCKS! ((:

开天窗!

一隻鯨魚要怎麼放進冰箱
打開門然後用力關冰箱
然後呢如果你還想要放一隻大象

一份希望要怎麼放進心臟
如果你活得有一點悲傷
答案是用力丟掉鯨魚
用力甩悲傷

是誰說半夜不能吃便當
是誰說彩虹不能長在頭上
是誰說藍色就等於憂傷
你看看天空和海洋
順風時就展開雙翅飛翔
逆風時就當成在衝浪
沒有風的時候那就讓我
開開天窗

一句歌詞怎麼讓你很難忘
方文山林夕和我都在想
想破頭也鑽不進一個緊閉的心房
一個難題要用多少的智商
多少淚還有多少的盼望
多少人變成緊閉門窗孤獨的國王

and other SUPER MOTIVATING SONGS!

this MV is UBER CUTE lah!
read the lyrics! (: (: (: (: (:
憨人!

and this is the chinese version,
lyrcis easier to understand bah!
咸魚!

MAYDAY ROCKS!!! ^_____________^

random (:

2008-08-05T06:53:00.000-07:00

the weekend felt like a breeze,
certainly a short-lived one, cos it was like, gone in a moment.

haiz. as expected i'm like procrastinating again lor.
bad habit but hard to kick.

doesnt help tt promos is only weeks away...
Zzzz >.< size="4">不起来。
haha.]

oh tmr we going BMTC!
our class is like in some Island Jade Green grp with all the 30+ classes lah.
so weird, like the only arts class out of all of them physics ppl.. 0.o
supposed to do WR after tt but i doubt we can make it bah..
and fri is cross-country @ Changi Beach!
4E outing to watch Dark Knight after that. YAY!
haha shows tt i'm better at planning play time than study time (:

i shld really do like wad lyon says:
try to clear my pile of outstanding homework first,
then start to chiong for promos.
but then i dunno how long i'll take to clear tt pile lah.
like dora said, by the time i reach half the pile,
i'll most likely be super tired and jus give up trying liao.
and the pile is likely to keep on growing at an expotential rate lah.
where got time to study for promo?

i'm dead. >.<

guitar day ((:

2008-07-26T05:27:00.000-07:00

haha today is another guitar day.
went to sch early to prac for performance.
hongsheng & nic & jovi ran past.
but i caught up with them aft i took the shortcut by the carpark (:

erm abt the performance.
aubrey was not bad, at least of the 1st part lah.
el bimbo was a bit messy.
i think doraemon was good.
katchuysa was >.<
we jus went faster & faster.
dunno why also.
haiz. think we need more prac bah.

aft deciding to go dohby ghaurt eat,
the bunch of guitar ppl went to take 111.
met eddy, who complained we were noisy.
i think so too. the ppl on the bus must hav hated us.
but the convo was ultra funny can!

went to KFC,
under the insistence of jinghuan.
had a hard time finding seats for 9 ppl.
but in the end we found a space in the corner with 3 tables.
we somehow managed to alter the seating and squeezed in a table in between them so that everyone can seat tgt!
the ppl at KFC must have hated us also.

i love the dhs guitar ensemble,
even though the rest of the world most likely wont like us much.
haha (:

MAYDAY HAS DONE IT AGAIN!!!

2008-07-25T23:34:00.000-07:00

Qu: 一只鲸鱼要怎么放进冰箱? Ans: 打开门然后用力关冰箱!

haha feeling super good now after hearing MAYDAY'S NEW SONG!
u all shld all go listen to mayday songs! and read the lyrics!
most of them are motivational! (shown implictly in the lyrics)
and that's why i like them so much!
cos they are super motivating and i can identify with most of the songs ((:

MAYDAY ROCKS LAH! ((:

eventful day (:

2008-07-25T08:00:00.000-07:00

woah i really shld be sleeping now,
slept at 2+am yesterday cos our whole grp was chionging econs proj
lucky we mangaed to finish it!
though there were some errors but i'm proud to say tt our 2am work has received some praises!
GOOD JOB EVERYONE!
though we had quite a tough time,
but wat's impt is we managed to finish it!
going out to nicole, hongyi & jason - GET A WELL-DESERVED SLEEP! ((:

haha okok back to talking about random stuff.
had a fun time in PC today!
yup PC lesson was funn!
thanks to our 3 very entertaining student teachers esp + responsive students!
i really laughed out really loud and it helped to relief some of the homework stress
so THANKS GUYS!

and miss leong!
she insisted on cutting our ice-cream cake in class though we wanted to cut it in the canteen to show-off to the other classes lah.
i'll never forget how we all tried to poke at the super-frozen cake and all broke our forks!
HAHA!
guess this is the good side of having a whole bunch of Es in 5C12! ((:

oh and guitar.
well, fridays were scarce of ppl as usual.
there were like, 4 of us?
so we prac in the small guitar room admist all tt renovation noise from the 1L classroom.
amazing hearing ability, isnt it?

oh then in come esther.
which was the highlight of the day in a way.
ERM. in a not so positive way too.

had a LOOONG talk with the guitar peeps on the way home.
guess the guitar ensemble though small, has our fair share of problems too.
realised that the ensemble is like a miniature of Singapore,
not really democratice nor is it theoractic.
it's more like - socially democratic, if u get wad i mean.
[ haha trying to practice my GP here (: ]

lucky we are such a united bunch that the problem isnt big.
it seems like jus a problem of miscommunication or rather, a lack of communication.
well, they've sent me out as a middle man to try to resolve the problems,
[cos one was too soft and the other too gao3 xiao4 ]
and i sure hope it'll work out (:

kim seems to be more 0xy-like today!
haha keep up the good work for the sake of dhsguitar!
i think the 'stick' method will work! ^___^

practice was ok i suppose.
jus that we definitely need more practices before our performance tmr.

which reminds me.
i need to get to sch early for guitar prac early tmr!
gtg le!
BYEEEEEEEEEEEE~

today!

2008-07-22T07:27:00.000-07:00

ran 3.4km today!
think it felt better to run at the park connector than the sch track (:
felt quite accomplished after tt, haha.
special thanks to my pe partner Lyon!
for running tgt with me every pe lesson ((:

went home with Lyon, Dora, and Jocelyn today!
realised tt we are all quite involved in CIP stuff!
haha it's really good to see tt so many ppl still cared,
despite our busy schedule.

and Joce & Dora interested to join my volunteering group!
YUPP i agree with Dora tt it's good to join external stuff so that we dont limit ourselves to the DHS social circle.
i've always felt tt dhs life is too sheltered, to the extend that we dont really know what's happending outside our world.
therefore i feel that it's important to HAVE A LIFE outside school!
expose urself to more stuff is part of the growing up process.
and what's more you can do smth meaningful along the way!
all the better! ((:

oh and Dora comment tt i changed a lot.
true bah i suppose.
since she was in the same class with me in sec1&2,
so qualified to comment (:

i think so also lah!
become more Extrovertic i suppose.
mostly becos of guides i think!
i still think guides shaped me a lot.
i wont be who i am today without guides!
^___________________^

but sometimes change doesnt neccessily mean for the better.
as in like, this has nothing to do with guides lah.
it's jus me lor.
sometimes i lose some of my positive character traits along the process.
values like humble, and being thoughtful to the feelings of others while being too candid.

so here's my apology if i hurt u or make u angry at times.
i'm still trying to change for the better so correct me if i say/do smth wrong k?
i welcome frank opinions! (:

oh but i wanna emphasise i'm still an Introvert at heart.
and i think tt there's always a time for extrovertism and introvertism.
tt's why i cant stand it when our class gets super noisy during lessons.
cos 5C12's full of Es. tt means tt we're a very enthu bunch of ppl!
and tt's why i like our class!
but sometimes being overly loud can really irriate me.
esp during GP/Math lessons. >.<

i found out from the INFJ analysis tt INFJs learn best in lecture style.
[thanks xiaoyou!]
and i agree, but think the ENFJ part of me will need productive tutorials.
keyword: productive.
u could hardly call lessons productive when half the time some ppl are not even trying to listening.
tt slows down the class's progress, and, in case you havent notice, is the main reason why our class has to stay back for sub classes and is almost rock bottom for most of the subjects.

not forgetting, part of the reason is us not handing up work on time.
and i admit to be guilty of that too.
i shld jus stop blaming others and take a look at myself lah.
SIGHZ.

oh and tt day Marion was commenting that i take everything halfway then drop.
there's like no continuity in my life like dat.
which i agree lah.
previous triple science student now arts student.
previous BSP student now not taking anything related to chinese.
previous take Geog now realised Hist so much more fun.
previous best AEP student now take computing and is like one of the WORST.

ARRRGH.
i'm like doubting my choices lah.
why did i choose to give up Art?
then take up new subjects like Econs and Computing which i score HORRIBLY in?
yes i like to take on new challenges but A level is not joke right?
is it still possible for me to reconsider? 0.o

haha randomness again.
i shld learn how to organise my thoughts when writing.
essential GP skill. (:

BACK FROM COMPUTING CHALET + NIGHT FEST + TRAVELLING TOGETHER!

2008-07-20T05:20:00.001-07:00

haha if it really was a computing chalet then good.
rather, it was this codeXtremeApps coding competition that Mr Gi forced us to sign up for though were were clueless about Adobe Flex.
and to make it worse, it's 24 hours non-stop competition time 0.o

i was so high went i first reach lah!
firstly cos the competition is SMU! ((:
secondly ching, grace, agnes & i were happy to find out that all the DHS ppl are in the same room!
it was almost like a chalet lah! - COMPUTING CHALET! cool right?
they got give us event tee too!
it'll be our computing shirt. COOL HOR?
the computing family felt at home immediately (:

but then when the competition started, it wasnt as good as we hoped lah.
firstly, we got on bad terms with the 3 guys sitting on our left cos they tried to hide our laptops ^$##!*^#%##!
then brainstorming for the theme "Extreme Sports Entertainment" met with some problem.
then we were really stuck at the Flex. >.<>.< size="4">travelling together!

was quite late cos of XtremeApps,
so they were already at AMK foodfare when we reach there le.

nevertheless, i was quite happy to see that the elderly are enjoying themselves!
as they are all wheelchair bounded,
it's very hard for them to come out to take public transport and go to shopping centres like AMK Hub.
so it has been a 1st time in many years for most of them.
i could really see the smile on their faces when they were happily eating their food and have so many ppl to take-care of them.
i went over for a small chat and saw this super cute auntie!
she was very animated in her actions and i could feel that she's genuninely enjoying all our attention!
and Cara was jus telling me how this uncle was exclaiming his joy over being able to be around so many people at the same time, how he enjoys being part of a crowd, and how full he is by showing us his tummy and unbuttonable pants!
HAHA so cute right?

refering to Lyon's post,
i totally agree with her that it's really difficult to get ppl to come out on a weekend to do CIP.
esp when they are not obliged to.
OK, but even when they HAVE TO, for example, class cip, i'm like having to BEG for them to sign up.
is that supposed to be the case?
why is it called a CLASS CIP?
shldn't the class take the initiative too?

okok, i shldnt be quick to dismiss the fact that many of my classmates, have went for sessions and put in effort, esp LiBing - whom the children @ Lengkok Bahru misses (:
but i could jus ignore the fact that many of the ppl are simply not participating.

haiz. so it's back to the concept of volunteerism again.
i took up this path because i have the passion to serve the community,
and i know the journey is not going to be easy as it's going to take up a lot of my time for studies - in which i'm facing dire concequences for. >.< size="4">如果我不入地域，谁入地狱？

haha but still,
thankfully, there are a handful who share the same passionate thoughts as me.
like Lyon! (: - so sorry i always cant make it to her events though.
they jus HAVE TO fall on the same dates as mine!
oh well, there's always the next time right?
you'll come to my event while i'll go for yours.
the volunteerists should support each other right? since it's all for the good of the community! ((:

and the Travelling Together Committee!
i think we're cooL!
a bunch of ladies working tgt towards a safe field trip for the elderlY!
after today's successful event,
all the late meetings we had at Toa Payoh every Tues evening were worth it.
and it's thru tt i knew u guys better too!

ohh and Cara the small bad wolf & Marion the humpty dumpty!
haha i found they were lame as they found out i was!
haha i'm only lame when i'm High!
according to Geraldine & Gary, my engergy level fluctuates so i can be really Low too. yup.
i think DHS ppl are generally lame!
and after interacting with these 2 AJ ppl,
i can make the general assumption that AJ ppl are lame too! ((:
haha they are NICE PPL!
hope to keep in touch with them!

esp if Marion can stop niaoing Cara me & WenJia!
and though the shirt looks big on me,
I'M NOT SMALL OK, IT'S THE SHIRT BIG!
haha ((:

this week end was FUNN!
except tt i didnt do any homework/math test/econ proj/EoM 0.o

my goal list!

2008-07-18T06:34:00.001-07:00

was overwhelmed but lots of stuff this week.

decided to do smth to solve my time managment crisis

>.<

SIMIN'S ULITMATE

TIME-CONTROL +

SELF-DISCIPLINE LIST

firstly, i need to STOP PROCRASTINATING.
i've always liked to stone/daydream.
and time always flies by everytime i do it.
ARRGGHH. no wonder i cant study by myself at home.
i'll tend to lose focus.
esp when doing math.
cos i dont know how to do, so i think.
then i'll start to stone. >.< thus my second thing on the list is
ASK PPL TO STUDY WITH ME AND TEACH ME!
next time want study tgt call me along k?
i cant study at home cos my bed + computer too tempting le (:

i also need to SLEEP EARLY
for those whom i'm close to,
will know that i have this tearing condition.
where my eye can jus suddenly start tearing non-stop due to overdriness.
reason? i sleep too late every night.
it's super pain can.
jus imagine ur body squeezing ur eyeball jus to get tears out to moisturise ur eyes.
>.< i shld cut down on my external committments.
yup, that means CIP
and for those who know it, high five youthvolunteering grp.
esp after travelling together ends this sunday.
and tt means i would not be able to take up other CIPs :(
[ sorry if i'm unable to help! esp to Lyon ]
but there's sitll my class CIP,
which i getting REALLY DIFFICULT cos 5C12 is not really cooperative.
[ so long liao class tee still havent decided lah! ]

i've decided tt i shld also cut down on my committments @ sch
i jus found out that amazingly i have 4 CCAs: guitar, ISAC, publications, infocomm club
and tt's not cool.
cos i dont have enough time for my homework,
let alone all of them.
i dunno why i signed up for everything in the first place leh.
perhaps i'm jus being overly ambitious?
nevertheless they have became part of my committments and i shld try to handle them! (:
at least for this year.
cos think next year will need to focus on studies & guitar concert/SYF. yup.

i need to do my work on time!
and do enough preparation so that i can stay on track!
i'm totally behind for math lah! >.< >i need to follow what i've planned RELIGIOUSLY!
all my previous time-management list failed miserably lah.
let's jus hope hist wont repeat itself!
i jus hope i have enough self-discipline!
but i've always been one who will be on the look-out for new things to try out,
to keep myself busy, but always forgeting that i have other commitments on hand.
let's jus say i dunno how to prioritize lah.
and lack self-decipline :(

but i'm proud of myself being able to hand up econs article and GP compre on-time! ((:

oh but i still have econs proj and math test next wk.

SIAO LAH.
and we are going to SMU for 24 hour computing competition on Sat & Sun.
all night no sleep still need to
rush to Travelling Together CIP right aft tt.
and i still need to do study math + econs proj and go school on mon.
GG.

uber pro guitar playing!

2008-07-13T09:09:00.000-07:00

koped this from hongsheng's new blog. (:

guides campfire ((:

2008-07-13T08:02:00.000-07:00

after attending the campfire and listening to all the talks by the old guiders + scouters + the old guides,
i got reminded of how guides used to be.
esp when it was late at night,
when only our jie was left.
it felt like the guides i remembered.
where we stayed in sch till super late to finish everything up.

the only difference was, this time we were not alone.
it helped to know that there were guiders there with us,
i really appreciate their efforts.
THANK YOU SO MUCH! (:

i realised how much i missed guides.
how much i missed listening to all the inspiring speechs.
how much i missed my seniors - though i still dont really dare to talk to them.
how much i misssed my jie.
how much i missed everything.

i really admire their dedication towards guides lor.
esp the 24th batch of guides.
they can like still keep in contact for so super long.
and can remain so devoted to guides, even bringing their kids to our campfire and everything.

haha i can imagine 10 or 20 years down the road,
then we all come back for guides campfire again.
no doubt we'll all be like a whole lot of aunties,
but i'll still smile at all the familar faces.

to all guides, no matter young or old:
keep the guiding light burning stronger than ever.
- till we meet again ((:

i'm a girl guide, true and true. (:

2008-07-11T20:45:00.001-07:00

yup. this is going to be yet another one of my 'how time flies' proclaimation.

went to look at the dhscoy blog and saw the passing down for the sec 4s this year.
kind of got reminded of our own passing down a year ago.
i was jus thinking back on my 4 years in guides,
full of ups and down of cos,
but i was glad that wadever turmoil we went through,
it was as a 届
and i super love 德明第三十八届女童军,
thanks for being there and making the past 4 years a memorable one.
OJs, ATCs, PLTC, everything.
what's important is not only stuff that we've gone through,
but the fact that we've been through it TOGETHER.

a photo taken at our passing down ceremony,
where we handed our beloved guides over to the current 中四s.
and now they're going to hand it over to yet another batch of guides.
i jus hope they'll bring it to greater heights.

the reson i didnt sign on as a YUL is because i have too many commitments.
thus i'm not sure if i can contribute as much to guides like i used to.
also i'm sure that guides would continue to function well with all the rest of my jie going back to help out (:
and the other reason is, well, guides changed.
it just didnt feel the same anymore.
nevertheless, i still love guides. (:
i think guides changd me a lot, and i've learnt lots from it,
more than what i would have learnt anywhere else.
no better where i'll be in the future, guides will forever hav a special place in my heart (:

will be going for the guides campfire later,
celebrating the 40th anniversary of the Dunman High Guides Coy.
40 years is long.
i wonder wad the big big seniors will think when they come back for campfire later in the evening.

once a guide, always a guide right,
even if i didnt sign on as a YUL,
deep in my heart, i'll still be 德明第三十八届女童军.

sv outing (:

2008-07-07T08:52:00.000-07:00

haha finally met up with the SV peeps.
so sorry i couldnt turn up for the previous outing.

thanks to the organizers of today's outing,
i really had funn!
haha. but i thought u guys will go skating lor!
who knows half the ppl went to bowl instead.

but ice-skating is FUNN!
haha even though i fell,
(only once leh! good enough compared to rollar blading lor!)
and it was kind of expensive [i'm broke now]
i still thought it was worth it!

i not only learnt my lesson,
quite painfully >.<
but most importantly,
learnt how to skate!

next time we go skate again k?

and there was NICE CAKE!
go where buy one ar, taste nice leh!
but can tell them put less cream next time. :P

HAHA! i'm HAPPYYYY!! ((:

to everyone else:
next time want to skate/blade, CALL MEEEEE!!!! ((:

2008-07-07T08:35:00.000-07:00

ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i cant believe myself.

when have i become used to being so complacent,
so full of myself, so i-definitely-cannot-be-wrong
- even to the extend of pushing the blame to others?

all along i'm been accusing ppl of being too quick to judge,
stereotyping others based solely on first impressions.
not giving ppl a chance to prove themselves wrong,
always assuming that i-am-always-more-right-than-you,
the worst of all, you-are-always-the-one-in-the-wrong-not-me.

and now i'm guilty of it.

i so totally cannot believe this mann.

what sort of person am i turning into???

I'M SORRY.
REALLY VERY SORRY.

i shldn't have put the blame on you when it's my fault.
i didnt mean to make you feel guilty.

yes i'm degrading myself,
but this is the least i could do.

i admit i'm too cowardly to acknowledge my mistake.
and i hate myself for that.

once again,
sorry.

DHS senior high sports carnival @ sentosa

2008-07-04T08:12:00.000-07:00

cant exactly say it was a blast,
but i still do appreciate the efforts put in to bring us out for a day at Sentosa.
so thanks to everyone who made this possible! (:
[and to the pon-ners, too bad you missed out the morning fun!]

pleasant surprise in the morning:
met chingsiang on bus 80,
though i didnt really notice he was there till i woke up and he said hi. haha.

erm, i did enjoy my morning,
playing with sand and cheering my heart out for the BENNU team ((:
cant really say so for the aftnoon though.
but i found out that i really jus enjoy sitting around on the sand with the waves brushing against my feet.
it was certainly a break from all that screaming and adrenaline rush.
simple pleasures in life is enough to make me smile (:

aft the carnival i had dinner with the 4e peeps.
spent most of the time talking abt the ppl we knew.
any other one of those simple life pleasures - jus random chatting (:

talked so much about other people,
was jus wondering if there are ppl who will talk abt us too? haha.

jus a gentle reminder to whom it may concern:
HAVE INTEGRITY.
i know u guys want to win,
but do spare a thought for others who are jus trying to play fair and square.

it's not worth winning at the expense of ur reputation, you know.

nevertheless, GOOD JOB BENNU!
we'll show them what we've got,
and win HONORABLY next time ((:

B-E-NNU,
Bennu Benuu will TRASHHHHH YOU!

SV photos! finally (:

2008-06-28T23:30:00.000-07:00

haha i finally took some time to download the SV photos!
here are some random ones (:

dawn.

me & my circuit!

ducks @ Oracle

cool pricing huh?

vending machine that sells beauty products

one of the many random candid shots gary took of geraldine

Pyng posing in front of standford university

the photo we took in front of standford university!

geraldine & i @ the Tech museum

the view on top of the SUPER STEEP Lombard Street

Vivian aka TAXY!

where you get super nice cheese cakes:

we took this tram around san frans downtown, quite fun to see ppl on the other train waving (: - each ride is US$5 0.o

the trams run on tracks like this:

fisherman's whaft!

clam chowder soup in a bread bowl, except tt the bread bowl tasted terrible

lots of seagulls waiting for your soup

VCH?? haha.

nice cap hor! but too bad i dont wear caps :(

In & Out burger!

super cute doggie! <3 href="http://s6.photobucket.com/albums/y204/serverxeon/california/?action=view&current=IMG_7347.jpg" target="_blank">

lots of nice scenery

Hollywood characters LIVE

magic school bus

warner bro studios

remb the scene from spiderman?

batman? mystery van?

harry potter's flying car?

universal studios!

universal studios burnt :(

effects show-case

war of the worlds

spongebob!

the above photos are koped from gary
so dont blame me if the photos dont look nice :P [haha jkjk]

MORE PHOTOS!
from the rest of the people

golden gate bridge

James Gosling, creator of JAVA! >.<

super nice Sun Micro HQ!

Group photos!

looking at these photos is making miss california..
but no worries, at least i'll see you guys at the next gathering
till then! ((:

Kevin's Present!

2008-06-27T19:06:00.000-07:00

haha we celebrated Kevin's belated bday during practice on Wed.
this is the cookie cake we got for him!
i went to order at Mrs Field's ((:

the "WE LOVE YOU DE LOR"
was grace's suggestion.
HAHA.

i want it for myself can. haha.

awaitingmiraclez.

I feel so FAT! ><

i don’t want to be that frog.

Mayday-ing! :D

Toy Story 3!

It all depends on perspective.

Food for Thought

read this on my friend’s blog.

really think it’s worth a thought, esp for people in my position, those standing at the cross-road of life.

Oh my Alice, where do you want to go?

i’m a workaholic.

那该多好

HURRAY! :D :D :D

oh well.

第15届新加坡金曲奖大赢家：

五月天得5奖 Mayday's a Hit with 5 awards!

the most successfully class outing EVER!

一生德明人，一世德明情

JIAYOU SONG BY CUTEST LYON (:

simin兵法#101

mr nice guy! <3

my new interest

了解自己才不会迷失自己

evaluation.

勇

i love green tea, TOO MUCH.

伟大ness.

HAPPINESS

化悲愤为力量!

Words of Wisdom

Mayday DNA Concert 2009!

WOOHOO!

simin’s post-it inspiration

simin’s idealistic view of the world (:

last ensemble piece :(

we were invited to perform at the AYG opening ceremony!

SYF DAY! + Celebrations (:

“DUNMAN HIGH SCHOOL.”

“GOLD…”

“… WITH HONOURS.”

the ONLY JC WITH GWH!

esp Kevin’s stunned reaction – HAHA.

i think i can never forget this day in my life, ever.

生命。如烟。

不甘心。

dearest XterminAIDers,

Xterminate AIDS! :D

quote of the day.

music therapy (:

Dream your dream.

i have a new religion

a tribute to our dearest Year 7s

方炯鑌(阿鑌) 壞人MV

Green is the New Pink!

梁靜茹 - 情歌MV

i'm a blessed individual (:

today was a stressful but productive day.

>.<

seniorhigh 09

i'm so LUCKY!!! Ｘ１００

Life's lemons

Today is MAYDAYYYYYYY!

today.

busy busy week ahead

camp vivant (:

recent dining experiences

old + new

i love my SHINY FINGER!

standard chartered marathon

busy week (:

ARRGHH! i hate myself.

a better tomorrow (:

what a day.

busy busy week.

another funny day (:

stunt-badminton! ((:

this saturday (:

HUMPH.

backpack travel anyone? (:

random events (:

i'm so LUCKY!!!　Ｘ１００